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991
#991
9 Frags +

no matter how much mge or dm grind or pugging or scrimming or anything i do, i never get any better

i could put up with being mediocre but im by far the weakest link on my team and im so disappointed in myself for it

no matter how much mge or dm grind or pugging or scrimming or anything i do, i never get any better

i could put up with being mediocre but im by far the weakest link on my team and im so disappointed in myself for it
992
#992
2 Frags +
Gritomano matter how much mge or dm grind or pugging or scrimming or anything i do, i never get any better

i could put up with being mediocre but im by far the weakest link on my team and im so disappointed in myself for it

+1 on that chief x

[quote=Gritoma]no matter how much mge or dm grind or pugging or scrimming or anything i do, i never get any better

i could put up with being mediocre but im by far the weakest link on my team and im so disappointed in myself for it[/quote]
+1 on that chief x
993
#993
1 Frags +

pyros holding m1
selfish people
also I would deal with 70-80 ping every game if it meant i could actually play in esea at a reasonable time

pyros holding m1
selfish people
also I would deal with 70-80 ping every game if it meant i could actually play in esea at a reasonable time
994
#994
5 Frags +
Dankk_also I would deal with 70-80 ping every game if it meant i could actually play in esea at a reasonable time

if by that you mean west coast it sucks, u literally cant do anything on scrim match days because you have to play tf2 from 6:30-8:30 every night

[quote=Dankk_]
also I would deal with 70-80 ping every game if it meant i could actually play in esea at a reasonable time[/quote]

if by that you mean west coast it sucks, u literally cant do anything on scrim match days because you have to play tf2 from 6:30-8:30 every night
995
#995
4 Frags +

students have no free speech and it's fucking stupid

students have no free speech and it's fucking stupid
996
#996
15 Frags +

I rarely post on tftv because i don't want to say something stupid and become a meme. Even if I feel like i have something to contribute, I just won't interact with the community out of fear of embarrassment

I rarely post on tftv because i don't want to say something stupid and become a meme. Even if I feel like i have something to contribute, I just won't interact with the community out of fear of embarrassment
997
#997
0 Frags +
warriordragon12Dankk_also I would deal with 70-80 ping every game if it meant i could actually play in esea at a reasonable time
if by that you mean west coast it sucks, u literally cant do anything on scrim match days because you have to play tf2 from 6:30-8:30 every night

Thats about the only time I can play
I get up at 5:30 every day for school

[quote=warriordragon12][quote=Dankk_]
also I would deal with 70-80 ping every game if it meant i could actually play in esea at a reasonable time[/quote]

if by that you mean west coast it sucks, u literally cant do anything on scrim match days because you have to play tf2 from 6:30-8:30 every night[/quote]

Thats about the only time I can play
I get up at 5:30 every day for school
998
#998
35 Frags +

i got the 1000th post on a thread and everyone -fragged me

i got the 1000th post on a thread and everyone -fragged me
999
#999
11 Frags +

fuck me https://streamable.com/vddqy

57+85=142

fuck me https://streamable.com/vddqy

57+85=142
1000
#1000
16 Frags +

One of the main reasons as to why I started playing tf2 was to get over the fact that nearly all my friends stopped talking to me and started being toxic due to starting relationships. This ranged from avoiding interaction with me, to their girlfriends finding me annoying and making my friends stop talking to me, to outright telling me that I'll never be as good as them at anything because they have a girlfriend and I don't.

Recently, it feels as if some of the same stuff has been happening to me, but with edating instead of actual dating. I've had people who I talked to remove me for no reason less than a week after they began edating. I've had people who I talked to a lot just stop talking to me almost altogether after they began edating. And I've had friends who I've known for a long time change completely just in an effort to try to edate some person on the internet. I understand that some of this is my fault, and some of this is just in my head, but it's incredibly frustrating to see it happen over and over. I'm happy for all my friends who end up happy as a result of edating, but I hate how the reason why I started playing tf2 is happening in how I tried to avoid it in the first place.

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haha edating meme person makes post about edating
One of the main reasons as to why I started playing tf2 was to get over the fact that nearly all my friends stopped talking to me and started being toxic due to starting relationships. This ranged from avoiding interaction with me, to their girlfriends finding me annoying and making my friends stop talking to me, to outright telling me that I'll never be as good as them at anything because they have a girlfriend and I don't.

