NURBEYI'm well aware that people will see my alias and respond with "tl;dr", "kys", -frag and move on, etc. I have only touched this website a handful of times and that was only to see what time some matches would be happening. I have been brutally reminded many times that my side of things is not cared for, and I have just accepted the fact that this is how a community I grew up with will remember me. I stopped putting my full emotions into this long ago, but recently people have decided to attack my friends instead with blatant lies or straight up harassment. If you guys truly want to claim yourselves as the good guys, I fail to see how attack completely innocent people proves you are doing anything in good nature.
I have an alt I use to pub on tf2. I do this purely so people don't harass people for queueing with me, I do not care for being bothered myself. Sometimes I am too lazy to switch accounts, and will pug on it. The problem with the initial post here is that you are acting as if I am intentionally hiding who I am. I am a proud top level medic Main. My legacy may be disgraced, but my pride and promises would not allow me to lie about who I am. I am still proud of what I have accomplished. The pugs I play in are purely with friends who INVITED me. They are happy to play with me. We do many things together besides pug. You are a good person fyg, and it is sincerely disappointing you put no research before doubling down on insulting multiple people. But I'm sure you do not care.
As for the latter of what you said, I requested to have my ban reasoning changed (although it was apparently changed before I requested). It used to be labeled as much worse. I want you to keep in mind, you want me to be labeled as actual sex offenders. People who are on registries. People who have physically raped and assaulted innocent people, including children. I will not lie and say I am an innocent person. I made terrible mistakes due to allowing myself to become an extreme degenerate online. I can go on for hours of all the mental help I seeked after my ban. I know I am not a monster; but I was far from the person I wanted to be. I would love nothing more than to tell tf2 how much I love them, and how much I owe them. These are cards I'm not allowed to play, and I accepted this. After all my self hatred, regrets, and loathing of my lack of strength of when I needed it most, it is still beyond sad you'd call my mistakes on equal ground as actual, dangerous, predators.
This is no excuse; but remember all of my actions were online. This is still terrible and I never use this as a point to defend myself, but I am saying this to help you realize how extremely you are being. Della has admitted to being pushed to lie by Tambo, and the 'DMs' leaked with the 15 year old were from a private discord where nudes were shared with other Trans people. That discord I was asked to provide ID, and like the moron I am, I assumed everyone did the same. That was one of the worst assumptions of my life (the minor did not share any nudes, in case anyone is concerned). I can go on again for hours for how improper everything was mishandled. I don't think I even need to mention how bad RGL is when it comes to handling some bansz they drop the bomb near routinely (though they still have my support and I try to get people to play as often as I can).
I have so much more I could say, but I am also certain it doesn't matter at the end of the day. I hate defending myself. I hate trying to come off as perfectly innocent even though I know I am not. I am not a pedophile. I am someone who made some really stupid mistakes due to a plethora of issues. Issues I have been fighting every day so I can proudly be the best version of me, like I should've been for you guys from the get go. One day I will confidently come forward with everything involving my ban, and people will want to hear me out. They mostnlikely won't, but by then I can say I did everything I could.
Normally I wouldn't make a post like this, but due to being spammed late a ynight and maybe a mix of being really sleepy I'm stupid enough to make a post. I'm fine with being harassed, but my friends absolutely do not deserve it. They are amazing people who have the potential to provide people with amazing memories. I don't plan on opening this thread up again. If you have any questions, anyone is allowed to add me on Steam which is linked to this profile (assuming this is the right one, lol).
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