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Trying to find purpose
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#1
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What is the point of being here? I keep asking myself every day what am i doing here and i can't find a reason why i even try, everything makes me miserable, i haven't a shred of happiness in a long time and i don't think there is a reason i should even wake up idk why i'm typing this here, just nowhere else to put it i guess.

What is the point of being here? I keep asking myself every day what am i doing here and i can't find a reason why i even try, everything makes me miserable, i haven't a shred of happiness in a long time and i don't think there is a reason i should even wake up idk why i'm typing this here, just nowhere else to put it i guess.
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#2
19 Frags +

follow distractions. anything that excites you. allow yourself

there doesn't need to be a reason for life. it just is. though if its helpful to have a purpose, how about enjoying it?

try things take risks dont worry so much good luck

follow distractions. anything that excites you. allow yourself

there doesn't need to be a reason for life. it just is. though if its helpful to have a purpose, how about enjoying it?

try things take risks dont worry so much good luck
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#3
7 Frags +

Nothing excites me anymore, i just wake up, feel miserable through out the day and just go about the day and then go to bed and repeat the process

Nothing excites me anymore, i just wake up, feel miserable through out the day and just go about the day and then go to bed and repeat the process
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#4
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sure, i get it. you're gonna have to look for new things, or new perspectives. shake things up. escape your routines

i was thinking earlier today about why you know people who kill themselves are really depressed. they almost never destroy cars or max out credit cards or try to pull any bogus shit for the lols before they pull the plug

sure, i get it. you're gonna have to look for new things, or new perspectives. shake things up. escape your routines

i was thinking earlier today about why you know people who kill themselves are really depressed. they almost never destroy cars or max out credit cards or try to pull any bogus shit for the lols before they pull the plug
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#5
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we can discord if you want, not up to much atm. happy to chit chat casual#0192

we can discord if you want, not up to much atm. happy to chit chat casual#0192
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#6
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I've been trying for years, i've been good at hanging on but now a days it's just seemingly impossible

I've been trying for years, i've been good at hanging on but now a days it's just seemingly impossible
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#7
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i understand the frustration of futility. its hard to believe when you are: in the thick of it and feel like you've tried everything and don't have the energy anymore to keep pushing, but, it doesn't matter how hard you try if you're not trying the 'right things'..

which will be different for everyone. and of course if it was easy to figure out how to get out of it, you would've already done it.

i understand the frustration of futility. its hard to believe when you are: in the thick of it and feel like you've tried everything and don't have the energy anymore to keep pushing, [b]but[/b], it doesn't matter how hard you try if you're not trying the 'right things'..

which will be different for everyone. and of course if it was easy to figure out how to get out of it, you would've already done it.
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#8
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what worked in the past and what are some things you've already tried?

what worked in the past and what are some things you've already tried?
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#9
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Hanging out with friends helped, but i don't really have any friends anymore, just isolated all the time

Hanging out with friends helped, but i don't really have any friends anymore, just isolated all the time
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#10
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Pretty much what Casual in #4 said. Try to change up your habits, do something that breaks your routine and lets you see outside of the hole. I recommend doing some sport (if your not already doing so) as a start so your body will produce some endorphines. That may clear up your view a little bit and give you some headspace to work with. Figure out a personal goal that you can look forward to and strife to (doesn't have to be big at the start, maybe its just walking around the block once a day for now), establish multiple different activities that keep you busy, express yourself. Just a few ideas.

Also, remember that its ok to be unhappy and that you CAN change that if you really want to, you have the power to do so! Not saying that its easy, especially if you have established a lot of unhealthy habits, but there is a way!

Pretty much what Casual in #4 said. Try to change up your habits, do something that breaks your routine and lets you see outside of the hole. I recommend doing some sport (if your not already doing so) as a start so your body will produce some endorphines. That may clear up your view a little bit and give you some headspace to work with. Figure out a personal goal that you can look forward to and strife to (doesn't have to be big at the start, maybe its just walking around the block once a day for now), establish multiple different activities that keep you busy, express yourself. Just a few ideas.