Recently, it feels as if some of the same stuff has been happening to me, but with edating instead of actual dating. I've had people who I talked to remove me for no reason less than a week after they began edating. I've had people who I talked to a lot just stop talking to me almost altogether after they began edating. And I've had friends who I've known for a long time change completely just in an effort to try to edate some person on the internet. I understand that some of this is my fault, and some of this is just in my head, but it's incredibly frustrating to see it happen over and over. I'm happy for all my friends who end up happy as a result of edating, but I hate how the reason why I started playing tf2 is happening in how I tried to avoid it in the first place.

[spoiler] haha edating meme person makes post about edating [/spoiler]
1001
#1001
4 Frags +

I don't usually post on these forums but, What. The. Fuck. I am by no means a great player and have just started playing again this year. I played this past season of ESEA and played like complete garbage. Off and on most weeks my DM was very hit or miss. This past week I got a 144hz monitor from my teammate and have been playing FPS games through thanksgiving break. Why didn't anyone tell me it would make playing hitscan classes 10x easier. I used to feel like if I'd click when my crosshair was over the enemy I would still often miss, but now I feel like I'm hitting nutty shots left and right. I spent the last 2 months kicking dandelions in outfield and it feels like now it feels like I'm throwing heat from the pitchers mound. It makes me wonder how much the rest of my setup holds me back considering. Hopefully I will only improve from here and won't be the worst gamer on the team anymore.

I don't usually post on these forums but, What. The. Fuck. I am by no means a great player and have just started playing again this year. I played this past season of ESEA and played like complete garbage. Off and on most weeks my DM was very hit or miss. This past week I got a 144hz monitor from my teammate and have been playing FPS games through thanksgiving break. Why didn't anyone tell me it would make playing hitscan classes 10x easier. I used to feel like if I'd click when my crosshair was over the enemy I would still often miss, but now I feel like I'm hitting nutty shots left and right. I spent the last 2 months kicking dandelions in outfield and it feels like now it feels like I'm throwing heat from the pitchers mound. It makes me wonder how much the rest of my setup holds me back considering. Hopefully I will only improve from here and won't be the worst gamer on the team anymore.
1002
#1002
14 Frags +
DonDorito

There's a 0% chance you're the worst player on your team when you have a name as powerful as DonDorito.

[quote=DonDorito][/quote]
There's a 0% chance you're the worst player on your team when you have a name as powerful as DonDorito.
1003
#1003
-10 Frags +

i lost to ESEA

i lost to ESEA
1004
#1004
6 Frags +

im so fucking mad screwb got banned FUCK

im so fucking mad screwb got banned FUCK
1005
#1005
-7 Frags +
messiahim so fucking mad screwb got banned FUCK

@ least the ban will be over before next season. Still bullshit though. Me and my team worked hard for that.

[quote=messiah]im so fucking mad screwb got banned FUCK[/quote]
@ least the ban will be over before next season. Still bullshit though. Me and my team worked hard for that.
1006
#1006
7 Frags +
Screwballmessiahim so fucking mad screwb got banned FUCK@ least the ban will be over before next season. Still bullshit though. Me and my team worked hard for that.

you shouldn't have been able to play for that team anyway due to roster locks, and without you they would not have won

[quote=Screwball][quote=messiah]im so fucking mad screwb got banned FUCK[/quote]
@ least the ban will be over before next season. Still bullshit though. Me and my team worked hard for that.[/quote]
you shouldn't have been able to play for that team anyway due to roster locks, and without you they would not have won
1007
#1007
-9 Frags +
SailaScrewballmessiahim so fucking mad screwb got banned FUCK@ least the ban will be over before next season. Still bullshit though. Me and my team worked hard for that.you shouldn't have been able to play for that team anyway due to roster locks, and without you they would not have won

I could have joined that roster right then and there if i so desired. There was nothing preventing me from joining that team as far as ESEA rules are concerned. The only reason i did not join on my main was because i wanted to let my previous team finish their season. I was not even scrimming with my old team and at that point i had already joined up with my current team. I played a single completely inconsequential match with my old team before leaving that roster. I left that roster before playing any games on the new account.

