So during the last month and a half I have been going through some crazy stuff. I mentioned before in a thread that I was dealing with issues like my battle with dextromethorphan, an over the counter drug found in HBR branded cough medicines, as well as other drugs. I was preparing to be homeless and had a nothing to loose "fuck it all" mentality.

I wasn't happy to find out my "plans" where being interrupted by my family forcing me into rehab. I had to get involved in AA and NA meetings. I fucking hated everything and everyone except for like one guy that was there because of drinking and driving. He wasn't very open about it, nor did he like explaining how he was under age and on xanax.

The only thing I had was a art book and some of my pens. I had nothing else to do (I did actually, but I didn't want to participate in the bullshit activities I hated at the time) so I drew everyday until the last week. Over time I felt better. I looked better as well. That dxm shit will make you look fatigued beyond words. I was eventually able to sleep and get up at a normal hour.

Soon I was able to talk and discuss things with my therapist, and he helped me sort some shit out in my head. I didn't realize what I had in my book, nor did I have any plans on sharing it. I realized I was just killing myself with the stuff and wasting every bit of talent I had. I criticize my work a lot, I'm never 100% happy with anything. I would beat myself up about it all the time, and eventually I would just do that with everything.

So yea, I'm going to some outpatient program now (I got out of rehab this morning) and a new NA meeting. I still got some work to do in regards to myself, but one of the key things is telling folks about what you are going through.

Here is the pages from my book. I cleaned them up a bit, for the sake of presentation. I was gunna post this in the art thread, but I really didn't want to take this discussion and post this much art and blow up the thread.

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you sound like a teacher getting late homework

http://img4.wikia.nocookie.net/__cb20110722022444/glee/images/f/f1/Spongebob-gif-rock.gif

you gotta do both, thats why i like riding fishtail boards. i dont do a shit ton of tricks its more about riding fast and being able to ollie high enough to land shit. used to ride bowls in Charlotte, Lansing and in Grand Rapids Michigan.

im riding this 1989 Small Room deck, that is RARE AS FUCK, michigan company that was underground. probably one of my favorite boards by far. got an old powell nosebone on it as well.

http://www.artofskateboarding.com/pg/aos_pg_results.asp?%26cat_search=N&pagesize=25&page=60

prooof:

http://s21.postimg.org/58qrn9odx/IMG_1557.jpg

also got some oldschool vans i will never stop wearing

the good, the bad and the laggy

can I submit a graphic of seagul attacking Coleman

Valve will never do anything with 6s, we are practicly on par with SSB Melee. We are trying to promote a competitive format that wasn't part of the games original formula. We are underground, and we just need to focus on ourselves if we want to keep this sport alive, no one is going to give us what we want unless we step forward and take it for ourselves.

bazooka

If you went swimming while tripping on shrooms you got a deathwish or you are full of shit

added to chat about some stuff for cevo open

that's the way she goes

Belching and choking on beverages mid stream has never been this gnarly

if knox had got that 5th cap ... I was fucking screaming

jeeperssss
creeepeers

where'd ya get those peeeeepers?
Where'd ya get those eyes?

pissed jeans and pile are as heavy as i get,
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bdgxsyWfAT4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jfURHkaAL9E