Hellbent
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Signed Up October 2, 2012
Last Posted August 14, 2018 at 1:48 AM
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#23 pissy lft in Recruitment (looking for team)

VERY good mechanics

posted 1 day ago
#10 Kings Crew LF scouts/pocket Invite/high IM in Recruitment (looking for players)

kuestif and paul... soo good

real talk the best thing about this team is how seriously they take their sponsors;
playing with them feels like actually being in esports rather than just some small game, even if theyre not playing like top 4 in invite or something

fun team to play on too even though it can get a lil heated at times. just a by-product of wanting to do well

posted 3 days ago
#5 What should I watch on Netflix? in Music, Movies, TV
ScrewballBetter Call Saul is pretty great.

has a slow start but the shit that happens in season 3 is INSANE. Should def watch for that!

posted 4 days ago
#2 weirdest dreams in Off Topic

in one dream my dad fuckin animorphed into a snake and i didnt dream for like years after that

posted 4 days ago
#1 Hellbent/brae lft in Recruitment (looking for team)

probably comes as a big surprise to my past teammates that i want to play again.
long story short is that some important personal closure and the positive changes in response to the degu/pred situation make me feel like i can play tf2 without my mind being elsewhere for the first time in quite a long while.

i have absolutely no idea how good/bad i am now, but my highs are IM playoffs as demo and 5th place invite as roamer.

tldr; got some shit sorted out lets game demo/roamer

posted 5 days ago
#12 How do I ensnare a girl friendf? in The Dumpster

just be yourself
no not like that™

posted 6 days ago
#186 Ban Pred and Degu v2 in Off Topic

much love kaido

Jynxiiim not really apposed to the punishments for toxicity, but the part thats annoying is that there are so many people using this situation as a way to wipe their own slate clean and acting as if they have been an advocate of tf2 becoming a safe space for years.

Also the argument that credu's weapons are 'forgotten inside jokes' is so laughable when in this same thread people are bringing up old steam names as evidence of someone being racist which could also be a 'forgotten inside joke'.

Again, im not saying what pred and degu said is justifiable in any way, im just saying some of the reasoning behind other people getting a free pass for the same shit is so stupid.

he said he's fine with receiving the same punishment as their team

EDIT: also other teams that did something similar

posted 1 week ago
#132 Ban Pred and Degu v2 in Off Topic

https://twitter.com/phorofor_/status/1025552742507573250

this is the post nursey was referring to. It's in response to the arekk/nursey situation

please dont spread things that didnt happen, and please understand that his name is mentioned for a reason

posted 1 week ago
#17 tf2 pro mod in TF2 General Discussion

I feel like u can change a lot of the bad stuff through server plugins. I know tempus has quite a neat plugin made by larry that prevents most ramp bugs. Not familiar enough to know if plugins can stop rockets on teammates and other gameplay issues.

Also im not sure what would happen to the servers if running all of these plugins.

posted 1 week ago
#408 Ban Pred and Degu in Off Topic

perfect example of how coming out about these things is difficult:

* [D|Dame III] iTac : time to up my hellbent flame
* [S|Esquire V] Shunix : shes gunna get false on u
* [D|Dame III] iTac : better not come near tempus unless she wants to cry herself to sleep again
* [D|Dame III] iTac : lets me honest you gonna employ that mess of person...
* [D|Dame III] iTac : be*
this was in a public server. false is my boyfriend for those confused here

from a tt member: "idk you cant take mireal seriously tbh
like i dont even like mireal, nor do i ever talk to him
but that reply was just written so humorously"

also hearing things about tt spouting 'mireal army'

despite all these things I am glad i said something. i know many others experience shit like this so i encourage you to step up. sure u may get some more hate but it's worth it to bring things like this to light

posted 1 week ago
#2 Gaming Research Survey in Off Topic

good luck with your research!

posted 1 week ago
#356 Ban Pred and Degu in Off Topic
DiscordI honestly feel like a lot of this could be prevented if people just spoke up when harassment happened, I've been in so many lobbies and pugs where stuff like this happened and if even 1-2 people spoke up for them it would be prevented, don't be scared of what other people think and help better the community.