[quote=Saila][quote=Screwball][quote=messiah]im so fucking mad screwb got banned FUCK[/quote]
@ least the ban will be over before next season. Still bullshit though. Me and my team worked hard for that.[/quote]
you shouldn't have been able to play for that team anyway due to roster locks, and without you they would not have won[/quote]
I could have joined that roster right then and there if i so desired. There was nothing preventing me from joining that team as far as ESEA rules are concerned. The only reason i did not join on my main was because i wanted to let my previous team finish their season. I was not even scrimming with my old team and at that point i had already joined up with my current team. I played a single completely inconsequential match with my old team before leaving that roster. I left that roster before playing any games on the new account.
1008
#1008
6 Frags +

Dude i just wanna play this game and improve but lately it has been so difficult; like, i know im not the best at all obviously but im willing to learn and i think there is plenty of room for me to improve but its so fucking hard when you cant play the game consistently on a daily basis.

Im a no namer so im barely picked on pugchamp, tf2center is trash, faceit is dead and i dont really enjoy dm / mge / jumping that much. Also, seems like every team i trial for ends up either picking up someone else, dying or being just awful...

Hopefully this is just temporary and everything will get better once i find a good team that wants to scrim frequently, but until then this is such a bummer situation tbh.

Dude i just wanna play this game and improve but lately it has been so difficult; like, i know im not the best at all obviously but im willing to learn and i think there is plenty of room for me to improve but its so fucking hard when you cant play the game consistently on a daily basis.

Im a no namer so im barely picked on pugchamp, tf2center is trash, faceit is dead and i dont really enjoy dm / mge / jumping that much. Also, seems like every team i trial for ends up either picking up someone else, dying or being just awful...

Hopefully this is just temporary and everything will get better once i find a good team that wants to scrim frequently, but until then this is such a bummer situation tbh.
1009
#1009
2 Frags +

When ever I play I always beef my shots I have like a 10% accuracy and it's so annoying, my setup sucks and I can't afford to upgrade it, my tf2 runs on about 30 ish fps but depends on the map but I get like 20-40 fps average and it sucks.
Beefing shots gets me tilts me so hard and I start getting really toxic and start feeding.
Even when I'm not tilted, I do terrible, I forget to call stuff out/I clog coms

When ever I play I always beef my shots I have like a 10% accuracy and it's so annoying, my setup sucks and I can't afford to upgrade it, my tf2 runs on about 30 ish fps but depends on the map but I get like 20-40 fps average and it sucks.
Beefing shots gets me tilts me so hard and I start getting really toxic and start feeding.
Even when I'm not tilted, I do terrible, I forget to call stuff out/I clog coms
1010
#1010
0 Frags +

what have you tried to gain fps?

what have you tried to gain fps?
1011
#1011
-1 Frags +

My math teacher is an actual brainlet.
My computer sucks.

My math teacher is an actual brainlet.
My computer sucks.
1012
#1012
-1 Frags +
jimmijfuck me https://streamable.com/vddqy

57+85=142

who is that med

[quote=jimmij]fuck me https://streamable.com/vddqy

57+85=142[/quote]
who is that med
1013
#1013
17 Frags +

My step-father abused me and my mom since I was 7 years old, until she finally found the strength to divorce him when I was 19, and my sister was 7. I'm 27 now. For the past 8 years they have engaged in a war of attrition, with him trying to grind down and control her, and my mother fighting back, me starting my own family and moving away from the mess.

My stupid 14-year-old sister went and told her school councilor that my mother's boyfriend emotionally abuses her. Now I happen to know the boyfriend quite well and I know exactly what he did to provoke my sister into doing that. I hold him responsible for being a stubborn fuck and not recognizing that a teenager mind is not the same as his adult clients (he's a therapist and life coach) and that he pushed her way too far in a direction that she physiologically and psychologically is just incapable of going (he was trying to get her to take responsibility for her emotions in a way that adults can, but teenagers just do not have the mental stability to handle that kind of a request, which obviously seems extremely unfair when you're put in that situation).

The problem? Her actual abusive asshole of a father is putting on a WHOLE fucking show to get back at my mother. He's called every fucking official person he can to get them on his side, because his ultimate goal is to hurt my mother and isolate my sister so that she can be his next target of abuse - which is extremely beneficial, because not only does that give him a new punching bag, but it also hurts my mother in the process. He's now flapping all of his fucking feathers in front of my sister, buying her all kinds of shit, letting her do whatever she wants, just to convince her that he's her saviour the same way he did my mother and me, so he can isolate her enough where she would have nowhere to go. And the 14-year-old is, of course, falling for absolutely every scrap of it, because she's a fucking child and you can't expect a child to be able to identify when they're being groomed.

