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do ur shit in the library and go out with friends after
ps talk to a school advisor or whatever your school calls it they could probably help u

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i cant get my meds adjusted or changed this month because i missed a SINGLE therapy appointment, they just want my money they dont care about me or my mental health at all its bullshit how in america if you want actual psychiatrtic care and dont have expensive insurance your only option is to literally threaten to kill yourself to get help at the cost of your rights freedom and dignity

u need to get some help. if u can secure a parenting system or a place to live or whatever, anything to live outside of your parents' place and eventually get back at them for mistreating you, you should grab whatever you own and beeline outta there with support on your side (i dunno how this all works in the us. there are child support things here but im not sure if they apply to you in the US)

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1. I would point out to them that in 2 years you're going to move out on your own for university. You need to know how to make decisions for yourself so you should point out to them that, at 16, you ought to start experiencing *some* freedom, so that you can learn to make good decisions for yourself. Reassure them that they have taught you the right way to do things and that you won't fuck up.

2. Don't fuck it up. Actively do stuff and avoid letting them see you on the computer if they do relax at all, in fact I would encourage you to find good reasons to be home as little as possible. Demonstrate to them they don't have to take the computer with them because you won't use it. That'd be a good in.

3. Join a club or sport or team or *anything* this will further burden them (by having to keep track of you) and have the plus side of giving you outlets for things to do outside of school/homework, since I'm assuming you don't have a car.

4. Get a job. This will give you the money to have *some* independence and also will enable you to leave the house as often as possible, and you'll meet cool people. Have a cool friend with good internet? Sounds like that's a good place to go. Restaurants are always hiring high school aged kids. Cleaning and lawn care/landscaping companies do too. Depending on your state your school guidance counselor may also be able to find you work. For example in Indiana, most of the farmers and logging companies put work requests in *directly* to the schools, so all you have to do is go to the office and ask for a job and ye' shall receive. I took a summer job (through the school office) at 14 and spent 2 months of the summer (June-July) working for a logging company 1 1/2 hours from home living out of a trailer or tent (depending on how far afield we went to find logs). They didn't trust me with the heavy equipment, but I still worked and got paid a tidy 6$/hr (at the time minimum wage in the US was 5.15 so I was making bank in my eyes).

After that I took a job at McDonald's but it sucked way worse than logging, and so I applied at the land-fill as a shop hand, as the logging experience had taught me to operate some heavier equipment and to do basic tire repair (you would be amazed how often garbage trucks lose tires to nails and other stuff - basically every truck every run, and they need some poor idiot to change those giant tires). I worked weekends only until the summer, and stayed at the landfill until I went off to college (senior year, being unable to play sports anymore due to various injuries, I worked 3-8ish every day). Bought my own car, my own computer, and my own phone line (dial up internet). Was pretty great.

5. Depending on the state and your age, you can emancipate yourself virtually on demand. For example in Indiana the age of consent is 16, so after 16 you're considered an adult and can do whatever you please, furthermore all you have to do to is file a single piece of paperwork and as long as your parents cannot demonstrate that you'll be indigent (no job/will be immediately homeless/burden to society) or incompetent (unable to work), there is nothing they can do to stop it. I imagine that would permanently destroy your relationship with your parents, but if you have somewhere else you could live and can find gainful employment to offset the costs of not being supported by your parents it's an avenue to approach, it would probably also help you on your FAFSA.

So long as you are *not* emancipated you're basically beholden to your parents so long as they're not abusing you, and based on what you've written they are not in the state's eyes, and the best thing you can do is find as many ways to spend time out of the house as possible.

Worst case you could always do what my cousin did when his parents threatened to *force* him to go to a particular university that he didn't want to go to (an all boys school). He just called up the good The Few, The Proud, The Brave, the United States Marine Corps. He told them he would like to sign up, and had them send a recruiter to the house. Having a uniformed Marine in the house with paperwork to sign him up for an all expenses paid trip to Iraq put the fear of God in them and they came to their senses lol.

Also this fucking pump has run for 2 hours straight now, and the goddam hotel is booked up :( Guess I'll have ta' call my grandma she's got a spare bed lol.

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it sounds like your parents hate video games altogether for the wrong reasons (violence), but it could really be that they are just looking out for you in a realistic manner and they're just making violence an excuse, where they want you to have other interests than video games (not sure if you do). if you don't have other interests and do get your own computer, they are very likely right in that you'll waste a lot of time in your life

in the case that they don't want you to play video games because of violence and that is the only reason, you should probably try to educate them why it's really not that big of a deal, first by yourself, then from another adult, such as a counselor or something. probably won't do much, so marxist/raytek's advice is pretty solid.

in any case, it seems your parents want whats best for you and probably love you lol, in which case you shouldn't do anything that you'd regret a few years down the road, such as completely removing them from your life.

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i wish i didnt have 120 ping to eu servers and i wish ambassador wasnt doing 162 damage in 3 headshots

This goes far beyond simply looking out for your well being and into paranoia territory. If your father is being truly unreasonable you could try to work out some sort of schedule where you're allowed to play for an hour each day, even though this would essentially be treating you like a child. You could also give him some spiel about learning responsibility so you can drop the extra homework class to get a part-time job to help speed up your independence.

I WISH THE ESEA CLIENT DIDN'T SUCK HORSE COCKS

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every time i come home from classes my roommate has opened all the blinds and all they windows in my room all the way and its cold as FUCK. it takes like 3 hours for this fucking room to warm up too so every esea match ive played this season my hands are fucking ICECUBES!!!! FUCK YOU ANDREW

I have a toothache and just want to murder everyone i meet right now.

