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#91
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im switching schools/starting highschool on monday, im scared of people thinking im ugly or weird. i just wanna not interact with ppl at school bc from my experience if i dont say anything there isnt anything to make fun of

im switching schools/starting highschool on monday, im scared of people thinking im ugly or weird. i just wanna not interact with ppl at school bc from my experience if i dont say anything there isnt anything to make fun of
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#92
43 Frags +

not interacting with anyone is the fastest way to make people think you're weird

not interacting with anyone is the fastest way to make people think you're weird
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#93
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Im 17 and weigh 120 pounds idk if that may sound bad or not but im really skinny and have struggled to gain weight for like 5 years and i wear alot of sweaters and long sleeve shirts and feel like shit and like im being frowned upon when i dont hide it

Im 17 and weigh 120 pounds idk if that may sound bad or not but im really skinny and have struggled to gain weight for like 5 years and i wear alot of sweaters and long sleeve shirts and feel like shit and like im being frowned upon when i dont hide it
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#94
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I've lost every friend i've had because i got boring. I can't find new ones because my social skills are non-existant. Every conversation i ever start with anyone ends before it started because i never have something to say. Me and my only friend (who is always to busy with better friends and doesn't want to hang out with me) started hanging out with some dudes during school breaks like almost every day and they all (including my friend) hang out every weekend and never call me and then back to school they tell me how fun it was.

I've lost every friend i've had because i got boring. I can't find new ones because my social skills are non-existant. Every conversation i ever start with anyone ends before it started because i never have something to say. Me and my only friend (who is always to busy with better friends and doesn't want to hang out with me) started hanging out with some dudes during school breaks like almost every day and they all (including my friend) hang out every weekend and never call me and then back to school they tell me how fun it was.
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#95
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I don't know what is going to become of me. Nor do I know what I want to become.

Always had decent grades in high school but didn't do anything. Science classes were my jam and science in general has always interested me so obviously I was planning on doing something in that direction in college.
Was considering chemistry-related stuff (Biochemistry mostly) but my friend who was also really good/interested in chemistry convinced me to go to some info day about pure Chemistry which convinced me to do that.

I'd soon realise I never had been thaught how to study. Highschool was too easy so I'd never even made notes in my life. It was difficult for me even though I didn't consider th classes to be that hard. I simply didn't know how to study actual challenging classes. At the end of the first year I managed to salvage most but I had to redo Physics I & II and Math I & II. Obviously pretty important things if you're doing Chemistry. Because of how the system worked back then this also meant I couldn't do a lot of classes from the second year that required passing those first.

Things really started going downhill now. I only had 3 or 4 classes per semester for the next year and a half. i'd lost most of my motivation and as the semester continued I'd start going to classes less.
After the next 2 semesters I'd at least passed part of the classes including everything from my first year but all barely. I still failed Physics II and Math I but I had a 9/20 on both which our sytem then allows you to pass as long as it only happens for 2 classes each year. You don't get any study credits back though (some system we use)
The 3rd semester I didn't pass anything. I had 3 classes but didn't study enough for any and missed a lot of classes.
This was also when I was at my peak of playing TF2 (10 hours per day for multiple weeks in a row) so I think I'd basically lost all motivation to do anything and my gaming addiction had become a major problem.

Nevertheless I wasn't planning on giving up completely. Next semester I would take all 6 classes again. It'd be tough but I wanted to prove to myself that I could make it. At this point I was trailing behind people I really shouldn't have been trailing behind so I knew I had to pass most of this semester. If I couldn't handle this anymore I should give up.
I had been in college for almost 3 years. Most of the people I started with were starting their Master next year and I was stuck in my 2nd bachelor.
Turns out that semester is actually the hardest semester in the entire bachelor with Quantum Chemistry and shit like that so that didn't turn out well. I had taken 9 classes that year and passed none.

So here we are 2 months after that semester.
So I have to make a decision now. I could probably do it still. It'd just take me twice as long as everyone else at this point. Even if I pass everything from this point on I'm 2 years behind. So my decision is to drop out. Not to do nothing though. I'm continuing Chemistry but I'll be going for a more practical degree. Looked into it and I'll have to do Math I all over again there because of that 9 but Physics there combines my Physics I & II so even though I had a 9 for Physics II they might pass me for it because I passed Phyics I.
I already don't have to do like 9 classes anymore.
Also in colleges here we get a second chance for exams we didn't pass in August. Even though I'm dropping out I'm still retaking 4 out of 9 exams. If I pass some I won't have to do some classes in the other degree I'l be trying to get now. Also just trying to prove to myself I can do it but maybe I'm lying to myself. Had 2 of the exams so far. Passed 1 (probably), failed 1 (definitely).