My mom and my step-dad and the boyfriend are all adults so I honestly could not give one flying piece of shit about any of them because they're big kids and can deal with their own problems. But I am absolutely fucking LIVID that my sister has gotten dragged into it for so long. It's so fucking unfair to her, unfair to her childhood. She has no home because the goddamn morons insist that she travels from one house to another every week just so my step-father can try and groom his next abuse victim and so my mother can get back at her ex-abuser (and also probably protect my sister, but I do notice that she hasn't attempted to fight for full custody).

I'm also honestly mad at myself for not getting involved earlier, for staying quiet and trying to play nice with both sides. I called the fucking asshole yesterday and told him I'd take him out for dinner for his birthday because EIGHT FUCKING YEARS AGO he hurt me for not wishing him a happy birthday. I should've known something was up when I could hear him smiling through his phone and telling me that he'll think about it.

It's on, motherfucker. It's fucking on.

My step-father abused me and my mom since I was 7 years old, until she finally found the strength to divorce him when I was 19, and my sister was 7. I'm 27 now. For the past 8 years they have engaged in a war of attrition, with him trying to grind down and control her, and my mother fighting back, me starting my own family and moving away from the mess.

My stupid 14-year-old sister went and told her school councilor that my mother's boyfriend emotionally abuses her. Now I happen to know the boyfriend quite well and I know exactly what he did to provoke my sister into doing that. I hold him responsible for being a stubborn fuck and not recognizing that a teenager mind is not the same as his adult clients (he's a therapist and life coach) and that he pushed her way too far in a direction that she physiologically and psychologically is just incapable of going (he was trying to get her to take responsibility for her emotions in a way that adults can, but teenagers just do not have the mental stability to handle that kind of a request, which obviously seems extremely unfair when you're put in that situation).

The problem? Her actual abusive asshole of a father is putting on a WHOLE fucking show to get back at my mother. He's called every fucking official person he can to get them on his side, because his ultimate goal is to hurt my mother and isolate my sister so that she can be his next target of abuse - which is extremely beneficial, because not only does that give him a new punching bag, but it also hurts my mother in the process. He's now flapping all of his fucking feathers in front of my sister, buying her all kinds of shit, letting her do whatever she wants, just to convince her that he's her saviour the same way he did my mother and me, so he can isolate her enough where she would have nowhere to go. And the 14-year-old is, of course, falling for absolutely every scrap of it, because she's a fucking child and you can't expect a child to be able to identify when they're being groomed.

My mom and my step-dad and the boyfriend are all adults so I honestly could not give one flying piece of shit about any of them because they're big kids and can deal with their own problems. But I am absolutely fucking LIVID that my sister has gotten dragged into it for so long. It's so fucking unfair to her, unfair to her childhood. She has no home because the goddamn morons insist that she travels from one house to another every week just so my step-father can try and groom his next abuse victim and so my mother can get back at her ex-abuser (and also probably protect my sister, but I do notice that she hasn't attempted to fight for full custody).

I'm also honestly mad at myself for not getting involved earlier, for staying quiet and trying to play nice with both sides. I called the fucking asshole yesterday and told him I'd take him out for dinner for his birthday because EIGHT FUCKING YEARS AGO he hurt me for not wishing him a happy birthday. I should've known something was up when I could hear him smiling through his phone and telling me that he'll think about it.

It's on, motherfucker. It's fucking on.
1014
#1014
8 Frags +

Its fucking insane how i can achieve impressive feats of hand/eye coordination in vidya and irl sports but if i try to do anything with a pencil it looks like the doodlings of a retarded child despite me putting in my maximum effort and having literally 100s of hours of practice at drawing/writing.

Like holy fuck do i have a disability why cant i write legibly and draw something coherent

Its fucking insane how i can achieve impressive feats of hand/eye coordination in vidya and irl sports but if i try to do anything with a pencil it looks like the doodlings of a retarded child despite me putting in my maximum effort and having literally 100s of hours of practice at drawing/writing.

