Raymon and Nursey outshine Shade mechanically at this point, which is what OP is judging skill by

Though B4nny's strength as a player comes from maincalling and decision making I wouldn't say he's been unable to keep up with the mechanical skills of other scouts in invite/prem. Thaigr has the best DM atm though

https://clips.twitch.tv/KathishCrispySushiRuleFive
https://clips.twitch.tv/GlutenFreeRelentlessLatteRiPepperonis

https://puu.sh/BFCKD/b2d7d3bc6c.png
The only things I've ever heard or seen from you is you being toxic so yea obviously from your point of view this isn't bannable because you say worse shit all the time

As for Nati0nal: Yea sure the admins should've asked you one final time to take down the video but the person it was aimed at had already asked you to take it down and you refused. Simply because you don't think it's harassment doesn't mean the person you aim it at doesn't feel harassed. The same way high school bullies have no clue they're ruining some kid's life by being "playful".
You're not the only person to ever write something negative on a rec post but very few go the extra mile like you did by making videos about it. That's the difference.

It's just a month and you had plenty of time to make things right but you didn't. In TF2 terms a month is a slap on the wrist. It doesn't stop you from playing pugs/mixes/whatever. Pred did way worse things and still plays pugchamp and has his circlejerk constantly reassure him his ban was unjust and that the admins are inconsistent. If he can survive such terrible injustice I'm certain you can too

https://clips.twitch.tv/LaconicEnjoyableCarrotVoHiYo
https://clips.twitch.tv/PreciousSlickSageGrammarKing

Take a break from playing like mentioned above. It's either too hard for you to see yourself improving or you're slowly burning yourself out.

If you can't help the itch to play (a good sign) do some invite/prem demo reviews of whatever roles you prefer playing. If your DM plateaus your gamesense might be the next thing to work on for now

https://clips.twitch.tv/SquareKathishPonyGOWSkull
https://clips.twitch.tv/MoldyBashfulPeppermintChocolateRain
https://clips.twitch.tv/SpookyStupidDoveRlyTho
https://clips.twitch.tv/SingleGiantPenguinDogFace
https://clips.twitch.tv/ObeseTangentialLaptopRlyTho

(sorry for spamming these, I'll stop. for now.)

https://clips.twitch.tv/CaringUnusualNostrilPrimeMe
https://clips.twitch.tv/DeafWiseOwlCopyThis

don't use the options menu when you change crosshairs. Use "cl_crosshair_file crosshair6" instead in console.

If you do use the options menu though:
You'll see the preview image in Options is increasing and decreasing in gap size. This actually affects the gap size when you click apply. Look at the image, click apply when the image has a small gap size

you're better off asking hamaham himself.
I think he edited this HUD himself (not 100% sure, but I vaguely recall seeing him post about it long ago)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tBwI9v9qoBs

https://clips.twitch.tv/BetterPleasantOxCeilingCat

A (sort of) recent example:

At the start of Overwatch the newly formed teams would scrim for hours. Theorycrafting, working on synergy, working on comms, learning the DM, learning the cooldowns.
Their goal: Defeat a mix of OW dev team players that volunteered to scrim a couple teams every day

It still took multiple days before these teams with top TF2/cs:go/quake players would start winning maps against them.
If there are any videos of these scrims out there it'd be actual bronze gameplay

Sounds alright. The crates were the main issue of rc3 for sure. The dropdown in hindsight wasn't that bad because it allowed for easier rotations and plays from a hard-to-push lobby.

But still, Hyce is actively working on Logjam. He's going to use the feedback a lot more.
Phi is doing her own thing now and from what I understand she just wants to finish Cardinal and then be done with comp maps. Not gonna put words in her mouth though, maybe she'd still take individual feedback on her older maps, but reckoner will once again go to instant bans on pugchamp. I feel puggers' efforts to provide feedback for Logjam would be more efficient right now

Jerg
Last online 1688 days ago. Cool guy. He hadn't been dealt the best of cards in life but was making the best of it. Last I heard he was enjoying life with his family and gf and had bought a console to play games with his sister's kids

The Fat Fucks (SuperSaiyanSpud, Table_Cloth, Thunderchunkie, Edlolington, Varsaa, Snizdo, Fingerprince and many more)
My first real circlejerk that split into 2 groups over time, 1 of them moving on from TF2 and over time we also lost individuals to real life. Bunch of cool people. I still talk to them at times, but playing games with them is limited because I play on a very old laptop.
Twiikuu and I organised newbie mixes with this group in truktruk's old sub mumble and newer sub discord. Most have moved on since, but one notable regular was Playmo who is now playing invite. go playmo!

Balaklava$, Method Man, Pit-o-matic, Jinn and many more
Turbine EU 24/7 regulars I enjoyed playing with who quit over the years.
Special shoutout to Roger Moore

Coming out to relatives/friends when you think/know they'll react negatively can be hard and the decision is up to you. There are no real rights or wrongs in such a scenario.

Just never let the decision to not come out affect who you are and who you love. Your happiness will always be more important than that of those around you.
If they do not accept you they're not worth your time. Surround yourself with people who accept you, disregard toxic elements in your life