a lot of times speaking up means putting yourself in a situation to receive even more hate

maelstrahmUnfortunately that will never end so it's just a smarter decision to grow a thicker skin and ignore it

telling ppl to grow thicker is invalidating their feelings and defends discrimination

posted 1 week ago
#344 Ban Pred and Degu in Off Topic
taggI deal with this shit on a constant basis outside of the community And when the people I thought were my friends. Sat around and laughed when Bdonski texted them, called his cab driver a nigger, passed the phone around & then stared at me in silence. The last shreds that kept me feeling like I had a place in this community that I was trying to hold tightly onto were shredded up

it's actually insane that i havent seen this post ( http://www.teamfortress.tv/16106/rip-tagg#21 ) until today. At the time I was not paying attention to tftv at all, yet i literally heard NOTHING about this. Bdonski streamed a couple days ago and everyone was excited including me.. pretty wild how things slip by

posted 1 week ago
#309 Ban Pred and Degu in Off Topic
MirealHellbent Hell, one of the most transphobic people in this community, mireal, has 3 jump maps named after him.
Hellbent, I am not sure who you are but I assure you I am NOT transphobic. The word "phobia" implies that my fear of your kind is irrational, which we all know is not the case. I have watched in silence as your kind has infiltrated all that I hold close to my heart; tf2 jump; my local golf club, and Sainsburys, but with your direct attempt at defamation towards me I feel inclined to strike back. Be warned, the Mireal Army does not take prisoners.

you and your friends posted transphobic things in the looking threads of nearly every trans person, with most of you getting banned. im sorry but 'my kind' is pretty fed up with that

EDIT: guess mods are cleaning up :)

posted 1 week ago
#303 Ban Pred and Degu in Off Topic

Probably a bit late in the thread to post this, but I think not a lot of people would see it if I posted it to twitter. Probably not gunna surprise anyone

after i started transitioning:
- was harassed in my own stream by an army of alts. I don't know who any of them are but I am certain are from tf2 since that's all im known for
- branslam constantly berating me in jump servers, being transphobic and calling me trash at the game (idc about the latter)
- after i blocked and muted him, he changed his name to translam for some number of weeks
- called a tranny by so many ppl i cant count, most adding a 'kill yourself'.
- Cody and Akemi being transphobic to me in faceit, both got banned
- multiple ppl from the -tt circlejerk being openly transphobic to me
- close friends refusing to refrain from using the word tranny despite me constantly telling them to stop. one of them said that he doesnt consider it a slur because it 'sounds cute'. caused me to just leave that circlejerk despite having many good friends
- incredibly creepy and unwanted attention from some, mainly crypt and someone else from jump who i dont want to name
- not trans related, but ive been told to kill myself by itac for making a jump map
All these people I am name dropping are repeat offenders that show no signs of stopping their behaviour. I have some friends now that used to be awful towards me but have changed. I think that's important; there's always time to change your behaviour; youre not locked in to being a bigot.

The reason I stopped playing 6s and am VERY close to just leaving this game altogether is that it depresses, infuriates and frustrates me. A good amount is how 6s has changed over the years, but mainly because it reminds me of all these people, and how nearly none of them received any consequences over what they said. Most are in positions of power, and so I cannot really do anything about it. Hell, one of the most transphobic people in this community, mireal, has 3 jump maps named after him.

I don't really know what to do about it if I could even do anything. Ban players? Change those map names? That would help me personally but it isn't something that's going to happen. The most salient memories i have of this game are awful.. but i still love playing whenever i block myself off to these memories.

I've avoided posting something like this because I was an awful person too when I played. I've said shit that still haunts me and I feel that it invalidates everything that I just said, like I deserve it in one way or another.

Also, 'have thicker skin' is just an excuse sociopaths use to discredit the notion of empathy (paraphrasing from John Cleese here)

posted 1 week ago
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