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#1231
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I have 3rd place in this game I speedrun and I have been trying for like 2 months to get the WR or even just 2nd place but I've choked every attempt that's been close

I have 3rd place in this game I speedrun and I have been trying for like 2 months to get the WR or even just 2nd place but I've choked every attempt that's been close
1232
#1232
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PhantomI have 3rd place in this game I speedrun and I have been trying for like 2 months to get the WR or even just 2nd place but I've choked every attempt that's been close

i'm speedrunning geoguessr perfect scores, but i can't get first place in my category because of one guy who's just mental

https://i.imgur.com/vZ1nATx.png

[quote=Phantom]I have 3rd place in this game I speedrun and I have been trying for like 2 months to get the WR or even just 2nd place but I've choked every attempt that's been close[/quote]
i'm speedrunning geoguessr perfect scores, but i can't get first place in my category because of one guy who's just mental
[img]https://i.imgur.com/vZ1nATx.png[/img]
1233
#1233
11 Frags +
CaptainZidgel#1152

2+ year update!!! I know y'all were on the edge of your seat!!

I have no motivation to learn any new skills that I'm not immediately good at because I was "the gifted kindergartner" type and all that.

I've taken up indoor rock climbing because it's pretty simple just requires some physical training, and doing it automatically makes you better at it. so that's pretty cool! I've also taken up hiking except I get lost EVERY TIME and it's very anxiety inducing!

On top of that, I have no job and I can't get a job and I never will have a job, and if I ever do get a job, it will be some lifeless 9-5 that will never fulfill me, if fulfillment is even possible for me.

I've been working at Walmart pushing carts for a year and a half. It's strangely fulfilling in some ways but about every other day I feel like I'm going to have a minor melt down because of various stress factors from the job. I wouldn't mind doing it all my life but I can't raise a family on Walmart pay! I'm in school for compsci rn and getting a CompTIA certification but I be getting that impostor syndrome and I worry I won't get real job skills.
This job is becoming a mental health issue and a sin issue (I am very rude to my lesser skilled coworkers, I'm the self-appointed unofficial leader of my department). But if I move to another (easy, less-busy, more-pay) department 1) I will lose my physical edge 2) I will struggle with the dichotomy of wanting to not work and wanting to always be busy 3) I will not be able to be smug about how much work I do for little money 4) I will also have a mental health issue, as the dept I want to move to has a lot of women in it and making eye contact with women gives me crushing anxiety for more complex reasons than "I am attracted to them".
I have been considering going to therapy about this but every clinic website near me just says "we help people who are a danger to themselves or others - but nobody else!"

Activism is not really viable for me without a car to go to protests or whatever.

I have a car now! Turns out I'm just a coward.

I feel like I don't bring anything to my friend group and I know this is me being paranoid but I feel like my friends secretly find me annoying ...
Some of my friends and family struggle mentally and it sucks that I don't know how to help them and I feel like I've let them down.

Half of my friendships are me oversharing and my friend never sharing, which makes me feel like the friendship is fake, like they're my friend out of pity. The other half... I do not ask many personal questions because its tricky to navigate, but also I cannot emotionally support other people. Because of this, I feel emotionally disconnected from basically everyone in my life. I almost never talk to my siblings.

I'm constantly doubting my own feelings

I have a long history of being a big baby who likes attention and amplifies small issues. I have issues now parsing my own feelings because everything comes with "well I'm probably looking for an issue". This leads me to do things that are unhealthy things like keep working a job that stresses me because I know I'm overreacting to stressors. I mentioned I was considering therapy, but I also know that I'm trying to validate my neurotic tendencies by artificially elevating them to "needs therapy" levels. This very post is a manifestation of my desire for attention and to make myself seem troubled when I'm a privileged white boy!

i guess this isn't really anger but i was interested in looking back at my post from before i had my job so if you're made this is the wrong thread... if only there were a thread to vent it...

