Tf2, what is it all about? Why do we play it? What are we trying to achieve?
As I've said before, I'm no different than any other Team Fortress 2 enthusiast. My mornings are busy with the voice of b4nny in the background and the game projected on my screen.
Today, however, my morning routine was distributed. I looked up at my framed photograph of Matthew "Clockwork" Dias which hung beside my oil painting of MGE Mike. I began to wonder why I am doing all this. I immediately turned off b4nny's harmonious voice and exited out of my jump server. I was in great despair. I began to wonder: have I been wasting my time?
Tf2 had not brought any financial gains or the respect of women. Team Fortress 2 had not brought me fame or power. Yet, I was willing to invest thousands of hours in it. I believed the game would have improved me as a man and give me life satisfaction.
However, I feel no different than when I first started. I don't feel improved in any way. Why would I continue to play this game of complexities when the reality of life is chaotic enough?