i've lived with depression since 6th grade, i got diagnosed by a doctor in 7th grade and since ive been drowned in pills,
recently a year ago i decided that i didn't like that my life depended on tiny little capsules so i slowly quit them.
coming from a hispanic family, they don't really understand depression, they just think its an excuse for me to be lazy, or not go to school, i've tried explaining depression to my mother, who i love very much by saying, imagine wearing a huge heavy iron medieval armor, feeling the weight all over your body crushing you, and try to do normal, everyday things, sure theres people that fake depression online and seek attention but most people that actually have medical diagnosed depression don't even talk about it, i remember last summer my depression got worse due to me wanting to stop pills so i would put like 110-120 hours in tf2 every 2 weeks trying to get my mind off it, but that wasn't very healthy so i started exercising and i got better (seriously exercising really helps with depression) also a balanced diet is good too.
now i put like 40-50 hours every 2 weeks in videogames, and i feel hella better. sorry for anybody going through depression and if you need help or feel like youre gonna do something you shouldnt heres the national suicide hotline:
1 (800) 273-8255, honestly it won't just get better all of the sudden, you need to do something about it.
good luck my dudes and dudettes and i hope you feel better soon.