Last season I had a problem with listening to criticism from players more experienced than me. When air or testify told me to do something or questioned my play I took it as a personal attack. It's a problem I didn't know existed before then and I'm really trying to work on it.
This season was not the same case. It was also the most frustrating team I've ever played with. I developed a habit of getting caught out on a lot of ubers because I still expected the very aggressive pushing style that I had with air and I freely admit that I died way too much the first week matches. However, instead of talking to me about this problem out in the open the rest of the team immediately resorted to backtalk and I had to find out from a friend that everyone was angry. This was what bothered me the most. Despite a commitment to learn as a team there seemed to be a general apathy where people just didn't give a fuck after we lost the first match and from my perspective would rather just blame me instead of evaluating themselves. I actively tried to talk to people like bsc and vortex about what I could do better and wasn't able to get a conversation going. But not once did anyone else ask for help with a problem they were having or talk as a team about issues. Obviously if I was what was holding the team back I apologize.
I was working on the positioning issue during metalworks week and felt like I had a better handle on it by the second match where I matched the other med's ubers despite losing 5-1 (only 5 vaccinators). I don't feel like I was given the opportunity to show the progress I made but I understand the decision of the team.
Tetro's tips is a reference for starting medics and my steel-iron mentees who I feel I can reasonably help as well as a place for me to post demo reviews and other methods for me to improve. My internet is also stable now since last night.
It's frustrating because I'd like to think that I'm committed to changing but apparently that hasn't been the case and I apologize.
Last season I had a problem with listening to criticism from players more experienced than me. When air or testify told me to do something or questioned my play I took it as a personal attack. It's a problem I didn't know existed before then and I'm really trying to work on it.
This season was not the same case. It was also the most frustrating team I've ever played with. I developed a habit of getting caught out on a lot of ubers because I still expected the very aggressive pushing style that I had with air and I freely admit that I died way too much the first week matches. However, instead of talking to me about this problem out in the open the rest of the team immediately resorted to backtalk and I had to find out from a friend that everyone was angry. This was what bothered me the most. Despite a commitment to learn as a team there seemed to be a general apathy where people just didn't give a fuck after we lost the first match and from my perspective would rather just blame me instead of evaluating themselves. I actively tried to talk to people like bsc and vortex about what I could do better and wasn't able to get a conversation going. But not once did anyone else ask for help with a problem they were having or talk as a team about issues. Obviously if I was what was holding the team back I apologize.
I was working on the positioning issue during metalworks week and felt like I had a better handle on it by the second match where I matched the other med's ubers despite losing 5-1 (only 5 vaccinators). I don't feel like I was given the opportunity to show the progress I made but I understand the decision of the team.
Tetro's tips is a reference for starting medics and my steel-iron mentees who I feel I can reasonably help as well as a place for me to post demo reviews and other methods for me to improve. My internet is also stable now since last night.
It's frustrating because I'd like to think that I'm committed to changing but apparently that hasn't been the case and I apologize.
even then u have the attitude of someone who thinks they are entitled
even then u have the attitude of someone who thinks they are entitled
I don't really know the team situation for tetro and vortex/ tetro and owl so I have no comments on that, I will say however that I really enjoy playing with tetro when we do play together in Pugs or just talking on Steam.
He is a fun guy, has league experience, and is really dedicated to improving and those traits on a class which is the linchpin of a team is a must have for any team hoping to be a strong contender.
Though it sounds like he has certainly had growing pains as a player I'm sure he will continue to improve and be an excellent addition to any team in the future looking for a medic.
I don't really know the team situation for tetro and vortex/ tetro and owl so I have no comments on that, I will say however that I really enjoy playing with tetro when we do play together in Pugs or just talking on Steam.
He is a fun guy, has league experience, and is really dedicated to improving and those traits on a class which is the linchpin of a team is a must have for any team hoping to be a strong contender.