So yea... idk what I'm doing with my life.
Science interests me but I keep losing motivation halfway through semesters. I don't know if this new course will change things.
I definitely have a video game addiction but I've been working on it. I've been keeping track of the hours I play and they're slowly decreasing atm. went from 70-80 hours per 2 weeks to 40-50 per 2 weeks.
Also been taking therapy since June to find motivation again. Don't know if it's actually helping me but I can only hope it is.

I don't know what is going to become of me. Nor do I know what I want to become.

Always had decent grades in high school but didn't do anything. Science classes were my jam and science in general has always interested me so obviously I was planning on doing something in that direction in college.
Was considering chemistry-related stuff (Biochemistry mostly) but my friend who was also really good/interested in chemistry convinced me to go to some info day about pure Chemistry which convinced me to do that.

I'd soon realise I never had been thaught how to study. Highschool was too easy so I'd never even made notes in my life. It was difficult for me even though I didn't consider th classes to be that hard. I simply didn't know how to study actual challenging classes. At the end of the first year I managed to salvage most but I had to redo Physics I & II and Math I & II. Obviously pretty important things if you're doing Chemistry. Because of how the system worked back then this also meant I couldn't do a lot of classes from the second year that required passing those first.

Things really started going downhill now. I only had 3 or 4 classes per semester for the next year and a half. i'd lost most of my motivation and as the semester continued I'd start going to classes less.
After the next 2 semesters I'd at least passed part of the classes including everything from my first year but all barely. I still failed Physics II and Math I but I had a 9/20 on both which our sytem then allows you to pass as long as it only happens for 2 classes each year. You don't get any study credits back though (some system we use)
The 3rd semester I didn't pass anything. I had 3 classes but didn't study enough for any and missed a lot of classes.
This was also when I was at my peak of playing TF2 (10 hours per day for multiple weeks in a row) so I think I'd basically lost all motivation to do anything and my gaming addiction had become a major problem.

Nevertheless I wasn't planning on giving up completely. Next semester I would take all 6 classes again. It'd be tough but I wanted to prove to myself that I could make it. At this point I was trailing behind people I really shouldn't have been trailing behind so I knew I had to pass most of this semester. If I couldn't handle this anymore I should give up.
I had been in college for almost 3 years. Most of the people I started with were starting their Master next year and I was stuck in my 2nd bachelor.
Turns out that semester is actually the hardest semester in the entire bachelor with Quantum Chemistry and shit like that so that didn't turn out well. I had taken 9 classes that year and passed none.

So here we are 2 months after that semester.
So I have to make a decision now. I could probably do it still. It'd just take me twice as long as everyone else at this point. Even if I pass everything from this point on I'm 2 years behind. So my decision is to drop out. Not to do nothing though. I'm continuing Chemistry but I'll be going for a more practical degree. Looked into it and I'll have to do Math I all over again there because of that 9 but Physics there combines my Physics I & II so even though I had a 9 for Physics II they might pass me for it because I passed Phyics I.
I already don't have to do like 9 classes anymore.
Also in colleges here we get a second chance for exams we didn't pass in August. Even though I'm dropping out I'm still retaking 4 out of 9 exams. If I pass some I won't have to do some classes in the other degree I'l be trying to get now. Also just trying to prove to myself I can do it but maybe I'm lying to myself. Had 2 of the exams so far. Passed 1 (probably), failed 1 (definitely).

So yea... idk what I'm doing with my life.
Science interests me but I keep losing motivation halfway through semesters. I don't know if this new course will change things.
I definitely have a video game addiction but I've been working on it. I've been keeping track of the hours I play and they're slowly decreasing atm. went from 70-80 hours per 2 weeks to 40-50 per 2 weeks.
Also been taking therapy since June to find motivation again. Don't know if it's actually helping me but I can only hope it is.
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#96
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faggetI've lost every friend i've had because i got boring. I can't find new ones because my social skills are non-existant. Every conversation i ever start with anyone ends before it started because i never have something to say. Me and my only friend (who is always to busy with better friends and doesn't want to hang out with me) started hanging out with some dudes during school breaks like almost every day and they all (including my friend) hang out every weekend and never call me and then back to school they tell me how fun it was.