Like holy fuck do i have a disability why cant i write legibly and draw something coherent
1015
#1015
1 Frags +

My university gives us learning objectives (like a list of what they want you to know for each subject). Yet 80% of the time they never match up with the lectures baring in mind half of the lectures are full with an impossible amount of information so its impossible to get what they want you to know; follow the learning objectives or arbitrarily guess what you want us to know hoping we guess right??
AAAAnd half the lecturers half way through a lecture, after you've furiously written notes, say "oh you don't need to know this I just find it interesting" ARE YOU FUCKING ME

My university gives us learning objectives (like a list of what they want you to know for each subject). Yet 80% of the time they never match up with the lectures baring in mind half of the lectures are full with an impossible amount of information so its impossible to get what they want you to know; follow the learning objectives or arbitrarily guess what you want us to know hoping we guess right??
AAAAnd half the lecturers half way through a lecture, after you've furiously written notes, say "oh you don't need to know this I just find it interesting" ARE YOU FUCKING ME
1016
#1016
4 Frags +
jetzzzzzIts fucking insane how i can achieve impressive feats of hand/eye coordination in vidya and irl sports but if i try to do anything with a pencil it looks like the doodlings of a retarded child despite me putting in my maximum effort and having literally 100s of hours of practice at drawing/writing.

Like holy fuck do i have a disability why cant i write legibly and draw something coherent

If you did not hone your fine motor skills as a child and focused instead on sports and video games, then you simply have not developed that part of your brain. You have the greatest capacity to learn before the age of 7, and after age 12 the unused neurons begin rapid degeneration. My partner is the same - great at sports and video games, but give him a pencil or a needle and it looks like he has Parkinson's. That's why you also feel like you have a "disability" - because you actually do not have enough neural connections to perform the action you expect of yourself.

The good news is adult neural plasticity is a thing and you can very well learn the skill even though you're past the prime nervous development age. The bad news is that it's going to take a concentrated amount of effort on your part - much more than you would have needed to do as a kid. But if you push through and embrace the suck, you will eventually get almost* as good as if you started in your childhood.

*there's a differing consensus on whether you're actually able to recapture the full childhood potential or not via adult neural plasticity. I think the colloquial wisdom is that you can't, but I'm sort of out of touch in that field to speak to it with any certainty. In any case, you can still get very, very respectable at what it is that you want to learn to do. Source: I specialized in neural development in my degree before I became a librarian.

[quote=jetzzzzz]Its fucking insane how i can achieve impressive feats of hand/eye coordination in vidya and irl sports but if i try to do anything with a pencil it looks like the doodlings of a retarded child despite me putting in my maximum effort and having literally 100s of hours of practice at drawing/writing.

Like holy fuck do i have a disability why cant i write legibly and draw something coherent[/quote]

If you did not hone your fine motor skills as a child and focused instead on sports and video games, then you simply have not developed that part of your brain. You have the greatest capacity to learn before the age of 7, and after age 12 the unused neurons begin rapid degeneration. My partner is the same - great at sports and video games, but give him a pencil or a needle and it looks like he has Parkinson's. That's why you also feel like you have a "disability" - because you actually do not have enough neural connections to perform the action you expect of yourself.

The good news is adult neural plasticity is a thing and you can very well learn the skill even though you're past the prime nervous development age. The bad news is that it's going to take a concentrated amount of effort on your part - much more than you would have needed to do as a kid. But if you push through and embrace the suck, you will eventually get almost* as good as if you started in your childhood.

*there's a differing consensus on whether you're actually able to recapture the full childhood potential or not via adult neural plasticity. I think the colloquial wisdom is that you can't, but I'm sort of out of touch in that field to speak to it with any certainty. In any case, you can still get very, very respectable at what it is that you want to learn to do. Source: I specialized in neural development in my degree before I became a librarian.
1017
#1017
-1 Frags +

I play guitar in a band and I don't really like playing guitar in a band situation (i'd rather play bass). My band is going to record our first album in January or February if things go as planned and I don't really want to keep playing guitar but I also don't want to quit and fuck my bandmates over because I love them as people. I just don't want to play guitar in this band anymore.

https://i.redd.it/az1b0eihgtd01.png

I play guitar in a band and I don't really like playing guitar in a band situation (i'd rather play bass). My band is going to record our first album in January or February if things go as planned and I don't really want to keep playing guitar but I also don't want to quit and fuck my bandmates over because I love them as people. I just don't want to play guitar in this band anymore.

