About a month ago I ended up with severe psychosis and it was really fucking bad. First of all I thought that some guy had hung himself in my shower then when i went to check i actually saw him hanging from the neck in my shower dead, I was so sure it was real I apparently hallucinated taking him down from the shower and tried to call his family to inform them that he had hung himself in my own shower and this caused me to have extreme panic attacks.
So i freaked the fuck out and then spent the next few weeks in hospital not knowing where or who i was and apparently i was roaming about the hospital and even ended up in the cancer ward where i started roaming about the hospital and ended up saying bizarre things to cancer patients who were dying. I had no idea i was doing this and feel awful but after that the doctors finally took what was happening to me seriously and put me in my own room away from other patients.
Then i started having fits and started showing other bizarre kinds of behavior because i thought i had been in a coma for 20 years and had just woken up and from what I've been told, i was going around the hospital thinking that i worked there and ended up going up to other patients (who were probably dying) and doing bizarre things to them because i thought i actually worked there.
It was honestly the worst experience of my life and i feel awful about it but im still not sure why i did all of these things and everyone (including the doctors) told me it was probably because of LSD or some other drug that I had taken. Now that I remember things more clearly I know that I had not taken ANY drugs prior to my 2-week long hospital stay of complete psychosis but the doctors are still convinced that it was due to drugs. Now I am terrified of my own mental state and i'm worried that I might have some sort of severe mental illness or a brain tumor but they refused to test me on any of those things.
I thought i heard the doctors tell me i had some kind of incurable blood disease and thought i was legit dying and it was terrifying, I was convinced i had days to live and it was honestly the most horrific thing i have ever experienced. I just hope it doesn't happen to me again, even if it was all in my brain, it still all felt real at the time and i haven't really recovered from it yet and my parents had no idea what was going on so they were terrified as well.
i just hope this shit will never happen to me again and i wouldn't wish it on anyone but the doctors were so convinced it was drugs (that I had not been taking) they didn't really look into it.
EDIT: Some more info
I uploaded a video of me dancing (pretty well for a first timer) and basically when making it I thought I was Richard Hammond (from Top Gear)
In the description you can read:
"IIf you think you have what it takes to win then youm, over nyou haven't gone high enough yet. All we jnow is that he's the stug. Every Frid. No Jeremy's allowed.
Cadd themseles to apply as a contestant!"
This might sound weird but it was because I was watching top gear and thought i was Richard Hammond and i thought i was making a dance game show and the no Jeremy Clarkson allowed thing was a joke by me (Richard Hammond) who i actually thought i was.
It sounds kinda funny but severe psychosis is really fucking serious. I didn't think i was Richard Hammond, i KNEW i was. Then later in hospital I ended up thinking I had an incurable blood cancer and had days to live and I was so convinced I had days to live, I ended up calling all of my family members to say goodbye. My parents had no idea what was going on and it was horrific.
Basically look after your mental health and don't avoid going to appointments like I had done because trust me you do not want to end up like I did. Thankfully I am fine now but I am going to have to live the rest of my life not knowing if what I am experiencing is real or not and it is horrible.