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am I in such pain, I could pop a mix of things and disappear for good, natural selection is extinct

am I in such pain, I could pop a mix of things and disappear for good, natural selection is extinct
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:(

:(
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#3
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You might want to get admitted for your own well being.

You might want to get admitted for your own well being.
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#4
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Get help, immediately.

On a related note, worst sight I have seen is my friend's parents at his funeral after he jumped off a bridge. Just shells of people after that.

Don't do it.

Get help, immediately.

On a related note, worst sight I have seen is my friend's parents at his funeral after he jumped off a bridge. Just shells of people after that.

Don't do it.
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#5
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Based on his Steam, someone should contact him RIGHT NOW.

Based on his Steam, someone should contact him RIGHT NOW.
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#6
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If someone knows where he lives, call the police on him so they can help him

If someone knows where he lives, call the police on him so they can help him
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#7
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It's awfull
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It's awfull
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#8
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I don't know you personally and I've never even played with you because I'm American and don't even play 6's but I've clipped more from your stream than I can count because your hitscan is so insane. I remember posting a clip in the stream highlights thread of an insane dropshot you got in a pug on sniper that was ridiculous. The AMERICANS who play HIGHLANDER ONLY I hang out with still mention how absolutely insane you are.

This isn't to say that videogames or TF2 are the primary/only reason why you should stay. It is to say that while it might sound small to you right now, you've managed to wow thousands of people who haven't even met you over the internet. That's a feat very, very few people can legitimately accomplish. Killing yourself would be such a horrible waste.

The people who have survived jumping off the Golden Gate bridge always remark that once they jumped, they realized every problem they were facing was solvable - except for the fact that they had jumped.

Don't do it. We're here for you.

I don't know you personally and I've never even played with you because I'm American and don't even play 6's but I've clipped more from your stream than I can count because your hitscan is so insane. I remember posting a clip in the stream highlights thread of an insane dropshot you got in a pug on sniper that was ridiculous. The AMERICANS who play HIGHLANDER ONLY I hang out with still mention how absolutely insane you are.

This isn't to say that videogames or TF2 are the primary/only reason why you should stay. It is to say that while it might sound small to you right now, you've managed to wow thousands of people who haven't even met you over the internet. That's a feat very, very few people can legitimately accomplish. Killing yourself would be such a horrible waste.

The people who have survived jumping off the Golden Gate bridge always remark that once they jumped, they realized every problem they were facing was solvable - except for the fact that they had jumped.

Don't do it. We're here for you.
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#9
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Come back and stream some tf2, we'll chill.

Life can be shit sometimes, but it's not worth it to killyourself over it

Come back and stream some tf2, we'll chill.

Life can be shit sometimes, but it's not worth it to killyourself over it
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#10
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We've recently lost Miggy, we don't want to lose more precious members of this community so please dont.

We've recently lost Miggy, we don't want to lose more precious members of this community so please dont.
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#11
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hey man, i really really hope you don't do anything that will harm you. You're an amazing and inspiring person, who's young and still has life left. It's hard right now, and it gets like that, but you gotta keep going through to those outburts of good, and allow the good yo outshine the bad. Suicide isn't a fix for your problems. It's just moving them from you to someone else. Please consider not hurting yourself please. I know you have friends who care about you, and other people who care about you too. Keep pushing, please.

hey man, i really really hope you don't do anything that will harm you. You're an amazing and inspiring person, who's young and still has life left. It's hard right now, and it gets like that, but you gotta keep going through to those outburts of good, and allow the good yo outshine the bad. Suicide isn't a fix for your problems. It's just moving them from you to someone else. Please consider not hurting yourself please. I know you have friends who care about you, and other people who care about you too. Keep pushing, please.
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#12
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Puo, we love you okay? You aren't alone. If you need to talk we're here. Please be okay.

Puo, we love you okay? You aren't alone. If you need to talk we're here. Please be okay.
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#13
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I tried sending him snaps, he's not responding which is unlike him :(

I tried sending him snaps, he's not responding which is unlike him :(
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#14
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I'm worried about you, man, I really hope you're okay. Your friends, family, and fans love and support you. Whatever you're going through right now, I wish you the best of luck in overcoming it.

