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1081
#1081
3 Frags +

AAAAUUUUUUUGHHHHHHRHAAAAAAAAA FUCK

AAAAUUUUUUUGHHHHHHRHAAAAAAAAA FUCK
1082
#1082
6 Frags +

if you rope me EVERY single turn in hearthstone, even after using all of your mana and attacks......

lick my dick gremlin slime

if you rope me EVERY single turn in hearthstone, even after using all of your mana and attacks......

lick my dick gremlin slime
1083
#1083
10 Frags +

I have been the most passionate player on all of my teams after season 25 (perhaps excluding s28) and it honestly makes playing roamer unbearable and it stunts my improvement. Rolling has always told me to focus on my own gameplay before my team’s gameplay but that doesn’t help me improve if none of my teams give enough fucks to actually take the time to improve as a team. As somebody who wants to make a name for himself in Invite, the past year and a half have been incredibly discouraging, enough so that I’m completely ditching roamer for a season just in hopes of breaking the curse of dysfunctional teams. Every season I’ve been saying “this is the season where I go huge and I improve tons” but every single time I say it my team is either completely dysfunctional and is basically dead for the remaining half of the season or just doesn’t give a fuck about our performance (the second option is very fun but my desire to become an Invite player outweighs my desire to triple bomb on mids).

I’m not saying I’ve been the best player on all of these teams and that I’m carrying and shit, I’m just stating my discontent at how little every team I’ve played on since season 26 has cared about improvement compared to me.

I have been the most passionate player on all of my teams after season 25 (perhaps excluding s28) and it honestly makes playing roamer unbearable and it stunts my improvement. Rolling has always told me to focus on my own gameplay before my team’s gameplay but that doesn’t help me improve if none of my teams give enough fucks to actually take the time to improve as a team. As somebody who wants to make a name for himself in Invite, the past year and a half have been incredibly discouraging, enough so that I’m completely ditching roamer for a season just in hopes of breaking the curse of dysfunctional teams. Every season I’ve been saying “this is the season where I go huge and I improve tons” but every single time I say it my team is either completely dysfunctional and is basically dead for the remaining half of the season or just doesn’t give a fuck about our performance (the second option is very fun but my desire to become an Invite player outweighs my desire to triple bomb on mids).

I’m not saying I’ve been the best player on all of these teams and that I’m carrying and shit, I’m just stating my discontent at how little every team I’ve played on since season 26 has cared about improvement compared to me.
1084
#1084
7 Frags +

god

i just want to be happy for fucking once. every single time i think things are going good and theres actually some hope at the end of the road, something new always pops up and just fucking instantly deletes that. thought for once i'd get to live in a home for longer than a year or two, nope, gonna be homeless in a few months since we're already living in the cheapest possible option nearby. thought i would finally find a hobby worth pursuing and enjoying, nope, even after 9,318 hours in one singular thing im still the worst player in the entirety of the division im in, and yet here i am, ruining the experience for five/eight other people who were/are trying to improve or play well. thought i could finally maintain friendships for longer than a few months, nope, only things i ever message to people are stupid fucking messages that they could care less about and i still dont talk to anyone on a regular basis, maybe one person every 3-4 days, and i think that those people i do end up speaking to either forget the useless conversations we have or have their days ruined by it.

i have no passion for literally anything anymore and its driving me insane, i just want to care about life, the things im doing, and to enjoy all of life to the fullest but i fucking cant since it's always going to return to this state, regardless of what singular, amazing thing that might happen to break this. im mentally/emotionally miserable and unstable, my body is in so much pain from all the problems i have with my knees, back, ears, and hands, and i cant even find any enjoyment in literally anything, online or out in the world. why even bother holding out hope at this point.

god

i just want to be happy for fucking once. every single time i think things are going good and theres actually some hope at the end of the road, something new always pops up and just fucking instantly deletes that. thought for once i'd get to live in a home for longer than a year or two, nope, gonna be homeless in a few months since we're already living in the cheapest possible option nearby. thought i would finally find a hobby worth pursuing and enjoying, nope, even after 9,318 hours in one singular thing im still the worst player in the entirety of the division im in, and yet here i am, ruining the experience for five/eight other people who were/are trying to improve or play well. thought i could finally maintain friendships for longer than a few months, nope, only things i ever message to people are stupid fucking messages that they could care less about and i still dont talk to anyone on a regular basis, maybe one person every 3-4 days, and i think that those people i do end up speaking to either forget the useless conversations we have or have their days ruined by it.

