I appreciate you taking responsibility and not trying to make excuses for what happened. Owning your actions and accepting the consequences is a good first step.
Everyone makes mistakes, especially when it comes to questionable phonk track choices. But what matters is whether they learn from them. Taking a break and reflecting on things sounds like a positive decision. Thomas Pearl would be proud. I can't speak for everyone or whether you'll be welcomed back in the future, but if you genuinely follow through on what you've said and show that you've changed through your actions, people are often more willing to give someone another chance over time.
I hope you take care of yourself and use this as an opportunity to grow. I wish you the best.