I'm worried about you, man, I really hope you're okay. Your friends, family, and fans love and support you. Whatever you're going through right now, I wish you the best of luck in overcoming it.
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#15
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someone please talk to him

someone please talk to him
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#16
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Just quickly noting alive still. The previous message I tried to send was invalid or shit so i¨ll explain below

Just quickly noting alive still. The previous message I tried to send was invalid or shit so i¨ll explain below
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#17
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thank goodness

thank goodness
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#18
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Thank the god and goddess! I'm really glad you're okay Puo. I was worried all day.

I love you, merry Christmas.

Thank the god and goddess! I'm really glad you're okay Puo. I was worried all day.

I love you, merry Christmas.
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#19
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Merry Christmas puo. Keep your head straight for everyone’s sake. Things will get better

Merry Christmas puo. Keep your head straight for everyone’s sake. Things will get better
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#20
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Like for many others, life has been incredibly painful for me, in my case I wanted to cut my throat at the age of 5. I'm going to see a cognitive therapist in early January, which most certainly will be helpful. As nice and friendly I may seem to people I have incredible amounts of pain inside me ever since I was born, I always was a very empathetic kid. My brother told me that apparently I've always been really really good at hiding my problems, anything really. This year, 2017 has just been the most fucked up year of my life, I'm really lucky to be alive atm.
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I have been depressed and had suicidal thoughts at the age of 5 all because of my shitty genetics and fuckin ADHD. My childhood was just incredible pain, i damaged myself physically and emotionally as a kid alot, each night wishing to die. I shamed and punished myself for being sad, which is fucked up.

I'm very sorry to concern you guys yet again, but I do have severe anxiety- and panic disorders, and as far far as I remember I have it between moderate/major depression. The thing with my depression is that I'm not just sleeping all day, being really sad, upset or "emo" for the most part, it starts to happen though when i'm alone for too long. Its more about me not getting genuine joy out of absolutely anything, except when I get to be myself with my close friends and feel safe around them, because my friends and my 1 brother are only ppl I really consider my family, my childhood was utter pure shit.

Loneliness and the lack "proximity?" of my friends is really sad to me, but I obviously they don't always have the time for me, hangin in such big groups at times, understandably, especially because they ride by a car a lot, I do ask to join every now and then and do it but they are mostly packed. I'm pretty sure I have season-related depression as well and Winter always makes me passive as shit, there's only couple hours of light during a day and even that light feels cold kind of light to me opposed to the yellow-ish sunlight

EDIT: but yes, I know life is ups and downs, the super shitty thing about winter is that it makes me as anxious to go outside as staying inside =/ after being alone long enough I start get into my head and see that little kid doing so much fucking damage to himself, because one disorder dickhead doctor denied me having ADHD, motherfucker got fire long ago but he essentially ruined my life, instead of going to school drunk I could've taken ADHD-medication and get something done.

Like for many others, life has been incredibly painful for me, in my case I wanted to cut my throat at the age of 5. I'm going to see a cognitive therapist in early January, which most certainly will be helpful. As nice and friendly I may seem to people I have incredible amounts of pain inside me ever since I was born, I always was a very empathetic kid. My brother told me that apparently I've always been really really good at hiding my problems, anything really. This year, 2017 has just been the most fucked up year of my life, I'm really lucky to be alive atm.
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I have been depressed and had suicidal thoughts at the age of 5 all because of my shitty genetics and fuckin ADHD. My childhood was just incredible pain, i damaged myself physically and emotionally as a kid alot, each night wishing to die. I shamed and punished myself for being sad, which is fucked up.

I'm very sorry to concern you guys yet again, but I do have severe anxiety- and panic disorders, and as far far as I remember I have it between moderate/major depression. The thing with my depression is that I'm not just sleeping all day, being really sad, upset or "emo" for the most part, it starts to happen though when i'm alone for too long. Its more about me not getting genuine joy out of absolutely anything, except when I get to be myself with my close friends and feel safe around them, because my friends and my 1 brother are only ppl I really consider my family, my childhood was utter pure shit.