[quote=CaptainZidgel]#1152[/quote]
2+ year update!!! I know y'all were on the edge of your seat!!
[quote]
I have no motivation to learn any new skills that I'm not immediately good at because I was "the gifted kindergartner" type and all that.[/quote]
I've taken up indoor rock climbing because it's pretty simple just requires some physical training, and doing it automatically makes you better at it. so that's pretty cool! I've also taken up hiking except I get lost EVERY TIME and it's very anxiety inducing!
[quote]On top of that, I have no job and I can't get a job and I never will have a job, and if I ever do get a job, it will be some lifeless 9-5 that will never fulfill me, if fulfillment is even possible for me.[/quote]
I've been working at Walmart pushing carts for a year and a half. It's strangely fulfilling in some ways but about every other day I feel like I'm going to have a minor melt down because of various stress factors from the job. I wouldn't mind doing it all my life but I can't raise a family on Walmart pay! I'm in school for compsci rn and getting a CompTIA certification but I be getting that impostor syndrome and I worry I won't get real job skills.
This job is becoming a mental health issue and a sin issue (I am very rude to my lesser skilled coworkers, I'm the self-appointed unofficial leader of my department). But if I move to another (easy, less-busy, more-pay) department 1) I will lose my physical edge 2) I will struggle with the dichotomy of wanting to not work and wanting to always be busy 3) I will not be able to be smug about how much work I do for little money 4) I will also have a mental health issue, as the dept I want to move to has a lot of women in it and making eye contact with women gives me crushing anxiety for more complex reasons than "I am attracted to them".
I have been considering going to therapy about this but every clinic website near me just says "we help people who are a danger to themselves or others - but nobody else!"
[quote]Activism is not really viable for me without a car to go to protests or whatever.[/quote]
I have a car now! Turns out I'm just a coward.
[quote]I feel like I don't bring anything to my friend group and I know this is me being paranoid but I feel like my friends secretly find me annoying ...
Some of my friends and family struggle mentally and it sucks that I don't know how to help them and I feel like I've let them down.[/quote]
Half of my friendships are me oversharing and my friend never sharing, which makes me feel like the friendship is fake, like they're my friend out of pity. The other half... I do not ask many personal questions because its tricky to navigate, but also I cannot emotionally support other people. Because of this, I feel emotionally disconnected from basically everyone in my life. I almost never talk to my siblings.

[quote]I'm constantly doubting my own feelings [/quote]
I have a long history of being a big baby who likes attention and amplifies small issues. I have issues now parsing my own feelings because everything comes with "well I'm probably looking for an issue". This leads me to do things that are unhealthy things like keep working a job that stresses me because I know I'm overreacting to stressors. I mentioned I was considering therapy, but I also know that I'm trying to validate my neurotic tendencies by artificially elevating them to "needs therapy" levels. This very post is a manifestation of my desire for attention and to make myself seem troubled when I'm a privileged white boy!

i guess this isn't really anger but i was interested in looking back at my post from before i had my job so if you're made this is the wrong thread... if only there were a thread to vent it...
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#1235
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1236
#1236
4 Frags +

my lizard passed away this morning, barely two years old
my mind is just racing with anger at myself and shame about all the things i could have done differently
she deserved a full happy life and i couldnt give that to her

my lizard passed away this morning, barely two years old
my mind is just racing with anger at myself and shame about all the things i could have done differently
she deserved a full happy life and i couldnt give that to her
1237
#1237
2 Frags +

I was super excited to move into my new condo, but it has renovations going on around it for the next 3 months. They start every day at 7 am and end at 10 pm. I work from home usually. One of the workers is playing shape of you by ed sheeran.

I was super excited to move into my new condo, but it has renovations going on around it for the next 3 months. They start every day at 7 am and end at 10 pm. I work from home usually. One of the workers is playing shape of you by ed sheeran.
1238
#1238
3 Frags +

Use "alltrails" app captain zidgel for hiking
Or grab a trail map from the visitor center of the park
Make sure u know what trail name you're following and follow the color strips that they put on trees or rocks so it's easy to follow along not everything is perfect but that's some simple advice I can give you

I used to do trail work in PA and hiked more than half of the state parks in PA (there are 121 state parks in PA)

Use "alltrails" app captain zidgel for hiking
Or grab a trail map from the visitor center of the park
Make sure u know what trail name you're following and follow the color strips that they put on trees or rocks so it's easy to follow along not everything is perfect but that's some simple advice I can give you

I used to do trail work in PA and hiked more than half of the state parks in PA (there are 121 state parks in PA)
1239
#1239
-1 Frags +

"elgin" marbles

"elgin" marbles
1240
#1240
0 Frags +

I'm mad because my 2d waifu isn't real...

I'm mad because my 2d waifu isn't real...
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