I've had the same problem since I was a child.
However they still tell you about it so they want you to know. Maybe they think you're just not that outgoing because of your social skills.
Directly ask them if you can come with them. It's not easy to ask at first but it has helped me. People just always assumed I wouldn't be interested until I told them I was

I rarely contribute to a conversation or have something to talk about. I always assumed nobody would care if I would be there or not. It took a friend yelling to my face how much he cared and how much I'd helped him in the past for me to realise.
Like I said it's not easy. It probably never will be. But you can't just assume people don't care about you. Assume they care and let them know you do care about them as well

[quote=fagget]I've lost every friend i've had because i got boring. I can't find new ones because my social skills are non-existant. Every conversation i ever start with anyone ends before it started because i never have something to say. Me and my only friend (who is always to busy with better friends and doesn't want to hang out with me) started hanging out with some dudes during school breaks like almost every day and they all (including my friend) hang out every weekend and never call me and then back to school they tell me how fun it was.[/quote]

I've had the same problem since I was a child.
However they still tell you about it so they want you to know. Maybe they think you're just not that outgoing because of your social skills.
Directly ask them if you can come with them. It's not easy to ask at first but it has helped me. People just always assumed I wouldn't be interested until I told them I was

I rarely contribute to a conversation or have something to talk about. I always assumed nobody would care if I would be there or not. It took a friend yelling to my face how much he cared and how much I'd helped him in the past for me to realise.
Like I said it's not easy. It probably never will be. But you can't just assume people don't care about you. Assume they care and let them know you do care about them as well
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#97
2 Frags +

Some people just despise me because of my name. I don't think I should be judged for that.

Some people just despise me because of my name. I don't think I should be judged for that.
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#98
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Percyyyyyim switching schools/starting highschool on monday, im scared of people thinking im ugly or weird. i just wanna not interact with ppl at school bc from my experience if i dont say anything there isnt anything to make fun of

If u can make talk, nobody cares how you look just don't dress like a retard.

faggetI've lost every friend i've had because i got boring. I can't find new ones because my social skills are non-existant. Every conversation i ever start with anyone ends before it started because i never have something to say. Me and my only friend (who is always to busy with better friends and doesn't want to hang out with me) started hanging out with some dudes during school breaks like almost every day and they all (including my friend) hang out every weekend and never call me and then back to school they tell me how fun it was.

Ask them if you can come, there's a reason they're telling u

[quote=Percyyyyy]im switching schools/starting highschool on monday, im scared of people thinking im ugly or weird. i just wanna not interact with ppl at school bc from my experience if i dont say anything there isnt anything to make fun of[/quote]

If u can make talk, nobody cares how you look just don't dress like a retard.

[quote=fagget]I've lost every friend i've had because i got boring. I can't find new ones because my social skills are non-existant. Every conversation i ever start with anyone ends before it started because i never have something to say. Me and my only friend (who is always to busy with better friends and doesn't want to hang out with me) started hanging out with some dudes during school breaks like almost every day and they all (including my friend) hang out every weekend and never call me and then back to school they tell me how fun it was.[/quote]

Ask them if you can come, there's a reason they're telling u
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#99
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posted same thing twice, ignore this

posted same thing twice, ignore this
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#100
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why are people depressed and sad lately what is this, cheer up

why are people depressed and sad lately what is this, cheer up
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#101
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TobI don't know what is going to become of me. Nor do I know what I want to become.

...

Good luck mate, if you need to, hit me up and we can share a beer on a terrace somewhere and talk about it. It also would give me an excuse to make bad jokes to someone who might understand them.

To all the depressed shut-in people feeling the anxiety increasing with each day, good luck people. I have taught myself to be content, despite everything, and it's been working well for years, but it's a long progress, do try to keep at least one irl friend you keep in touch with, even if you don't know what to do. You never know when that rl friend can bail your ass out.

Also, stop calling me loveclop, goddamnit, I just like playing video games.

[quote=Tob]I don't know what is going to become of me. Nor do I know what I want to become.

...[/quote]
Good luck mate, if you need to, hit me up and we can share a beer on a terrace somewhere and talk about it. It also would give me an excuse to make bad jokes to someone who might understand them.

