2:15 AM - SogeKingPrime: http://teamfortress.tv/thread/16746/suicide
2:16 AM - SogeKingPrime: I want to say something but I'm a bit scared
2:16 AM - SogeKingPrime: of what I might say might impact him to take action or not
2:16 AM - SogeKingPrime: you always have good thinking and know what to say so pls help
2:18 AM - Renhet: I have dealt with/been dealing with depression. It's hard for someone outside that specific person's mind to say something that will really help that person. Depression also affects different people differently, so it's similarly hard to apply your own experiences to someone else's. In truth, I don't think there's a lot to say that he will find meaningful unless someone can have a heart-to-heart with him to get it all out and see his entire view, because as it is you can't offer anything more personal than what he is tired of hearing: "I'm here for you"
2:19 AM - SogeKingPrime: you should post that o;
I don't think people being incapable of providing the help you need means they care less for you than you would like. I just think it's hard for people to respond properly to something they can't physically see or experience for themselves just the way you do. I have no insight into your personal life from your post really, but I would want to argue that people absolutely care about you and WANT to help, they're just as lost as you are. My dad still denies that depression even exists, but that isn't because he doesn't love me or doesn't want me to be happy, he just doesn't "get it."
I've thought about suicide before. I decided that it wouldn't solve anything. I wouldn't be happier than I was or am, just dead. And what does that do for anybody? There's too many things I want to do, and probably too many things that you want to do, to throw away the only chance you've got.
I'm not trying to give you the same patronizing shit, I'm not trying to say there's any excuse or easy road to getting better; there isn't. I think I'm just trying to say that, to a degree, I understand a bit of what you may be feeling. Working through or around depression is tough, but it is absolutely worth it.
If drugs are not working for you, have you tried any (perhaps major) changes in lifestyle?