I have an online friend who I've known for 4 1/2 years now. Two nights ago she messaged me about having a hard time, and that she was having really strong suicidal thoughts. She went offline mid conversation, and hasn’t answered any texts or phone calls for the past two days. I don’t want to assume shit, but I’m honestly scared. She’s attempted suicide two times before, and almost died the last time she did.
She had been going to therapy, and was on anti-depressants, but she was horrible with both. She kept things from her therapist, and avoided taking her anti-depressants. She would always talk to me on mumble or steam about her issues, and I’d listen. But at the end of the day there is nothing I can do other than persuade her to take her anti-depressants, and try to get her to talk to her therapist about the shit she brings to me.
Maybe this isn’t the place, maybe this is for past stories, but I’ve been worried sick for the past two days, and I need to vent. It doesn’t feel good not knowing what happened to a close friend of yours. She’s on the other side of the country in Florida, so there’s nothing I can do but hope she replies to texts. Honestly feeling like a bystander who can’t do anything while your friend breaks down is the worst goddamn feeling.
Sorry if no one wants to hear about this. I just feel like shit, and need to vent before I lose my mind.