17
back to back in the same month had my best friend from working at summer camp unexpectedly die at 21 to a rare heart condition, my aunt that I share a birthday with passed to cancer after years of battling it and being closer to her than anyone else in my extended family, and was assaulted by my dad. combine with being the age I started abusing alcohol and cannabis to avoid dealing with my depression and me almost dropping out of high school and you get 11/10 worst year for me by far.
18 was marginally better and 19 was a huge improvement outside of the dashner situation (shoutouts to RGB gang, ETF and iSeries, and the BTS cancellation meetup community members), my birthday is tomorrow so will see what 20 has to bring.