i have no passion for literally anything anymore and its driving me insane, i just want to care about life, the things im doing, and to enjoy all of life to the fullest but i fucking cant since it's always going to return to this state, regardless of what singular, amazing thing that might happen to break this. im mentally/emotionally miserable and unstable, my body is in so much pain from all the problems i have with my knees, back, ears, and hands, and i cant even find any enjoyment in literally anything, online or out in the world. why even bother holding out hope at this point.
1085
#1085
3 Frags +

C. ,
stop worrying about your performance in the game, and i hope you can fix your housing problem, because having a sword dangling over your head on a wire affecting your mood won't help anyone indeed; and if you take a little break, figure out for yourself why exactly you play and if you want to keep playing once you find a stable home, you can come back fresh and maybe have fun again!

C. ,
stop worrying about your performance in the game, and i hope you can fix your housing problem, because having a sword dangling over your head on a wire affecting your mood won't help anyone indeed; and if you take a little break, figure out for yourself why exactly you play and if you want to keep playing once you find a stable home, you can come back fresh and maybe have fun again!
1086
#1086
3 Frags +

there are a lot of people id like to play / make a team with but theres only 6 slots and some people only play X class and skill level concerns etc etc etc.

just kinda sad to think that i wont ever get to play on a team with a lot of my favorite players, at least an advantage of leading a team is that i get to make sure everyone I pick up is on that list in the first place

there are a lot of people id like to play / make a team with but theres only 6 slots and some people only play X class and skill level concerns etc etc etc.

just kinda sad to think that i wont ever get to play on a team with a lot of my favorite players, at least an advantage of leading a team is that i get to make sure everyone I pick up is on that list in the first place
1087
#1087
5 Frags +

a friend that is in my team until the very end of the registration of afc left without prior notice to join another team that had "better players" as a sub and now i cant play the new season

a friend that is in my team until the very end of the registration of afc left without prior notice to join another team that had "better players" as a sub and now i cant play the new season
1088
#1088
1 Frags +

I hate rust so much. I know what I'm doing wrong I just do it anyways and i somehow developed an ego so i don't want to play on teams below where my old skill level was even though that's not where my current skill level is so im stuck being a retard who wants to git gud but doesn't want to put in the effort for some retarded reason. I fucking hate my brain so much this happens to everything i come back to after a break.

now it's the final season of esea and I'm not going to be able to play because I grew an ego at the worst possible time.

I hate rust so much. I know what I'm doing wrong I just do it anyways and i somehow developed an ego so i don't want to play on teams below where my old skill level was even though that's not where my current skill level is so im stuck being a retard who wants to git gud but doesn't want to put in the effort for some retarded reason. I fucking hate my brain so much this happens to everything i come back to after a break.

now it's the final season of esea and I'm not going to be able to play because I grew an ego at the worst possible time.
1089
#1089
9 Frags +

im a failure in every aspect in life and i lost the only thing that motivated me to better myself and now i feel completely lost and worthless
none of my friends seem to really enjoy having me around and i always feel pushed back
i will never be good enough for the person i love and i cant seem to get over them no matter how hard i try
i started taking opioids and drinking again because thats the only thing that helps me become numb to all the shitty things that i think and feel
i probably shouldnt even be posting this here and get some real help instead but i just feel like im too far gone

im a failure in every aspect in life and i lost the only thing that motivated me to better myself and now i feel completely lost and worthless
none of my friends seem to really enjoy having me around and i always feel pushed back
i will never be good enough for the person i love and i cant seem to get over them no matter how hard i try
i started taking opioids and drinking again because thats the only thing that helps me become numb to all the shitty things that i think and feel
i probably shouldnt even be posting this here and get some real help instead but i just feel like im too far gone
1090
#1090
4 Frags +

i have not had a good time at LAN

i have not had a good time at LAN
1091
#1091
6 Frags +
kalieaswariim a failure in every aspect in life and i lost the only thing that motivated me to better myself and now i feel completely lost and worthless
none of my friends seem to really enjoy having me around and i always feel pushed back
i will never be good enough for the person i love and i cant seem to get over them no matter how hard i try
i started taking opioids and drinking again because thats the only thing that helps me become numb to all the shitty things that i think and feel
i probably shouldnt even be posting this here and get some real help instead but i just feel like im too far gone

