ZestyYeah, I'm guessing if its a well regarded community member during that era of tf2 it's likely I would have been. Idk what to say about that, it's fucked to think that someone you were friends with was an awful person the whole time.
in retrospect im just very sad and disappointed by the fact that players who are idolised to this day by much of the community knew about and were complicit in the abuse and enabled her behaviour. telling a 16 year old kid that trying to commit suicide over being manipulated and betrayed by a much older adult is somehow an unnatural and unacceptable response is beyond vile. i dealt with that whole thing and it took a fair bit of time to put it behind me but to this day it just kinda rubs me the wrong way to know that if i were to tell the whole story i would be doubted at best and completely disregarded at worst because of how well respected those players are even now