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I went to a LAN in Seattle a few years ago and as soon I got there banny offered to help me carry all of my shit inside. I know it wasn't the most selfless act of all time, but it was still pretty cool to have a top invite player I've never really talked to be so friendly to me. I think banny is still a good guy deep down, he is just having a ton of trouble adjusting to popularity as a personality as opposed to when he was just known as that one guy who is really good at demoman. A lot of things happened to him pretty close to each other that can easily have a huge effect on one's personality, such as becoming a super popular streamer, becoming much more physically attractive, winning international events, and getting a girlfriend (or whatever his deal with Lauren was lol). I know these werent original observations but I do think that people often blame his personality change on just one thing when its really a whole bunch things that have affected him on so many levels who he is. I realize that I may be coming off as a banny sub/apologist (which I'm not!), I just think that its important to keep all of what's happened in mind as we continue to discuss this issue. Maybe if we talk about why he is the way he is instead of what he is he'll have some sort of dramatic self realization and grow out his hair again.

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Showing how you would actually apply these jumps in an actual game would be cool. For example, show a soldier doing a regular rocket jump and then wall jumping for extra speed to drop a medic.

I'm no expert but I wouldn't be surprised if what sheepy is saying here is true. I don't think LSD can make someone go crazy, but it makes sense to me that it can make somebody who is predisposed to some sort of mental illness or in the early stages of one go crazy.

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I like ur hair. its pretty much what my hair would look like if I let the sides grow out.

Thank you guys for your words and advice. It has been a few months so I think I may as well give an update on blogfortress.tv. Sorry in advance if this is a little long. I hope you guys agree that making long self absorbed posts is okay as long as you acknowledge that its a long self absorbed post. Please notice how self-aware I am.

I finished last quarter with somewhere around a 3.6 GPA which is much better than I usually do so I'm very proud of myself for that. Taking some easy classes helped a lot but I noticed that my work ethic was much better in all sorts of ways such as not doing assignments at the last minute. Being more communicative with my professors was also a big help. I go to a private university with pretty small class sizes so I understand that its easier for me to get some leeway than it is for a lot of other people, but I was surprised at just how accommodating professors can be if you show that you actually care. I fucked up an assignment really badly, by which I mean I got a 20%, because I didn't see that you had to get the directions from multiple different parts of the class's website. That last part is fucking stupid, but when I emailed my professor about it he was very understanding and gave me a couple days to redo the assignment. My teachers in high school gave me this impression that professors were super strict about everything even if they do "seem" cool, but I'm finally starting to realize that most of them are actually really nice.

I tried to avoid taking medication or seeking out a diagnosis mostly because I'm stubborn about a grade school teacher I had who went through my backpack, found my 5th grade, pseudo edgy proto-memes and shitty song lyrics, which were basically plagiarized green day songs, and tried to get me in trouble, to see a therapist, and on ADHD medication. Then again, that was the same year I put a carrot in the microwave for 5 minutes so maybe I did have some issues. Sorry about that tangent, anyway, I saw my psychiatrist for the first time about a month and a half or so ago and he diagnosed me with inattentive type ADHD. At first I wasn't so sure because I and many others believe that it is a very over-diagnosed condition even if it is real. After I took vyvanse for the first time though, I realized that it really doesn't matter if its real or not as long as it makes things easier for me.

I used to think that I was just really bad at math, but after going on medication I realized that wasn't really the case. Before I started taking medication I would always have a splitting headache whenever I was faced with any sort of math problem and just being in math class stressed the hell out of me. As soon as I would stop thinking about one number or variable to think about another, I would instantly lose it in the sea of white noise that is my mind. Numeric anchors held my ship stagnant in the storming sea. Poetry is fucking dumb please ignore that. I'm embarrassed to say it, but I failed a remedial pre-calc class a couple quarters ago simply because studying math gave me such bad headaches and mental fatigue. When I took the class in high school I had a teacher who was pretty damn mean to me to and would deliberately let my classmates know how poorly I was doing. She destroyed whatever confidence I had in my mathematical abilities which lead me into a feedback loop where I wouldn't do problems I actually could do simply because I thought I was too bad at math to actually know the solution. That along with the headaches made me basically just a nervous wreck whenever I was doing anything math related. Even calculating tips made me anxious. Thankfully, I'm retaking pre-calc now and it is going better than ever. The professor is really nice and concise which makes it very easy to pay attention and the medication I'm on makes doing math almost effortless. Catching up to where I should be is going to take a while, but I'm actually looking forward to it because I know how much its going to help my self-esteem when I can say I don't suck at math.