there is no such thing as too far gone. help is always worth seeking

[quote=kalieaswari]im a failure in every aspect in life and i lost the only thing that motivated me to better myself and now i feel completely lost and worthless
none of my friends seem to really enjoy having me around and i always feel pushed back
i will never be good enough for the person i love and i cant seem to get over them no matter how hard i try
i started taking opioids and drinking again because thats the only thing that helps me become numb to all the shitty things that i think and feel
i probably shouldnt even be posting this here and get some real help instead but i just feel like im too far gone[/quote]
there is no such thing as too far gone. help is always worth seeking
1092
#1092
11 Frags +
kalieaswarii started taking opioids and drinking again because thats the only thing that helps me

You should stop these shits the fastest you can. It will become worst and worst very soon. Find you a hobby you like.

[quote=kalieaswari]
i started taking opioids and drinking again because thats the only thing that helps me [/quote]
You should stop these shits the fastest you can. It will become worst and worst very soon. Find you a hobby you like.
1093
#1093
7 Frags +

.....

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1094
#1094
5 Frags +
danny1didnt get into university i applied to and now im fucked

did you not apply to multiple?

[quote=danny1]didnt get into university i applied to and now im fucked[/quote]
did you not apply to multiple?
1095
#1095
8 Frags +

i hate when people piss me off to the point i wanna commit murder or suicide. not only that, but im also pissed im basically in-game jobless as what im doing currently is torture, i can't cast games that are good anymore, im stuck with a disgrace of a league i created 2 years ago, and it goes on and on and on and i just feel like i dont belong which makes me mad at myself for actually believing what other people say when in reality they are shitcocks in the end of life itself!
all i am here for in team fortress 2 is to make friends and have fun, and what the fuck do i get? bullshit, cuntfucks, shitcocks, asswipes, just flat out hate crimes against my autism, and every single time i even chat in TFTV, i instantly get like negative 10 frags and later on potentially negative 80 which makes me wonder, i try to be friendly, i was a freshmen who was always in a bad mood from assholes like everyone in existence, and it got me a bad reputation for that and the money over 2 years ago. im a junior, i learned my lesson, and people still abuse the negative frag option here. can i have one post, ONE FUCKING POST, that is positive frags? its making me want to break legs in 13 different places.

i hate when people piss me off to the point i wanna commit murder or suicide. not only that, but im also pissed im basically in-game jobless as what im doing currently is torture, i can't cast games that are good anymore, im stuck with a disgrace of a league i created 2 years ago, and it goes on and on and on and i just feel like i dont belong which makes me mad at myself for actually believing what other people say when in reality they are shitcocks in the end of life itself!
all i am here for in team fortress 2 is to make friends and have fun, and what the fuck do i get? bullshit, cuntfucks, shitcocks, asswipes, just flat out hate crimes against my autism, and every single time i even chat in TFTV, i instantly get like negative 10 frags and later on potentially negative 80 which makes me wonder, i try to be friendly, i was a freshmen who was always in a bad mood from assholes like everyone in existence, and it got me a bad reputation for that and the money over 2 years ago. im a junior, i learned my lesson, and people still abuse the negative frag option here. can i have one post, ONE FUCKING POST, that is positive frags? its making me want to break legs in 13 different places.
1096
#1096
3 Frags +

My LFT thread got down fragged and I am only now realizing how much emotional investment I have in other people's opinions of me. I can't tell if I'm just being bandwagoned or if I actually deserve all (I've earned some of it myself) of the shit I'm getting. Taking responsibility to legitimate critiques doesn't seem to get me anywhere either- it looks insincere.

My LFT thread got down fragged and I am only now realizing how much emotional investment I have in other people's opinions of me. I can't tell if I'm just being bandwagoned or if I actually deserve [b]all[/b] (I've earned some of it myself) of the shit I'm getting. Taking responsibility to legitimate critiques doesn't seem to get me anywhere either- it looks insincere.
1097
#1097
3 Frags +
tibbyMy LFT thread got down fragged and I am only now realizing how much emotional investment I have in other people's opinions of me. I can't tell if I'm just being bandwagoned or if I actually deserve all (I've earned some of it myself) of the shit I'm getting. Taking responsibility to legitimate critiques doesn't seem to get me anywhere either- it looks insincere.

i cant tell if you're mocking me or not so im gonna say im sorry for your loss.