To all the depressed shut-in people feeling the anxiety increasing with each day, good luck people. I have taught myself to be content, despite everything, and it's been working well for years, but it's a long progress, do try to keep at least one irl friend you keep in touch with, even if you don't know what to do. You never know when that rl friend can bail your ass out.

Also, stop calling me loveclop, goddamnit, I just like playing video games.
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#102
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i used to play like 150+ hours in the past two weeks, then my health went down the drain, i was super active before like skateboarding and bmx, after about a few months and some college courses i'm now a longshoremen a few years later and my life is okay, still fucking work all the time.

i used to play like 150+ hours in the past two weeks, then my health went down the drain, i was super active before like skateboarding and bmx, after about a few months and some college courses i'm now a longshoremen a few years later and my life is okay, still fucking work all the time.
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#103
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ShpeeismeSome people despise me because of my name, I don't think I should be judged for that.

Your name is a meme. There is stigma behind it. Some people will never like it/you. Accept it lol

[quote=Shpeeisme]Some people despise me because of my name, I don't think I should be judged for that.[/quote]

Your name is a meme. There is stigma behind it. Some people will never like it/you. Accept it lol
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#104
13 Frags +

I do well in school but have a 9:30 bedtime

I do well in school but have a 9:30 bedtime
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#105
12 Frags +

i'm pale and underweight and people tell me i look like a school shooter
but its ok because i'm jogging/cycling/walking more so eventually i'll get that tan and then i'll just be a underweight weirdo

i'm pale and underweight and people tell me i look like a school shooter
but its ok because i'm jogging/cycling/walking more so eventually i'll get that tan and then i'll just be a underweight weirdo
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#106
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what if ur the kind of white person that only turns red instead of getting tan

what if ur the kind of white person that only turns red instead of getting tan
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#107
6 Frags +

Man people talkin about losing friends and shit but today I was playing tennis and accidentally tossed my tennis racquet over the fence whilst playing and it landed in a river :(

Man people talkin about losing friends and shit but today I was playing tennis and accidentally tossed my tennis racquet over the fence whilst playing and it landed in a river :(
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#108
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the biggest problem there was that u were playing tennis

the biggest problem there was that u were playing tennis
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#109
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#110
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Geknaiirwhat if ur the kind of white person that only turns red instead of getting tan

i think that might be me
what do??

[quote=Geknaiir]what if ur the kind of white person that only turns red instead of getting tan[/quote]
i think that might be me
what do??
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#111
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I don't think I'll ever be good at aiming with a mouse. I'm 20. TF2 is my first ever FPS and I started playing it when I was 18. As far as aiming is concerned think I missed out on all that time in one's childhood where you develop skills rapidly. I wasn't playing quake or counter strike or TF2 when I was in middle school and high school. Which is a shame, because after 1,800 hours of TF2, starting competitive around 700, I'm in love with this game... I just can't click on people.

I don't think I'll ever be good at aiming with a mouse. I'm 20. TF2 is my first ever FPS and I started playing it when I was 18. As far as aiming is concerned think I missed out on all that time in one's childhood where you develop skills rapidly. I wasn't playing quake or counter strike or TF2 when I was in middle school and high school. Which is a shame, because after 1,800 hours of TF2, starting competitive around 700, I'm in love with this game... I just can't click on people.
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#112
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I think the number one issue of most people in this community is that they don't have a passion outside of tf2. Purely online interactions are never going to bring you the sense of fulfillment you want, no matter how much you have them or how good you get at this game. This game is just a hobby, not a way of life. It's fine if you want to play a ton of tf2 and try to get better, but there needs to be something else outside of this game that you're passionate about. Obviously, people have a myriad of problems, but this is something that I see very often here. I just experienced this recently; I finally got involved in something after months of only playing tf2 pretty much, and being exposed to other things really starts to put things in perspective for you (or, it did for me at the very least)

I think the number one issue of most people in this community is that they don't have a passion outside of tf2. Purely online interactions are never going to bring you the sense of fulfillment you want, no matter how much you have them or how good you get at this game. This game is just a hobby, not a way of life. It's fine if you want to play a ton of tf2 and try to get better, but there needs to be something else outside of this game that you're passionate about. Obviously, people have a myriad of problems, but this is something that I see very often here. I just experienced this recently; I finally got involved in something after months of only playing tf2 pretty much, and being exposed to other things really starts to put things in perspective for you (or, it did for me at the very least)
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#113
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CitricI don't think I'll ever be good at aiming with a mouse. I'm 20. TF2 is my first ever FPS and I started playing it when I was 18. As far as aiming is concerned think I missed out on all that time in one's childhood where you develop skills rapidly. I wasn't playing quake or counter strike or TF2 when I was in middle school and high school. Which is a shame, because after 1,800 hours of TF2, starting competitive around 700, I'm in love with this game... I just can't click on people.

