I’m finally pursuing a career that I care about and classes/training have been actually going really well. I’m starting to get cool with my classmates to the point where we have plans to go out and do cool shit together, which is even more than I was hoping for out of the program (this cute classmate invited me to a halloween party at a venue we both like, and I’m gonna help one with his BMW soon too which is SO exciting bcus it’s a big job and I’ll learn so much about german cars!!). I also reconnected with some old friends and have been leaving the house every weekend for more than getting fast food or nicotine. Also just feeling much more comfortable in my skin, meeting and actually connecting with strangers, dressing in a way I would’ve been too insecure to even 8 months ago, not doing anything truly nefarious.
Things have been Good lately : ) now I just need to carry this momentum thru seasonal depression
AND MY ADVICE TO ANYONE IN THE HOLE: FIND SOMETHING THAT TICKLES YOU EVEN SLIGHTLY AND RUN WITH IT AS FAST AS YOU CAN! THE SOONER YOU START DOING THE BETTER YOU’LL FEEL. STOP CARING WHAT PEOPLE MIGHT THINK WHEN MEETING/RECONNECTING WITH THEM, JUST BE AS TRUE TO URSELF AS U POSSIBLY CAN BE AND THE PEOPLE YOU NEED IN YOUR LIFE WILL ADORE THAT ABOUT YOU. AND FINALLY, love yourself (it’s so corny but it’s true, you are your only true ride or die so u gotta appreciate who you are) and maybe get a gym membership bcus pumping iron is so cathartic