Hello there. The following is a huge text that I wrote a day after I came back from LAN. Just some things I had on my mind, didnt touch it for a week and only edited some things in. I did not really want to publish it but people kept asking for it so here I go. If you are not interested in this, feel free to ignore it.
Its a personal ramble... nothing official.
Also it doesnt fit into one post so i have to divide it into two... enjoy!
DeutschLAN 2015: A personal and inofficial LANalysis by Stinson_Out
Now that DeutschLAN 2015 is over, there are a lot of thoughts on my mind that I cannot get rid off, so I have to write them down. I am sharing this with the community, not because I think that my opinion really matters or that anyone cares about everything that will be in here. But some infos will definetly be of interest and answer a lot of questions people inevitably will have. So if you can spare a couple of minutes, you should read this. I will try to make it interesting enough for you to read all the way through. But be warned: this is gonna be a long one and as I am writing this, I am not sure how long it will be or where it will take me.
I am still processing last weekend (LAN-weekend) and all the impressions and experiences are still somewhat flooding my brain. I will try to put them in an order, but cannot promise I will succeed.
First of all, when I got home on Sunday evening, I felt incredibly exhausted. A lot of tension that had built up to the LAN left my body and the adrenaline of the weekend had decayed. It was not very late in the evening (maybe 9 pm), but after I had taken all my stuff out of my car and up to my apartment, I instantly threw myself onto my bed without unpacking or setting up my PC. However, it did not take long for me to realize that there was no way I would be able to sleep any time soon.
I was caught between the exhaust and the bubble of happiness I had been in all weekend; between sadness because this weekend went over so fast and relief that it is over and I could rest; between this very relief and the prospect of the work still has to be done.
About medals and perks. I have mentioned it already in a small post. Technically there is nothing standing in the way of distributing both, but it has to be done very methodically so nothing will be forgotten and nobody overlooked. In order to be able to do this, I – and my staffmates – need to have a fresh mind and body, which I personally do not have at the moment. On my end, a lot of things have to be sorted out, online as well as IRL. It may take some time, but I am better safe than sorry. Rest assured, though: we are not forgetting anything.
You may ask: “Why is he talking about not having enough time and yet molesting us with this diary-entry?” And you would be right. But I have to write this, for me more than for anyone actually ending up reading this.
Reflecting DeutschLAN. Overall I think the LAN can be called a success. I did not meet anyone on site that did not have a crazy good time. This is – by far – the most important fact. Only if the participants and players of a LAN enjoyed the weekend, LANs can be called successful and have a chance of continuation. I am almost certain all players would come again next year, if their schedules and wallets will allow it.
Of course there were and still are hiccups. For the first round on Saturday unfortunately our servers crashed one after another because they did not work with the TFTrue-fix that had been released after Thursday´s update. The internet connection on site was not the best or ideal for a LAN. We had terrible pings towards any outside servers, streams and videos started to lag very fast when people watched them at the same time. Teams had to set up with 9 people on just one room, having to use every inch of space.
Was it a perfect LAN? God, no. But the tournament itself was really smooth, the schedule we had created proved to be challenging but worked out extremely well. Teams would have enough time to visit each other´s houses in between matches to call GGs and share a beer and snacks – and they did. It was really cool to see people, who are basically strangers to each other, walk into another team´s house and have a chat with them about the game they just played, regardless of their in-game skill level or preference of gamemode. I specifically remember a lot of people raised (very reasonable) concerns about the concept of a LAN with team houses when the idea of this LAN first came up on the ETF2L-forums – long before it would eventually become reality: Teams would be “isolated” and “separated” from each other. This was not the case at all. Every night after games there was an after-hour-party kind of mentality and large groups build up in the houses that simply enjoyed hanging out and having a good time. This is what the LAN also was intended to be: a community type of event – competitive but chilled. From that point of view DeutschLAN was honestly probably the best we could have hoped for.
My personal involvement in DeutschLAN. When I read Foungi´s idea on the Forums at the end of last year, I was immediately intrigued by the thought of helping and realizing his vision.
This may sound cheesy, but ever since I started playing competitive TF2, I was having a ton of fun organizing. Before I even played my first official, I made my own Highlander team and started looking for players. As a teamleader you quickly get to know people, since you have to schedule scrims and all that sort of stuff. You also get in contact with admins, because you don’t know how to use this ETF2L.org website properly. I admired the admins for their voluntary work. I applied to ETF2L adminship, because I wanted to contribute, to create something that helps the community (grow). It very quickly became apparent I would not be able to do that as a player, due to the severe lack of talent.
I saw an opportunity and contacted Foungi. In the beginning the meetings were really messy and we all had different ideas and vague visions of how to organize a LAN. Simply put, we had no clue what to do. Foungi had contacted MTA and they showed interest of hosting this LAN, although they had never done anything else than Counter Strike. Even when I published the original post of the Main Thread on ETF2L we basically did not know at all if this was doable, but we very slowly made our way towards specifics. In April we decided it was time to open the signups. That’s where things actually got really busy, where for the first time, people believed this could be a thing.
Kkaltuu set up the fundraiser on Indiegogo, we worked out the perksystem together and started the fundraiser. That’s where I think I began to take over a lot of the work; it is hard to tell when exactly in retrospective. From that point on I spent way more time on DeutschLAN than I both had originally intended and I had at my disposal. It was a lot of fun for the most part. There were definitely times where I was close to quitting, especially after our last showmatches got sabotaged. Despite the hype this idea and the announcement of the LAN (as well as the fundraiser actually) had gotten, fewer teams than anticipated signed up. In addition we lost our main sponsor due to an unfortunate chain of events. All that brought me close to throwing.
Instead I put more and more effort into it. I commited – as Foungi would later phrase it adequately, though on a completely unrelated note – “academic suicide”. I didn’t mind and realize it that much at the time, Kkaltuu Foungi and Hartz as my staffmembers helped me not to lose my mind and we all had this “dream” of DeutschLAN.
In a way I did fulfill a little dream. We have done something unique, possibly the first Teamfortress 2 LAN of its kind. I am thankful I had the opportunity to be part of this.