toothI met this guy at LAN and he was a good guy. He even let lent Novice his 120hz monitor for the LAN so Novice wouldn't have to play demo at 60hz(comatose/screwball played medic). I don't know how this works with depression but I sincerely hope you can be yourself sometime without the help of medication. Best of luck!
With depression, "Yourself" is essentially you when you're super apathetic and devoid of any effort. Unfortunately those with clinical depression will need to take medication for the rest of their lives if they want to be able to function normally.
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