Also, remember that its ok to be unhappy and that you CAN change that if you really want to, you have the power to do so! Not saying that its easy, especially if you have established a lot of unhealthy habits, but there is a way!
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#11
TFNew
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most relatable thread ive ever seen on this website

most relatable thread ive ever seen on this website
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#12
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phobiaNothing excites me anymore, i just wake up, feel miserable through out the day and just go about the day and then go to bed and repeat the process

Go and find a therapist or psychologist. Sounds like possible depression and if its something thats been going on for a long time it can be almost impossible to drag yourself out of it alone.

[quote=phobia]Nothing excites me anymore, i just wake up, feel miserable through out the day and just go about the day and then go to bed and repeat the process[/quote]

Go and find a therapist or psychologist. Sounds like possible depression and if its something thats been going on for a long time it can be almost impossible to drag yourself out of it alone.
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#13
payload.tf
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try to learn something you thought you'd never love. Learn it so well you're itching to come online every day to find more and more material to learn on that subject. Use that motivation to build projects you've never known you could. Finding this subject will land you into a position that benefits you and your future.

try to learn something you thought you'd never love. Learn it so well you're itching to come online every day to find more and more material to learn on that subject. Use that motivation to build projects you've never known you could. Finding this subject will land you into a position that benefits you and your future.
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#14
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join a kickboxing/mma gym, nothing makes you feel more alive than trying to rip someones head off

join a kickboxing/mma gym, nothing makes you feel more alive than trying to rip someones head off
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#15
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just grind dm

just grind dm
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#16
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VoodooChowjust grind dm

this is the absolute worst possible advice even if you just meant it as a joke

[quote=VoodooChow]just grind dm[/quote]
this is the absolute worst possible advice even if you just meant it as a joke
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#17
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honestly i deal with the same shit, but killing myself seems more pointless than life. the concept that i'm even here is really mind boggling, so im just tryna have a good time while im here. hence why i spend thousands of hours playing video games because they ironically seem to have more of a point than life does

honestly i deal with the same shit, but killing myself seems more pointless than life. the concept that i'm even here is really mind boggling, so im just tryna have a good time while im here. hence why i spend thousands of hours playing video games because they ironically seem to have more of a point than life does
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#18
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100% what Tino said. Find a psychologist, social worker, or counselor to talk to. They can definitely give you some strategies to get out of the kind of rut you're stuck in right now. Stay safe.

100% what Tino said. Find a psychologist, social worker, or counselor to talk to. They can definitely give you some strategies to get out of the kind of rut you're stuck in right now. Stay safe.
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#19
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try to find a creative outlet. I wish you the best phobia, my old teammate.

try to find a creative outlet. I wish you the best phobia, my old teammate.
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#20
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phobiaWhat is the point of being here?

there isnt one. do whatever you want.

phobiaI keep asking myself every day what am i doing here and i can't find a reason why i even try, everything makes me miserable, i haven't a shred of happiness in a long time and i don't think there is a reason i should even wake up idk why i'm typing this here, just nowhere else to put it i guess.

sounds like youre depressed. luckily you are among many going through the same motions. i wont reiterate all the above points, just hope you take them to heart and make an attempt at it.

get away from your computer/the internet for a while. seriously. its helped me a ton.

[quote=phobia]What is the point of being here?[/quote]
there isnt one. do whatever you want.

[quote=phobia]I keep asking myself every day what am i doing here and i can't find a reason why i even try, everything makes me miserable, i haven't a shred of happiness in a long time and i don't think there is a reason i should even wake up idk why i'm typing this here, just nowhere else to put it i guess.[/quote]
sounds like youre depressed. luckily you are among many going through the same motions. i wont reiterate all the above points, just hope you take them to heart and make an attempt at it.

get away from your computer/the internet for a while. seriously. its helped me a ton.
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#21
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I have agoraphobia. I can't leave my house easily so doing other things is extremely difficult and so i am basically stuck like this. Ty for the advice guys but i prolly won't hold on longer

edit: i'll be fine for a bit. i don't want anyone to worry about me.

