https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mWKUjWjFv08 or https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZaObePJTHI at least for now

I would constantly jump around when I (re)spawn while I get to where I'm going. In the same light, I'd randomly put a spray down somewhere despite not having a spray. I spammed my weapon change a lot. Every now and then I would bunny hop despite the lack of gained speed because it felt cool getting myself forward at a near regular pace while not having to hold W. I spammed tab (default E) a lot in general (sorry, medics) for whatever reason. Sometimes I found myself just meleeing any part of the ground or walls/props within reach while I'm going somewhere out of confrontation.

you're not even trying anymore man come on

Damn Shojan, that's pretty fuckin' great. Your future is bright.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pGUF0OHWSzE

For a "game theorist", he sure seems to know little about a few games that he makes these videos with. Laugh it off, take it with a grain of salt and continue on with your day.

if stultus posts, i won't post for a month

edit: changed it from a month cause he's going to fucking post

quick e2: fuck that, i ain't a bitch

...but it has to be within 12 hours

The underappreciated thing about this is that everyone kept the plus frags even

pretty good, but i feel like i'd have to be fucked up to get more into it

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o1hj8obsdMI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RRRuhviJGMQ

As I said, I don't remember, but I checked my ESEA account and I believe this was the game - https://play.esea.net/index.php?s=stats&d=match&id=2578761

I'm mad at myself for never getting anywhere as far as competitive TF2 is considered. I've lost out on at least making IM on two different occasions and it still bothers me. The first time was my fault entirely as none of us had no idea all we had to do was win once or twice (whatever it was) in the playoffs to make IM at the time, so I decided to take some time off and pull myself together only to find out after giving up the roster on ESEA that we made IM. By then, a late season demo pick up had gained the ownership of the ESEA roster (not physically but that was to happen the next day or whatever), but I had asked my scout partner to have the ownership back and he gave it to me. It became a problem between the person who would have had ownership and myself, and for some reason they made a thread about it on NATF2 and it got to the point where everyone said "just give it to him to get this over with". Bad move... but I did. They ended up doing terribly during their first IM season. I can't imagine it'd have been any different if the lineup before had done any better, but it bothers me not knowing if that would have been the case or not.

The second time was when some CS guy by the name of caseythecat somehow managed to convince ESEA that Swatt was him ban evading on a different game (???), leading Swatt to receive either a season long ban or a year long ban, I can't remember. So my new team at this time isn't perfect but we were doing pretty great for our first season and were going to make playoffs. Somehow our scout, Nemrawd, was believed, by ESEA, to also be this caseythecat person ban evading to play TF2 (even tho this cheater was a CS player, but whatever). We had all of our wins with him overturned and missed out on participating in the playoffs. Of course this doesn't mean we'd have made IM, but I felt very strong about this line up and even if it meant just winning enough games to move up, I knew we'd get there. But we didn't... because this caseythecat faggot and ESEA didn't let that happen. Thank you.

And I don't remember which season this was, but fuck you, ESEA, for allowing Hoegie to wallhack during our playoff match on Warmfront without overturning the outcome. Fucking thanks.

This song makes me want to get back into editing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PwXai-sgM-s

I didn't want to post the obvious and wanted to give a couple of mine that I feel are underappreciated

Hey man, "you time" is a sweet release from everything else no matter how often it is. Maybe it's my selection of friends that I've chosen since moving here nearly a decade ago or maybe growing up just made me tired, but I used to be friends with a ton of neighborhood people and always wanted to get out and skate, walk around the city or maybe just chill and master FFT with my best friend. I never wanted to be alone either way.

I moved here during summer break before my sophomore year and got quickly acquainted and the like. My time here in school was great. Once I graduated, the pack went different ways and I ended up making friends with dudes from my neighborhood again. Their lifestyles were completely different (drugs, pills, alcohol) but we related and clashed enough in other areas to become chill. We hung out a lot and still do from time to time, but I quickly realized their lives are not lives I want for myself. While we're still great friends and while they've matured, during that time I realized that I just love alone time. I don't dislike hanging out with them; it's quite enjoyable usually.

But despite all of that, especially through rough patches in our friendships, I've learned that having me time is amazing. One of those friends is way too out of town for anything to happen considering my work schedule and his. Another is busy working and fathering his two young ones. The last moved to Illinois to live with his gf. So yeah, I'm alone and it shows sometimes, but my work schedule blurs that just enough. Even still, it feels nice. I enjoy being around others, but being alone is nice. Don't let it get to you too much.

I've gone off on quite a tangent here, but I feel like I needed to finally. I'm sorry for wasting anyone's time.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=24uIs1sTLhQ

if not that then https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D40QCjrp2v4