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#4 My friend is suicidal and i feel powerless. in Off Topic
Comangliasnip

i told him some similar stuff already, im just at a point where there isnt a whole lot left for me to do. i guess ill just keep telling him.

12:41 PM - BURG BLOOM: real talk i was worried that i would wake up and you would be dead
12:42 PM - [omitted]: Fuk u bish
12:42 PM - [omitted]: Im just pixels on the internet
12:42 PM - BURG BLOOM: yeah
12:42 PM - BURG BLOOM: but i like those pixels
12:43 PM - [omitted]: The new meds im on have a 33% chance to cause seizures ;)
12:44 PM - BURG BLOOM: heres hoping they dont then
12:45 PM - [omitted]: USA USA USA
12:46 PM - BURG BLOOM: how much did you take last night
12:46 PM - [omitted]: All of em
12:46 PM - BURG BLOOM: :(

posted about 9 years ago
#1 My friend is suicidal and i feel powerless. in Off Topic

I know that tftv isnt the best place for this, but i would prefer somewhere thats a little more personal, and has a lot of my peers for this discussion. I hope I dont catch any flak for this, but im really worried about my friend matt. hes sort of a close internet friend, in that he hangs out with a lot of my real life friends on line. he and i get along pretty well. we play a lot of csgo together and he snipes on my highlander team. but he has a bit of a substance abuse problem, specifically with prescription drugs. it was never a big problem, maybe wed get occasionally pissed at him because he took sleeping pills before a match, or something like that. its important to note that he has chronic depression, but hes always a fun guy in teamspeak. cracks jokes and such, and we all have fun.
But last night he had a schizophrenia level breakdown. started seeing shit, people, and it was pretty awful to have to listen to, and probably pretty rough for him. he said he was completely sober, which worries me. he claims to not be suicidal, but when i get messages like
4:13 AM - [omitted]: 150mg of xanex 300mg if prozac 300mg of ambien 1.5 grams of vyvanse down le shoot
4:13 AM - [omitted]: See you in hell
it really starts to worry me. and then earlier today, when i found out he was alright, he starts going on drugs.com to see which ones he shouldnt take together, specifially so he can. And the entire time i know i cant do anything. ive been telling him that he shouldnt do this stuff, and that i dont want him to die, but he seems like hes having fun and thats what worries me the most. i dont know what i expect to get out of this thread, because it doesnt seem like he can be stopped, but i just wanted to get this off my chest. maybe some suggestions would be nice.
sorry for ranting

posted about 9 years ago
#12 ragetf_ lft pocket in Recruitment (looking for team)

ill admit that i havent played with rage a ton, but ive seen enough to know hes a capable mid-open pocket. on top of that hes a really cool guy and a great friend.

posted about 9 years ago
#19 You laugh you lose in The Dumpster

http://i.imgur.com/uK1b5yg.png

posted about 9 years ago
#3 jiggle bones in Q/A Help

fps_max 99
ez

posted about 9 years ago
#7 SteveC in TF2 General Discussion

is there anywhere to see results? i understand if there arent vods, but maybe a challonge link or something?

posted about 9 years ago
#158 Personality Types in Off Topic

ESTP - "The Doer"
Extravert(56%)
Sensing(38%)
Thinking(12%)
Perceiving(22%)

posted about 9 years ago
#12 Been Wondering Where the TF2 Community Lives in Off Topic

magnolia, texas

posted about 9 years ago
#52 Bath or Shower? in Off Topic

i take a shower but my bath drain is really shitty so the tub ends up being half full by the end of my shower anyway.

posted about 9 years ago
#18 what is your favorite nostalgic game in Off Topic

http://i.imgur.com/3gCjnhR.png

posted about 9 years ago
#26 Favorite movies and shows to watch with friends? in Off Topic

The Eric Andre Show is the fucking best. Also,

Draco_MeteorKatanagatari is godtier

As for movies,
In Bruges
Seven Psychopaths

posted about 9 years ago
#74 Ipkane mention's TF2's existence in TF2 General Discussion
kounterpartstru

not tru

Im sorry i get defensive no lynch pls

just stop. for the love of god. every time i see a new post by you in that esea thread i get angry.

posted about 9 years ago
#72 Ipkane mention's TF2's existence in TF2 General Discussion
kounterpartsI really didnt want to post in esea thread. But there was so much pretentious autism i couldnt help myself.

http://i.imgur.com/XQZTmsg.png

kounter is the PR rep our community needs

posted about 9 years ago
#5 Issue with demos viewmodel in Q/A Help

do the two viewmodels overlap? if not, maybe you could record it twice, one with the viewmodel and one without, and just like make the one with viewmodels just the right side and then put it over the one without? i dont know if thats a thing you can do, but its something.

posted about 9 years ago
#3 ESEA Intermediate Pizzagon eSports vs. Anteaters Chuckin Chairs in Events
(he's so dreamy)
posted about 9 years ago
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