I have agoraphobia. I can't leave my house easily so doing other things is extremely difficult and so i am basically stuck like this. Ty for the advice guys but i prolly won't hold on longer

edit: i'll be fine for a bit. i don't want anyone to worry about me.
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#22
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i dont really like this response that phobia gave me, if you know him in real life or have any contact with him at all, please tell phobia that he is loved and shouldnt hurt himself

[12:37 AM]
(503) RoL:
yo phobia are you going to be okay
i was literally in the middle of typing this exact sentence on your tftv thread but i want to ask you personally
'sorry but reading this thread and then seeing phobia say "i prolly won't hold on longer" is like a major red flag that hes going to hurt himself and that's the last thing i want to see, anyone that h'
Please dont hurt yourself bro ive known you forever and i dont want you to die

[12:39 AM]
josh:
i'll be fine for a biit

[12:41 AM]
(503) RoL:
Life is worth living.

i dont really like this response that phobia gave me, if you know him in real life or have any contact with him at all, please tell phobia that he is loved and shouldnt hurt himself

[12:37 AM]
(503) RoL:
yo phobia are you going to be okay
i was literally in the middle of typing this exact sentence on your tftv thread but i want to ask you personally
'sorry but reading this thread and then seeing phobia say "i prolly won't hold on longer" is like a major red flag that hes going to hurt himself and that's the last thing i want to see, anyone that h'
Please dont hurt yourself bro ive known you forever and i dont want you to die

[12:39 AM]
josh:
i'll be fine for a biit

[12:41 AM]
(503) RoL:
Life is worth living.
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#23
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I don't know you, but I understand that your current unhappiness makes you feel like life is not worth it. However, if you were to close your eyes for 5 minutes and think about the elements of a life that would make you happy, do you really think that all those elements are unobtainable for you? You are no lesser person than any of the billions of people that have found happiness. Despite your username suggests, your agoraphobia does not actually define who you are. Even if you have been unable to overcome it, that doesn't mean you cannot have control over how much it (or any other problems you might have) affects your happiness.

If you want to take control over your happiness you have to take a small leap of faith outside the comfortable escape which the internet and the tf2 grind provide, and accept your current situation. It only takes a few minutes of acceptance to schedule your first (online) appointment with a professional, it only takes a few minutes of acceptance and vulnerability to open up to the people who care about you and tell them about the real problems making you unhappy and holding you back. You will be faced with the full reality of your current situation, but at the same time you will have taken a big step towards a happier life and will now have the support of other people to help you get there.

Hang on man, there is so much purpose you can give to your life.

I don't know you, but I understand that your current unhappiness makes you feel like life is not worth it. However, if you were to close your eyes for 5 minutes and think about the elements of a life that would make you happy, do you really think that all those elements are unobtainable for you? You are no lesser person than any of the billions of people that have found happiness. Despite your username suggests, your agoraphobia does not actually define who you are. Even if you have been unable to overcome it, that doesn't mean you cannot have control over how much it (or any other problems you might have) affects your happiness.

If you want to take control over your happiness you have to take a small leap of faith outside the comfortable escape which the internet and the tf2 grind provide, and accept your current situation. It only takes a few minutes of acceptance to schedule your first (online) appointment with a professional, it only takes a few minutes of acceptance and vulnerability to open up to the people who care about you and tell them about the real problems making you unhappy and holding you back. You will be faced with the full reality of your current situation, but at the same time you will have taken a big step towards a happier life and will now have the support of other people to help you get there.