Dude, same here except I'm 27 and 5.2k hours.

50% of the reason I mained pyro for 2-3 years was because I thought I'd never have mechanics to play other classes. Still don't think I'll ever play 6s above mid etf2l, but I got over that stupid fear and am improving and having fun. P.S. if I can find ways to be less shit after 5k hours you can do it with 1.8k for sure

[quote=Citric]I don't think I'll ever be good at aiming with a mouse. I'm 20. TF2 is my first ever FPS and I started playing it when I was 18. As far as aiming is concerned think I missed out on all that time in one's childhood where you develop skills rapidly. I wasn't playing quake or counter strike or TF2 when I was in middle school and high school. Which is a shame, because after 1,800 hours of TF2, starting competitive around 700, I'm in love with this game... I just can't click on people.[/quote]

Dude, same here except I'm 27 and 5.2k hours.

50% of the reason I mained pyro for 2-3 years was because I thought I'd never have mechanics to play other classes. Still don't think I'll ever play 6s above mid etf2l, but I got over that stupid fear and am improving and having fun. P.S. if I can find ways to be less shit after 5k hours you can do it with 1.8k for sure
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#114
42 Frags +

no matter how many people say otherwise, i will always think majority of people don't like me and i don't know why

i also have 0 confidence

no matter how many people say otherwise, i will always think majority of people don't like me and i don't know why

i also have 0 confidence
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#115
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The inconsistency in my gameplay makes me discouraged and not hopeful I can move up competitively. I haven't ever been consistent and that worries me.

The inconsistency in my gameplay makes me discouraged and not hopeful I can move up competitively. I haven't ever been consistent and that worries me.
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#116
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#117
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I haven't played video games in almost 1 month and honestly it sucks :(

I haven't played video games in almost 1 month and honestly it sucks :(
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#118
1 Frags +

I appreciate the compliments I get about my looks on my LFT thread but at the same time it would be nice to have more of my friends say nice things about my DM/gamesense. When all I hear is "myles is so cute!" I wonder if thats all they have to say :/ I just wanna be called a fragger!!

I appreciate the compliments I get about my looks on my LFT thread but at the same time it would be nice to have more of my friends say nice things about my DM/gamesense. When all I hear is "myles is so cute!" I wonder if thats all they have to say :/ I just wanna be called a fragger!!
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#119
17 Frags +
Wandumi fucking hate it when people phrase their statements in such a way that they indirectly jerk themselves off
[quote=Wandum]i fucking hate it when people phrase their statements in such a way that they indirectly jerk themselves off[/quote]
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#120
17 Frags +
vriskim a gay boy with homophobic parents and it sucks so bad. People just tell me to cut them off when I turn 18 and move out but I don't wanna do that because I love my parents.

I think the part that hurts the most is when something about LGBT people gets brought up and they talk about how disgusting it is

When you are financially secure and independent of your parents, tell them and then, if they freak, give them time. Don't hang around toxic shit and make it clear that if they want to have a relationship with you, it is on the terms of it being with the real, homosexual, you. But usually if you hold your ground and don't take shit and use the fact that they want you in their lives as much as you want to be in theirs, they will come around.

Good luck. Coming out is hard and being gay when your parents are homophobic is even harder, but you can make it.

[quote=vrisk]im a gay boy with homophobic parents and it sucks so bad. People just tell me to cut them off when I turn 18 and move out but I don't wanna do that because I love my parents.

I think the part that hurts the most is when something about LGBT people gets brought up and they talk about how disgusting it is[/quote]

When you are financially secure and independent of your parents, tell them and then, if they freak, give them time. Don't hang around toxic shit and make it clear that if they want to have a relationship with you, it is on the terms of it being with the real, homosexual, you. But usually if you hold your ground and don't take shit and use the fact that they want you in their lives as much as you want to be in theirs, they will come around.

Good luck. Coming out is hard and being gay when your parents are homophobic is even harder, but you can make it.
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