I have lost all motivation to continue my degree. I have barely gone to any classes in a long time. I feel like I've failed at everything I've ever tried. I don't want to drop out, but I'm very depressed to the point it's keeping me from studying. I've wasted 5 years trying to get a degree in Chemistry and i've gotten nowhere.
I've lost contact with basically all my irl friends. I'm in a student club so I still see some of them every 2 weeks or so but that's still not much considering I never talk to any of them outside of that.
I've tried at times to contact my best irl friend but he's on a different campus than me now and is grinding his degree. I feel like he's already forgotten about me because he never asks me to come with anymore when he goes out
All I can look forward to is LANs because then I can see my TF2 friends who are the best friends i've ever had. It sucks to only be able to see your best friends once or twice in an entire year. Sitting in voice chat with them is the only contact with people I still have