Yesterday was the day I realized that aiming is not enough for you to win. No matter what game you play. Sometimes it´s not only your mouse control that is the issue, but your brain as well. If you only care about aiming, then how can you expect to win?
I have never been interested in gaming really. The more I had to use my brain the more I wanted to uninstall the game. Aiming was just fun to me so that kept me going.
This is why I ball chase in rocket league, and ignore my team. This is why I only play FPS games. This is why I always play without my team in counter strike. This is why I never use utilities in counter strike either. This is why I only play Hanzo in overwatch. I literally just never cared about using my brain in video games. In hearthstone I always just hoped my deck would do the work for me. I never cared to make smart decisions, I would just gamble and hope that my deck would work. The same goes for aiming. I always just hoped that my aim was enough for me to win, but that simply is just not the case. My aim is so good right now, but I literally don´t think. I am not present. I go for frags, do risky moves, I don´t play with my team, I don´t communicate, and it just keeps going. I realized that I will actually have to focus on the game itself if I want to win, and that is just a painful idea to me, and that is why I will not improve in gaming.
Now that I think about it. None of the top players are aiming geeks either. Most of these top players never cared or focused on aiming, and that is why they have high elo, because they focus on the game itself. They just happened to be good at aiming as well.
EDIT:
Yesterday I lost against a 1950 elo scout, but I had absolutely zero focus. My brain was gone, I even tried to force myself to focus mid game, but I was completely unable to, so I lost 20-16 to him, and I was struggling EXTREMELY hard against him, I was literally sweating, and I also had convinced myself that this guy was nearly impossible to defeat. However, the next day, which is today, I had much more focus, I was crystal clear, I had 100% attention, all of my 5 years of MGE experience was present, and I won against him twice 20-15, on my first try as well. I was literally not sweating AT ALL, it was easy, I even felt like I could predict anything he was doing, everything was just easy, I had energy in my brain, I wasn´t disturbed like yesterday, no distractions at all. I even knew beforehand that is was a bad idea to play yesterday, because I had zero energy or confidence, I knew I was going to lose because of my low energy and lack of focus and that is how much your focus matters when it comes to aiming. There are just some days where you are unable to play, or focus, and that is when you probably shouldnt be playing. If you don´t feel like you can focus, then don´t expect to perform well.