[quote=tibby]My LFT thread got down fragged and I am only now realizing how much emotional investment I have in other people's opinions of me. I can't tell if I'm just being bandwagoned or if I actually deserve [b]all[/b] (I've earned some of it myself) of the shit I'm getting. Taking responsibility to legitimate critiques doesn't seem to get me anywhere either- it looks insincere.[/quote]
i cant tell if you're mocking me or not so im gonna say im sorry for your loss.
1098
#1098
8 Frags +
cre-8grievances

i love you buddy. i upfrag you when you're at -80.

[quote=cre-8]grievances[/quote]
i love you buddy. i upfrag you when you're at -80.
1099
#1099
2 Frags +
cre-8tibbyMy LFT thread got down fragged and I am only now realizing how much emotional investment I have in other people's opinions of me. I can't tell if I'm just being bandwagoned or if I actually deserve all (I've earned some of it myself) of the shit I'm getting. Taking responsibility to legitimate critiques doesn't seem to get me anywhere either- it looks insincere.i cant tell if you're mocking me or not so im gonna say im sorry for your loss.

Nonono, not mocking you at all. I really am having that issue myself. None of that was directed towards you.

[quote=cre-8][quote=tibby]My LFT thread got down fragged and I am only now realizing how much emotional investment I have in other people's opinions of me. I can't tell if I'm just being bandwagoned or if I actually deserve [b]all[/b] (I've earned some of it myself) of the shit I'm getting. Taking responsibility to legitimate critiques doesn't seem to get me anywhere either- it looks insincere.[/quote]
i cant tell if you're mocking me or not so im gonna say im sorry for your loss.[/quote]
Nonono, not mocking you at all. I really am having that issue myself. None of that was directed towards you.
1100
#1100
13 Frags +

i dont play tf2 anymore but seeing esea getting rid of tf2 after this next season really PISSES me off

i dont play tf2 anymore but seeing esea getting rid of tf2 after this next season really PISSES me off
1101
#1101
2 Frags +

Lan is over and i feel like shit

Oh well

Lan is over and i feel like shit

Oh well
1102
#1102
4 Frags +

lan is over and I feel like i let people down
i feel like i didn't try hard enough to prepare my teams, to scrim or get maptalks or even just sit around and talk to them as much as i should have beforehand so we could maybe have done better, had an even better time
i'm ashamed that they trusted me to lead their teams & i couldn't manage that properly

lan is over and I feel like i let people down
i feel like i didn't try hard enough to prepare my teams, to scrim or get maptalks or even just sit around and talk to them as much as i should have beforehand so we could maybe have done better, had an even better time
i'm ashamed that they trusted me to lead their teams & i couldn't manage that properly
1103
#1103
3 Frags +
row_lan is over and I feel like i let people down
i feel like i didn't try hard enough to prepare my teams, to scrim or get maptalks or even just sit around and talk to them as much as i should have beforehand so we could maybe have done better, had an even better time
i'm ashamed that they trusted me to lead their teams & i couldn't manage that properly

this is not true - i don't know anyone on your teams that was upset with you and rightfully so since LAN is about meeting people and having fun, not about the tournaments (unless you are a prem team ofc)

[quote=row_]lan is over and I feel like i let people down
i feel like i didn't try hard enough to prepare my teams, to scrim or get maptalks or even just sit around and talk to them as much as i should have beforehand so we could maybe have done better, had an even better time
i'm ashamed that they trusted me to lead their teams & i couldn't manage that properly[/quote]

this is not true - i don't know anyone on your teams that was upset with you and rightfully so since LAN is about meeting people and having fun, not about the tournaments (unless you are a prem team ofc)
1104
#1104
8 Frags +
row_lan is over and I feel like i let people down
i feel like i didn't try hard enough to prepare my teams, to scrim or get maptalks or even just sit around and talk to them as much as i should have beforehand so we could maybe have done better, had an even better time
i'm ashamed that they trusted me to lead their teams & i couldn't manage that properly

One team leader to another, when shit goes wrong you will have this feeling but at the end of the day tf2 teams have 5 other people on them. Feelings of responsibility are good it's what makes you a leader. But it is never your fault (solely) if things have gone wrong, at least in 99% of scenarios. That 1% is reserved for people who have to lead teams to even play, pieces of shit no one wants to associate with except out of desperation or necessity. Learn to separate responsobility and fault and you're golden. İt won't stop the situation from being any shittier but it will lessen the strain on your mind. Stay strong brother.

