i have no idea wha the fcuk my OCD wants, cause it mjust makes me repeat stuff, all the time, it has beeen gentler the past ocuple ears cause, ii ihad to ljust look at an image and repeat the same sentecne for an hour straight, but nowadays, i just have to repeat it every few minutes and make sure it needs to be the last sentence that i i said, so it doetn take up asm uch time, it doents fuk with me as much as before so thats cool i guess, al tohuuugh uhhhhhhhhhh,
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tonigh
t ma ettn banned from /jp/
\they ondt ndersntad anythng, mean, I mean i tried to help them, i made pretty fuckiinim qualiy posts, i porbably shoulda been there like 7 years ago? or so. dunno. all I onoew is that I'm the only sane, the only reasonable person left

i'll go on bluesky, and pick the most autistic, teh most deranged platoon of transgender tech experts, to combat the indians who wiill be trying to install untested windows 11 updates to my system
i am not fucking scared, like the OPSEC obsessesd schizophrenic pieces of shit that are trying to go AWOL by hidiing on IRCs that i can only connect to while having TOR open like wooooow dude come on tha'ts so much fucking effort just ot talk to u what do you want from me
i have held them off for now by sayintg that bi'll update my windows later, i don't even have my own fucking internet that i can be connected to for more than 1 minute, how do you want me to DOWLNOAD ANY OF THOSE UPDATES

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pretty sure by the time I"m just gonna die from letintg my body rot there's gonna be a war and i"m gonna be way too fucked up to play touhou with the drones but I"ll still have the mind for strategy strategy and I'll be prime canditate for commander mode

so i'll be directin the zoomers and choosing their equipment, naming their clases, and watching tyhe the minimap for the team, and in this game, the mii minimap is the fucking globe, and our rules of engagament deem anyone in the fucking world expendalbe
Oh my fucking god
I'm gonna get to play a sick game of Battlefiedl 4, Commander Mode, where I'm the guy who's gotta fucking declare the priority targets and defenses, designate rally points, and pick w here our next wave of reinforcements needs to respawn

when i had stable internet and was using the dark web, i was using it for a singular reasno, and a singular reason only, to talk with an ukrainian ddurg da drug dealer/addict who had traps set up in his apartment so that, if he ever fucked anything up, the firefighters that came to save him would die as well, anyway, whn i was telling him that i used to speedrun quake 1 he told me about xonotic, cool game , i tthougt i got prety okay at it, i realy liked clan arena and instagib capture the flag, but
at one point
i had a realizaxtion
oh wow
im just fragging old people and retards that only play h this game,cauuse they use stupid operating systems that dcant play any other games, so thy play xonotic cause they cant play anything else lol, tha'ts when i realized oh wow ya im not actually doing anything and stopped plrealy playing that game,

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i got lucky that im an mont an actual tranny and instead just one that wants to be a 2D girl which only gives me the option of death instead of all that other weird shit so at least I know what the fuck is going on there, besides that, i have no idea what whthe fuck my brain wants it never shuts the fuck up, i think somewhere along the the lin ic i chose the secret quake 1 nightmare difficulty except instead of spawning more enemies it made my parents severely neglect me

I'm having vodka and a pink Monster. Kanpai.

I woke up. Got a cup of tea.

Gonna get another cup of tea.

I woke up. Having a cup of tea.

Got a pink Monster.

Having strawberry milk.

Having a cup of tea.

Got a Monster.

Having vodka and a pink Monster.