Though it sounds like he has certainly had growing pains as a player I'm sure he will continue to improve and be an excellent addition to any team in the future looking for a medic.
tetrominoLast season I had a problem with listening to criticism from players more experienced than me. When air or testify told me to do something or questioned my play I took it as a personal attack. It's a problem I didn't know existed before then and I'm really trying to work on it.
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It's frustrating because I'd like to think that I'm committed to changing but apparently that hasn't been the case and I apologize.
I apologize for doing this in a public thread tetro, but if removing us all from friends immediately is any indication of behavior changes in the way you receive criticism, then I'm not sure what to say.
I actively tried to talk to people like bsc and vortex about what I could do better and wasn't able to get a conversation going. But not once did anyone else ask for help with a problem they were having or talk as a team about issues. Obviously if I was what was holding the team back I apologize.
Most of the issues I saw aren't things that could get fixed in a steam chat, demo review, etc. They are more so technical and really just need to be worked out with practice and time. Your ability to predict damage, keep track of critical heals, and hold good positioning during engagements is lacking. You're generally slow to react and have pretty poor movement. These are not problems with your character, this doesn't mean you're not a good teammate, but ultimately you'll need to put a lot of time into pugging/scrimming/dming in an offseason to really work out your problems.
I'm not about to tell a teammate in the middle of a season that he needs to improve on things that he can't improve any faster. That would only make your confidence waver and you'd be miserable - trust me I've been there.
I'm not trying to be mean but I think what I have to say is ultimately helpful. My suggestion is to simplify your game. I understand you do a lot of demo reviews with Mike, but those can do as much harm as good considering you are (as with 99% of everyone else) not as good as Mike so I'm not sure why anyone would want to imitate him. I know its important to be constantly be thinking one step ahead of everyone as medic, but I would encourage you to focus on the simpler details and move from there.
[quote=tetromino]Last season I had a problem with listening to criticism from players more experienced than me. When air or testify told me to do something or questioned my play I took it as a personal attack. It's a problem I didn't know existed before then and I'm really trying to work on it.
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It's frustrating because I'd like to think that I'm committed to changing but apparently that hasn't been the case and I apologize.[/quote]
I apologize for doing this in a public thread tetro, but if removing us all from friends immediately is any indication of behavior changes in the way you receive criticism, then I'm not sure what to say.
[quote] I actively tried to talk to people like bsc and vortex about what I could do better and wasn't able to get a conversation going. But not once did anyone else ask for help with a problem they were having or talk as a team about issues. Obviously if I was what was holding the team back I apologize.[/quote]
Most of the issues I saw aren't things that could get fixed in a steam chat, demo review, etc. They are more so technical and really just need to be worked out with practice and time. Your ability to predict damage, keep track of critical heals, and hold good positioning during engagements is lacking. You're generally slow to react and have pretty poor movement. These are not problems with your character, this doesn't mean you're not a good teammate, but ultimately you'll need to put a lot of time into pugging/scrimming/dming in an offseason to really work out your problems.
I'm not about to tell a teammate in the middle of a season that he needs to improve on things that he can't improve any faster. That would only make your confidence waver and you'd be miserable - trust me I've been there.
I'm not trying to be mean but I think what I have to say is ultimately helpful. My suggestion is to simplify your game. I understand you do a lot of demo reviews with Mike, but those can do as much harm as good considering you are (as with 99% of everyone else) not as good as Mike so I'm not sure why anyone would want to imitate him. I know its important to be constantly be thinking one step ahead of everyone as medic, but I would encourage you to focus on the simpler details and move from there.
reselectI apologize for doing this in a public thread tetro, but if removing us all from friends immediately is any indication of behavior changes in the way you receive criticism, then I'm not sure what to say.
Yeah sorry man I usually only keep friends or teammates on the list otherwise I lose track of people. It's really nothing personal.
[quote=reselect]I apologize for doing this in a public thread tetro, but if removing us all from friends immediately is any indication of behavior changes in the way you receive criticism, then I'm not sure what to say.[/quote]
Yeah sorry man I usually only keep friends or teammates on the list otherwise I lose track of people. It's really nothing personal.