Anyway, here's some advice from capnfapn, the wise ol' sage, to the youths strugglin' in school.

• I'm not following this advice right now, but working out really does help a lot. Mentally, it helps you focus, gets rid of stress, and improves your work ethic.I believe that the different parts of ourselves that we can be confident in are permeable in the sense that confidence in one area can turn into confidence in another. Even if it doesn't help mentally you'll still feel better about being a more gorgeous gamer than before. Be warned though, if you have a low sensitivity and aim with your arm your aim may suffer during the first few days of soreness. In the long run though, I think your gaming skills will improve due to your improved mental health and improved mind-muscle connection.
  
  
• Don't be afraid to quit tf2 for a little bit. I got grounded from tf2 all the time in high school and was always afraid that by the time I got ungrounded the game would be dead. Trust me, you don't need to worry about that unless your parents are asian and ban you for a decade. Its easy to worry about losing all of your hard earned DM skill when taking a break, but I can assure you that it will come back much quicker than you think. Once a fragger, always a fragger. When you do return in full force with your improved school situation, you'll probably do a lot better in the mental aspects of the game because you aren't worried about school in the back of your mind.
  
  
• If you can't get yourself to completely stop, do yourself a favor and try to limit your time to whatever your situation allows. This can range from only playing scrims and DM/MGE and not playing pubs and other less umm... "productive" forms of tf2, to limiting yourself to just an hour of DM a night so that you can keep improving while not being invested in a team. Won't it be awesome when you come back from the hyperbolic time chamber, ready to smash mid open with your death new-found deathmatching skill? Since nobody remembers you anyway, people might think you're like the new yomps or something!
  
  
• Be friends with productive people. I'm not saying you need to completely change your group of friends if they aren't productive, but try to use the success of your friends as a source of motivation. I know it sounds trite but having someone around who really cares about where they're going in life will probably rub off on you. I think a lot of gamer type people are aware that they would be content with a very modest style of life, which makes it hard for a lot of us get motivated enough to become our best, so being around people who really want the best for themselves can really have an impact on where you want to be.
  
  
• If you're concerned you may have ADHD, a learning disability, or any sort of mental issue don't be afraid to talk about it with your parents and other advisers. Before you talk to other people though, look stuff up online so that you have a better understanding of what you may have, which will make it easier to communicate with whoever about it. That being said, don't go straight to medication especially if you're still in high school. Try your very best to get as far as you can without taking medication because it isn't something you will always be able to rely on.

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I'm a sophomore at depaul. If anyone here lives or goes to school in Chicago add me if u want our parents to schedule a playdate.

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It's a shame that so many people in the social justice movement are caught up in non-problems like this and not using their often underestimated influence to combat real, tangible issues. Pretty much every university and even many high schools have feminist/social justice clubs that could focus on issues such as homophobia and sexism (against both men and women) or even issues like police brutality, but instead the attention goes towards people who mean no harm. The problem with these "I'm a good person" clubs is that they tend to attract people that care more about appearing like they're a better person more than they care about doing whats actually right. This is what leads to people going for the easy targets like this guy instead of actually making a difference. It's much easier to falsely paint someone else with bad intentions and step on them to get to the moral high ground than it is to rise above what's truly wrong.

Thank you so much for all of your feedback and support! I showed the thread to my bandmates and they really appreciated what you guys had to say.

Dude post your stuff! I'd love to hear it. We plan on doing some shows actually once our setlist gets a little longer.

One of my bandmates has a friend who did it for us. I know absolutely nothing about her so I don't know if she would appreciate me posting her name here.

That was some really good feedback. For the most part the instrumentals are just a bunch of random progressions and riffs we smashed together so we could call it a song which I think played a big part in creating a disconnect between the lyrics and the music. We're definitely gonna keep what you said about having a cohesive soundscape in mind.

Hey friends, my bandmates and I recorded an EP a little while ago and I thought that if I'm gonna spam my songs about moms on here it would be pretty disrespectful not to do the same for some music that Is not a complete joke.

I've had a lot of fun playing guitar with these guys and it would mean a lot to me if you would give our songs a listen. Playing in a band has been a dream of mine ever since I was a little kid so I'm feeling really happy right now. I know yelly screamy music isn't exactly everyones cup of tea but I think that if you're into any sort of hardcore/punk/screamo/skramz/post-whatever or straight to tv Lifetime channel movies you may enjoy it :)

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