I feel like I'm more of a joke than an actual person in the tf2 community. Like a lot of people I had almost little to no interaction with somehow just see me as either a bad player because I emo'd out on Shylo's team, or they see me as walking toxicity that only says negative things about people. I do realize that a lot of the things I said in the past was really negative and inappropriate, especially to a lot of the smaller communities/minorities in the tf2 community, but I don't think anyone would take me seriously ever. I do understand my faults as a person and a player, but it's like everyone exaggerates them whenever I am the topic of a conversation. Especially regarding my bans of Faceit, I'm also know seen as an even worse figure, because everyone thinks I cheated. I really don't think there is a way to prove myself worthy anymore, so I just succumb to what anyone says. Although I am now constantly trying to improve both dm and gamesense wise, I really do not think it would matter just because of the reputation I managed to gain. It really does it frustrating just being an outcast of the tf2 community, but then again who else is to blame but me.