Hang on man, there is so much purpose you can give to your life.
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#24
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do whatever u want while u can still feel things before you die and are reincarnated into something else
personally i hope im a sheep eating some nice grass in my next life

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do whatever u want while u can still feel things before you die and are reincarnated into something else
personally i hope im a sheep eating some nice grass in my next life
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#25
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At the start of coronavirus I bumped into discord server 'The Lodge' through twitch streamer 'Kruffles'. It's full of very supportive people, they have a dedicated channel 'the lodge listens' where you are free to write about any issues and talk about it with others (no specialists). They also play games together and watch movies every sunday in discord. This server helped me quite a lot so I thought you guys might like it too.

At the start of coronavirus I bumped into discord server '[url=https://discord.gg/ADjPbgB]The Lodge[/url]' through twitch streamer '[url=https://www.twitch.tv/kruffles]Kruffles[/url]'. It's full of very supportive people, they have a dedicated channel 'the lodge listens' where you are free to write about any issues and talk about it with others (no specialists). They also play games together and watch movies every sunday in discord. This server helped me quite a lot so I thought you guys might like it too.
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#26
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phobiaI have agoraphobia. I can't leave my house easily so doing other things is extremely difficult and so i am basically stuck like this.

yeah thats a mindset, youre not crippled. go outside.

[quote=phobia]I have agoraphobia. I can't leave my house easily so doing other things is extremely difficult and so i am basically stuck like this.[/quote]
yeah thats a mindset, youre not crippled. go outside.
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#27
eXtelevision
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phobiaI have agoraphobia. I can't leave my house easily so doing other things is extremely difficult and so i am basically stuck like this.

Best to make the most of it then. There are a lot of hobbies you could start up, it's just a matter of getting what you need to your house. You should try cooking. There are a lot of grocery delivery services and there is no limit to techniques or dishes you can try to master.

A lot of people have been stuck indoors and taking up new hobbies this year. I was rappin' for a bit, wtf? Esports are definitely a good outlet, doesn't have to be TF2.

Good luck phobia. <3

[quote=phobia]I have agoraphobia. I can't leave my house easily so doing other things is extremely difficult and so i am basically stuck like this. [/quote]

Best to make the most of it then. There are a lot of hobbies you could start up, it's just a matter of getting what you need to your house. You should try cooking. There are a lot of grocery delivery services and there is no limit to techniques or dishes you can try to master.

A lot of people have been stuck indoors and taking up new hobbies this year. I was rappin' for a bit, wtf? Esports are definitely a good outlet, doesn't have to be TF2.

Good luck phobia. <3
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#28
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lmfao ppl rly being born in america having the privilege to post on niche Internet forums being depressed bro it’s literally all on u. nothing excites you or makes you happy? That’s your fault, you literally can do more things than 99% of the world bro stop playing games, stop posting lachrymose bait on tftv and go do something active.

lmfao ppl rly being born in america having the privilege to post on niche Internet forums being depressed bro it’s literally all on u. nothing excites you or makes you happy? That’s your fault, you literally can do more things than 99% of the world bro stop playing games, stop posting lachrymose bait on tftv and go do something active.
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#29
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carnaticumlmfao ppl rly being born in america having the privilege to post on niche Internet forums being depressed bro it’s literally all on u. nothing excites you or makes you happy? That’s your fault, you literally can do more things than 99% of the world bro stop playing games, stop posting lachrymose bait on tftv and go do something active.

literally this but a bunch of limp wrist softbois are downvoting us

[quote=carnaticum]lmfao ppl rly being born in america having the privilege to post on niche Internet forums being depressed bro it’s literally all on u. nothing excites you or makes you happy? That’s your fault, you literally can do more things than 99% of the world bro stop playing games, stop posting lachrymose bait on tftv and go do something active.[/quote]
literally this but a bunch of limp wrist softbois are downvoting us
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#30
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ya this is why i don't vent lol i hate ppl like you guys

ya this is why i don't vent lol i hate ppl like you guys
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