I recently turned 18.
Thought it'd be a good idea to go to the bottle shop and get a good load of beer. Turned out my drivers license was cooked and had the wrong date of birth. I didn't realise and so when the guy behind the counter asked for my id I was like "nah yeah mate no worries" and so he was like "mate you're 17 get out of the store". I responded with a simple "sorry, I understand, drivers licence has the wrong date :( " and the cunt told me I was lying, so he kicked me out of the store with no booze in my hand :( .

I WALKED A MILE TO CLASS IN THE RAIN AND IT WAS CANCELLED

My psoriasis has flared back up again, rang dermatologist but it's been over a year since i saw them so have to go back via GP which is like a 3 week wait, then can get referred back and wait up to 6 weeks just to get prescribed some MTX.

Being made redundant early April and the last job interviews I've had are by really thick accented Indian guys who ask me stupid questions. yesterday he had his phone on speaker phone but wasn't sat near it so I kept having to ask him to repeat himself as he asked me dumb shit like "what do you know of DHCP and PIPA", "how would you deal with someone coming to you with a blue screen of death"

Someone told me nobody loves me while gaming last night and sometimes my brain forces me to believe it

I'm similar to monkeyjedi where LAN made me really want to improve again, and I haven't really felt this motivation to get better in a while. However, I know that college is only going to get harder and I'm not sure if I can commit to playing any more soon. Also, there are so many people that I'd love to play on a team w/, but I also really like my current team, and idk what to do.

also LAN made me realize more that my only friends are on the internet

I have a ton of work to do but I didn't want to do it so I just spent an hour and a half reading this whole thread and now I'm very upset

why the fuck cant comcast deliver a quality internet service for once in my life oh my god

i hate how it takes people working on this game 5 months to fix pyros with 2cm/360 doing 1000dps while spinning around.

Im talktative and memey and because of that alot of people in this community consider me annoying/childish. Ive been trying rather hard to cut back on it but its just not working out like I want to.

Its infuriating that it doesnt matter how hard I try there is a 90% chance of the people I know are not going to take me seriously anytime soon. The only solution I see is going back to my ADD meds and that aint happening

fuck that shit yo

Also all my teams I join either have 4 roster moves or fold within 3 weeks also I still need a demo for copenhagen games

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I have a 10 year old (girlfriend's nephew) living in my house because his parents were hard into heroin and meth for the last ages. Got him out of foster care after 3 years in the system, and he'll probably be with us until he supports himself. Both parents are clean now for the past year or two, but FUCK!!!! Kid cried in my arms for an hour last night missing his parents.

For the past 4 seasons everyone's been telling me I'm giga gamer with insane potential but before every season I lose motivation and emo out. I've had so many golden opportunities and I always fuck them up.
I dont think I actually enjoy the game it's just that I have nothing else to do.

I actually wish I never found out about tf2 as awful as it sounds and I'm sure I'm not the only one person that thinks this. Don't get me wrong, tf2 is actually the best game I've ever played, and there's a reason I have 5k hours in the game. From watching the Ready Up documentary I distinctly remember the part where truktruk mentioned how tf2 is addicting because you're constantly trying to get better to improve your logs and to just get better at the game. This is so true, but it's literally an addiction and I've been so blind to realize and think it was just "normal" for a kid to be playing video games. Playing tf2 became a daily routine and something I spent my weekends doing and nothing else. I love the community around tf2 and all the people I've interacted with within it, but looking back it has taken over my life for the past 3 years. My grades are still really good thankfully but other aspects of my life are just suffering from it.

I got super pissed today at my dad because he unplugged my ethernet cord during a scrim I was playing tonight with my team and after cooling down I'm realizing how idiotic it actually was. Playing tf2 and especially ESEA where other people are relying on you, not so much becomes a chore because I love playing the game, but when something happens so that you have to miss a scrim/match, it's like somebody's keeping me home from a soccer game because I didn't take out the trash the previous night or something like that. I hate that feeling because you're legitimately mad at your dad over a video game man.

Holy rant, but hopefully others can relate and understand others are going through the same thing.

update on my dorm because this shit is actually infuriating now

there is only 1 room that is still wet as of today, 6 days later, and its mine. i went in and checked on my stuff, and aside from it being about 90 degrees in the room from all the dehumidifiers, there is sawdust all over my shit because they had to drill into the walls and didn't bother to cover any of my obviously expensive computer stuff. i've already had to play a match on my laptop, which gets a god tier 30fps and like a quarter second of input lag which is inconsistent so i cant get used to it.

oh well at least i can get some work done at my school library's swastika desks

So I just lost a basketball game in the most retarded way right. We have a single coach and if your coach gets ejected than you forfeit cause u have no coach. So back tracking very first game of the season, in a tournament, we play this team from way outta town, last year they were the best team in northern Ontario right. They blow us out the water by 50 points barely trying, but they weren't nearly as good as they were the year before. So now today we play this team, and we expect to get absolutely fucked right, and for the first quarter we do, its 30-14 by the end of the first quarter. So In and absolute Cinderalla type story in the last three quarters we shoot the lights out and don't miss, me and the other two guards had at least 30 points just on jumpers and shit right. Last two minutes tied 64-64 dude on their team bricks a three and I get the rebound, and push the ball up the floor to my buddy and he gets a layup. It should've been an and-1. Our coach, who keep in mind didn't talk to the refs at all during the game and didn't get a tech all season and is a reserved guy in general says "what do you have to do to get a foul?" Ref looks at him and he gets the tech. He doesn't even say anything just looks at the ref in surprise raises his hands the air and turns around and freaks our with his body language. Another tech. We know the games over, we won in this exact same way against a team in the regular season, albeit a blowout win anyways. We shake hands immediately, walk to the dressing room and just don't speak for 6 minutes before someone breaks the silence. Fuck that ref