[img]https://i.redd.it/az1b0eihgtd01.png[/img]
1018
#1018
13 Frags +

https://wiki.teamfortress.com/w/images/thumb/3/35/EngyGuitarSmash.png/109px-EngyGuitarSmash.png

[img]https://wiki.teamfortress.com/w/images/thumb/3/35/EngyGuitarSmash.png/109px-EngyGuitarSmash.png[/img]
1019
#1019
19 Frags +

i'm not getting an invite medal this season just because i turned down other offers to sub for a better team and it was never stated that i had to play a match, i guess next time i'll just play for a 0-16 team instead

i'm not getting an invite medal this season just because i turned down other offers to sub for a better team and it was never stated that i had to play a match, i guess next time i'll just play for a 0-16 team instead
1020
#1020
11 Frags +

it's been a rough couple of months for me personally but i think my recent dissapointment in myself in this preseason for not getting in an IM team has been the one that has made me angry at myself rather than sad.

after 3 years of playing in a 30 fps machine i finally builded a new pc that i thought would be the thing that truly makes me play better and do something significant, that's the main reason why i had such a massive drive to play tf2 next season and i still do.

but after quite a few tryouts, i'm just so pissed at myself after all this, my first tryout for an IM team went pretty smoothly but they already had a med in mind before they even tried me out so it was kinda pointless.

my second tryout went pretty smoothly aswell i think which ended up in asking me to play again next week but i just, choked. i played horrible and i tilted the entire team because of it and it still haunts me to this day (even if it wasn't that long ago).

just like that the goal i had for myself which was do ok in IM (not even do well like 8-8 or something like that just do ok like 6-10 or something) was gone and not possible anymore.

and for the open teams that asked me to tryout, one of them i did really well but because of internal conflict and someone taking something too personal, i didn't make it and for the other ones i got the leader had to go to the hospital and when he did get home he couldn't find enough people to tryout so i guess that's over.

after all this stuff happened, i started doing really bad in games and keep dying and i keep getting mad at myself because i'm letting the team down with me being so fucking shit and my head starts hurting because of all this pressure and anger i put to myself.

i was thinking to make a team or try to lead one but the thing is i don't have any friends that would be willing to play with me, like everyone is too good for me or won't be able to stand playing with me for more than 30 mins so why bother.

i'm just mad at myself and i wanna take a break from all this bullshit, i think mentally i'm too fucked atm to play medic calmly like i normally do.

you can maybe say there's still 20 days left til registration ends but keep in mind christmas + new years nobody is gonna scrim and do tryouts, let alone, make teams in that time so basically i think a week out of those 20 days basically doesn't exist, i'd like to be proven wrong but who knows.

i just wanna play in a team and have fun and improve in it with everyone else.

it's been a rough couple of months for me personally but i think my recent dissapointment in myself in this preseason for not getting in an IM team has been the one that has made me angry at myself rather than sad.

after 3 years of playing in a 30 fps machine i finally builded a new pc that i thought would be the thing that truly makes me play better and do something significant, that's the main reason why i had such a massive drive to play tf2 next season and i still do.

but after quite a few tryouts, i'm just so pissed at myself after all this, my first tryout for an IM team went pretty smoothly but they already had a med in mind before they even tried me out so it was kinda pointless.

my second tryout went pretty smoothly aswell i think which ended up in asking me to play again next week but i just, choked. i played horrible and i tilted the entire team because of it and it still haunts me to this day (even if it wasn't that long ago).

just like that the goal i had for myself which was do ok in IM (not even do well like 8-8 or something like that just do ok like 6-10 or something) was gone and not possible anymore.

and for the open teams that asked me to tryout, one of them i did really well but because of internal conflict and someone taking something too personal, i didn't make it and for the other ones i got the leader had to go to the hospital and when he did get home he couldn't find enough people to tryout so i guess that's over.

after all this stuff happened, i started doing really bad in games and keep dying and i keep getting mad at myself because i'm letting the team down with me being so fucking shit and my head starts hurting because of all this pressure and anger i put to myself.

i was thinking to make a team or try to lead one but the thing is i don't have any friends that would be willing to play with me, like everyone is too good for me or won't be able to stand playing with me for more than 30 mins so why bother.

i'm just mad at myself and i wanna take a break from all this bullshit, i think mentally i'm too fucked atm to play medic calmly like i normally do.

you can maybe say there's still 20 days left til registration ends but keep in mind christmas + new years nobody is gonna scrim and do tryouts, let alone, make teams in that time so basically i think a week out of those 20 days basically doesn't exist, i'd like to be proven wrong but who knows.

i just wanna play in a team and have fun and improve in it with everyone else.
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