I miss it so much bros

This is really the root of the problem. As a start can we stop just combing through logs looking for infractions? I can't think of a circumstance where a ban should come from anything but a report. If the admins can't even tell a map review from a scrim they're clearly going to be missing context on everything else as well. The rules are built the way they are to allow that that communication and somehow that whole step keeps getting skipped.

I don't want them to police skin color, but I certainly want there to be some more context to hate speech bans. It falls under like profanity in this case and I highly doubt anyone wants the league stopping you from cursing. Ideally these bans wouldn't happen from admins just combing logs. The process should always start with a report and include a follow up with other players in the server to get context. Maybe someone in there would go "hey he's allowed to say that" and we wouldn't have this weird run around. Hate speech requires context to be hate speech and getting that context is definitely complicated. I'm definitely not asking for them to like, archive the races of players in their league.

RGL reverses the ban because it was in a map review, still asserts its hate speech for a black man to say the nword. Good league.

This is not the first time they've banned a black dude for saying the nword lmao

i52 LB knockouts map 3 iM vs Mix^ just sticks in my head as the most fun I've had watching a game. Just so good.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KpDRCs78gqE

Alright this meme needs to fucking stop.
Dont like me all you want but don't fucking lie about me you vile cunts.
You want to know why i like lolis and cute things in my weebshit? It's because i fucking self insert as the loli because I WANT TO BE CUTE. Sadly im a fucking 29 year old harry semi obese man who plays TF2 to much. Am i not allowed to enjoy my fantasies of actually being fucking likeable?
Shit talk me for being a bad player all you fucking want.
Dislike the way i call as much as you want. Nobody is forcing you to play on a team with me.
But don't fucking lie about me. I got enough shit to deal with without this on top of it.
FML

https://www.teamfortress.tv/24391/attention-twitch-streamers/?page=4#91

For me a combination of therapy and exposure has helped a lot. I understand that therapy isn't accessible for everyone so I'm just gonna point out that the things that actually made a difference in therapy were pretty much exactly what zheep posted. I have no doubt that even without the structure of therapy those things can help. Learning how to properly take deep breathes is invaluable even if it sounds corny.

When I was younger my anxiety was crippling. I couldn't go more than a day without having an anxiety attack at school, my cycling thoughts shaped my interactions with everyone around me and I couldn't even bring myself to answer the phone. I even dropped out of school as a direct result. I know my experience may not be super relevant but I think its important to hear that things can get better. I spent a lot of time practicing my breathing so that it became automatic when the anxiety came on and my brain started to get hazy, I tried to open up more about how I was feeling to those around me and practiced the shit out of mindfulness. Today I have a job I'm really happy with where amazingly I answer the phone all day, I feel like I'm able to talk and connect with people without letting my insecurities shape how I'm acting and I'm overall a bit happier. Not perfect, not cured, but happier.

All of that work took years, it was slow going and a lot of the time it was one step forward, two steps back. Just try and remember that working on your mental health is like flexing a muscle. Building habits is really really hard at first and that's okay. Make the progress you can when you can and when you aren't in a spot to challenge yourself that is totally okay. It gets easier over time, albeit slowly.

Sorry for the rant. I really wish you the best and I really am confident things can get better for you.

I keep renaming things late at night and forgetting until someone points out the cringe

Can you not like, submit that to the ETF2L and pugchamp teams? Thread seems like a weird way of putting this out.

how do I make uwui stop saying I "own-zoned" people

i like to jump around with my friends!!!!!!

still no mousecam lol

Flick to medic, in stv just looks like he lags.