i don't really care about material. i'm happy with the way i look (i think i look good although there are people who might disagree haha), i'm happy with material things that i have. i think i just want a really nice car with a nice stereo. i can't figure out what else i'd do with money. all i really spend money on is food and occasionally alcohol and weed. i rarely do the latter two nowadays. i want a car.

yes! i want a car! this is one of the few things i'm very certain about atm. i just have trouble figuring out why i still go on with doing what i do. i can still do it, but i feel like i really want a reason. i was hoping some people would share their stories because i might be thinking about this type of stuff with an attitude that isn't working for me.

you're right. i haven't thought too hard about the importance of a car outside of getting to school and work. people always tell me to get a car lol. i will definitely keep that in mind. atm, i take BART (a subway-like transportation system that many people take in northern california. it's very convenient). the thing that gets me excited about a car is the ability to blast my drum n bass and be free. i actually look forward to that.

hi. i guess i'm at the age of questioning my purpose in life so that's what i'm doing. (19 in a few days).

i'm posting this here instead of reddit because
1. i only read reddit
2. i love this community
3. i feel like you guys are good with this kinda stuff. we play the same game. we interact with the same people.
4. i talk to people about this type of stuff outside of tf2, but i feel like i'm not getting much out of it.

here's a little about me. i was a b- student throughout high school. wasted a lot of time my first two years before i picked it up my last two years. that pretty much ruined my chances of getting into a decent school. i now go to a community college. i have no goals for myself. i am a b average student in community college hoping to transfer to ucsd or uci. since i have no goals for myself, i kinda defaulted to majoring in computer science. i learned a great deal of useless computer shit from my dad and i'm unsure of what i want to do for the rest of my life.

i work in a place that i don't particularly enjoy but it's not so bad. i am able to take a month off of work if i wanted to. i don't care about money. i can work 0 hours a month or i can work 112 hours a month if i wanted to. (my boss is a cool guy).

i occasionally kick it with friends. i moved away from the city where i went to high school with my parents so i can't always see my friends. most of my friends i rarely see because they all went to good schools. i guess i live a normal community college life. its a bit hard to get out and do things because i lack a car and i don't live near the people i usually hang out with. my issue isn't social anxiety. i have no problem talking to people in a social setting (parties and what not). i bring this up because that's what people usually suggest for someone in the position of a confused community college student.

the real issue is i don't have any goals in life. i figured out i don't give a shit about school but i can't figure out why. maybe being student at my age is a social norm but i feel like i need a reason for everything i do since i am more independent now. i lived on my own (with friends, not parents. i live with my parents now.) for a year and was able to manage fine, but i feel like i hit a wall. i matured A LOT in the last 2-3 years but i still have a long way to go.

tl;dr : i feel like i am in a decent position in terms of part-time work and school. i'm unsure of my goals in life. i don't care about school or work but i still do it. how can i stay motivated? i'm not particularly excited for anything in life. i have no problem going on with my life. i just WANT a reason to do so.

any help is appreciated. i will answer any serious questions.

that looks sick. where'd you get it?

i finally finished season 2 ^^

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