Hello everyone.
I did not want to have to make any kind of public statement regarding gwendolyn's perma ban, but it seems as though it is necessary and perhaps inevitable that this would leak anyway.
I have decided to simply get it over with, so that hopefully we as a community can move on, a weight can be lifted from my shoulders, and my healing process can continue smoothly.
Also, for the record, the admins did not give me any kind of warning that this would actually be happening before it did; so please forgive me for the fact that no information has been given in the last few days.
I will attempt to keep this brief as I am not comfortable sharing many unnecessary details. She and I were in a relationship from December of 2022 thru May of 2023.
During her second visit to my home, at the start of May, she raped me. I will provide a cropped screenshot of her admitting guilt in DMs when I was breaking up with her, after she had left my place.
I gave RGL a screen recording of the full conversation surrounding this screenshot in my report. It was enough evidence for them to permanently ban her; so please believe that this is not taken out of context, and that I'm telling the truth.
https://i.imgur.com/Cq0Vymk.png
As for why it took so long for me to submit a report, following our breakup, I was in a transitional period of my life as I got my driver's license, started to work, and moved into a new place.
I was very busy and distracted; it took a while to fully set in, for me to realize the full extent of how badly she had hurt me, and just how much it was & would continue to be negatively affecting my mental health.
I originally did not want to make this big of a deal out of it. That quickly changed, as once things in my personal life had settled down, I was triggered every day by seeing her play on one of the top invite teams this season, by hearing her voice in people's streams/videos, by knowing she was mentoring new players, etc.
I eventually gathered the strength to report her and try to make her face consequences for what she had done to me. She is now facing them.
Genuinely, I do not want anyone's attention or pity by posting this. I just want you all to know; to understand why this has happened, as I know it is important to many of you.
I just want to be able to continue to play this game and be a part of this community as competitive TF2 has been a part of my life for almost a decade at this point, and I don't want to have to abandon something that I've enjoyed for so long and has given me some of my best friends.
Additionally, I have recently become aware of the existence of allegations against her of other inappropriate behavior she has been engaged in towards other people following our breakup. However, I do not have any concrete proof of anything besides what I have personally experienced, and I do not want to speak for others, so take that how you will.
I do not want to discuss this anymore publicly as this has already been hard enough for me. Please do not make me have to.