[quote=row_]lan is over and I feel like i let people down
i feel like i didn't try hard enough to prepare my teams, to scrim or get maptalks or even just sit around and talk to them as much as i should have beforehand so we could maybe have done better, had an even better time
i'm ashamed that they trusted me to lead their teams & i couldn't manage that properly[/quote]

One team leader to another, when shit goes wrong you will have this feeling but at the end of the day tf2 teams have 5 other people on them. Feelings of responsibility are good it's what makes you a leader. But it is never your fault (solely) if things have gone wrong, at least in 99% of scenarios. That 1% is reserved for people who have to lead teams to even play, pieces of shit no one wants to associate with except out of desperation or necessity. Learn to separate responsobility and fault and you're golden. İt won't stop the situation from being any shittier but it will lessen the strain on your mind. Stay strong brother.
1105
#1105
4 Frags +
row_lan is over and I feel like i let people down
i feel like i didn't try hard enough to prepare my teams, to scrim or get maptalks or even just sit around and talk to them as much as i should have beforehand so we could maybe have done better, had an even better time
i'm ashamed that they trusted me to lead their teams & i couldn't manage that properly

Yo, I already said something similar earlier, but I personally didn't feel like that. I honestly think you're doing a pretty solid job leading, organising etc. and it's true that it can become annoying or stressful, especially when your teammates tend to have a lot of other stuff to do making scheduling a giant mess at times but you shouldn't take all of those factors on you only. I agree that our preparations weren't optimal but I think that was way more due to people not being avaiable very often and I'm also pretty convinced none of our players feels what you described. I appreciate the dedication from you there, just a little heads up though, it's totally fine, love you man! <3

[quote=row_]lan is over and I feel like i let people down
i feel like i didn't try hard enough to prepare my teams, to scrim or get maptalks or even just sit around and talk to them as much as i should have beforehand so we could maybe have done better, had an even better time
i'm ashamed that they trusted me to lead their teams & i couldn't manage that properly[/quote]

Yo, I already said something similar earlier, but I personally didn't feel like that. I honestly think you're doing a pretty solid job leading, organising etc. and it's true that it can become annoying or stressful, especially when your teammates tend to have a lot of other stuff to do making scheduling a giant mess at times but you shouldn't take all of those factors on you only. I agree that our preparations weren't optimal but I think that was way more due to people not being avaiable very often and I'm also pretty convinced none of our players feels what you described. I appreciate the dedication from you there, just a little heads up though, it's totally fine, love you man! <3
1106
#1106
4 Frags +

Leading a team is hard. The failures are kept to ourselves and the victories go to the guys, even if you are one of them too. Theres always that little bit more of effort that could've been placed in this one area that would make everything else so much easier, no matter how much you actually do put in. The worst thing you can do to yourself and the team is be a boss, unfortunately i'm being able to say that from experience.

The best bit though-other than winning your div 8)-, i think, is the connection you develop with players where the team worked. I've found i recall memories less by the iteration of that roster or the team itself, and more of the guys that chose to stick it out that season or that i brought in from past. Those are what I'm really glad for.

Leading a team is hard. The failures are kept to ourselves and the victories go to the guys, even if you are one of them too. Theres always that little bit more of effort that could've been placed in this one area that would make everything else so much easier, no matter how much you actually do put in. The worst thing you can do to yourself and the team is be a boss, unfortunately i'm being able to say that from experience.

The best bit though-other than winning your div 8)-, i think, is the connection you develop with players where the team worked. I've found i recall memories less by the iteration of that roster or the team itself, and more of the guys that chose to stick it out that season or that i brought in from past. Those are what I'm really glad for.
1107
#1107
3 Frags +

no matter how much i do its just not enough

im tired

no matter how much i do its just not enough

im tired
1108
#1108
1 Frags +

everyone thinks im fucking shit and i do aswell

everyone thinks im fucking shit and i do aswell
1109
#1109
0 Frags +

i recommend following https://twitter.com/IntThings f*ck the haters bro

i recommend following https://twitter.com/IntThings f*ck the haters bro
1110
#1110
0 Frags +

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