Loneliness and the lack "proximity?" of my friends is really sad to me, but I obviously they don't always have the time for me, hangin in such big groups at times, understandably, especially because they ride by a car a lot, I do ask to join every now and then and do it but they are mostly packed. I'm pretty sure I have season-related depression as well and Winter always makes me passive as shit, there's only couple hours of light during a day and even that light feels cold kind of light to me opposed to the yellow-ish sunlight

EDIT: but yes, I know life is ups and downs, the super shitty thing about winter is that it makes me as anxious to go outside as staying inside =/ after being alone long enough I start get into my head and see that little kid doing so much fucking damage to himself, because one disorder dickhead doctor denied me having ADHD, motherfucker got fire long ago but he essentially ruined my life, instead of going to school drunk I could've taken ADHD-medication and get something done.
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#21
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I am really sorry to hear you feel this way Puo. I can't say I've been directly in your shoes before but I've been in similar situations. Being sad really fucking sucks, and I have anxiety/panic too. But you are so much stronger than you think, I know things seem really shitty right now but I can promise you that things will get better. You were put on this beautiful planet of ours for a reason. You can get through this, I know you can. It may take a while but soon enough you'll get the best of your anxiety and depression. You are strong, you are such a wonderful person. Please don't ever feel like you have no one to talk to, because you do. We care about you, we really do. You're going to kick your depression and anxiety's ass.

You are not alone, you are loved and there are people that care about you.

You've got this, it'll get better.

We love you.

I am really sorry to hear you feel this way Puo. I can't say I've been directly in your shoes before but I've been in similar situations. Being sad really fucking sucks, and I have anxiety/panic too. But you are so much stronger than you think, I know things seem really shitty right now but I can promise you that things will get better. You were put on this beautiful planet of ours for a reason. You can get through this, I know you can. It may take a while but soon enough you'll get the best of your anxiety and depression. You are strong, you are such a wonderful person. Please don't ever feel like you have no one to talk to, because you do. We care about you, we really do. You're going to kick your depression and anxiety's ass.

You are not alone, you are loved and there are people that care about you.

You've got this, it'll get better.

We love you.
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It's really good that you are sharing this my man, that's the first and maybe hardest step to take. I hope it gets all better next year, you can do it! I believe in you

It's really good that you are sharing this my man, that's the first and maybe hardest step to take. I hope it gets all better next year, you can do it! I believe in you
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#24
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ArguedOysterAlong with this thread, what if someone saw all these clues and actually called the police?

Then they would have been doing something in an attempt to save a life. I have been in the position to a. make that call, b. have that call made about me and c. I am fortunate enough to work in a position where I am one of the people who gets sent when those calls are made.

I can tell you without a doubt that the actions of a concerned friend, acquaintance or bystander absolutely 100% saves lives.

How many people did you frighten with what might've happened? These are very sociopathic tendencies and hopefully professional help will make things easier.

I'm not sure calling someone who is clearly hurting and in need of help a sociopath for reaching out the only way their illness would let them is a good strategy. It's also factually confused about what it means for someone to be a sociopath.

I'm a nobody to scold you like this, but part of being human is realizing that you're always part of a much larger system and everything you do affects other people. You're never truly alone and there are many people in the world going through the exact same things and feeling the exact same feelings.

This would have been an excellent sentiment.

Puo, I don't know you and you don't know me, but from one internet stranger nerd to another, you can fight this. Behavioural therapy is incredibly effective and helpful to many many people. Never be afraid to ask for help or to admit that you need help. Mental illness isn't some special class of illness that means you have to face the problems alone and without the aide of family, friends and good medical help. We don't ask it of cancer patients and we shouldn't ask it of those that suffer from illness of the mind. I'm glad you are okay. Keep fighting. <3

[quote=ArguedOyster]Along with this thread, what if someone saw all these clues and actually called the police?[/quote]

Then they would have been doing something in an attempt to save a life. I have been in the position to a. make that call, b. have that call made about me and c. I am fortunate enough to work in a position where I am one of the people who gets sent when those calls are made.

I can tell you without a doubt that the actions of a concerned friend, acquaintance or bystander absolutely 100% saves lives.

[quote] How many people did you frighten with what might've happened? These are very sociopathic tendencies and hopefully professional help will make things easier. [/quote]

I'm not sure calling someone who is clearly hurting and in need of help a sociopath for reaching out the only way their illness would let them is a good strategy. It's also factually confused about what it means for someone to be a sociopath.

[quote] [s]I'm a nobody to scold you like this, but part of being human is realizing that you're always part of a much larger system and everything you do affects other people[/s]. You're never truly alone and there are many people in the world going through the exact same things and feeling the exact same feelings.[/quote]

This would have been an excellent sentiment.

Puo, I don't know you and you don't know me, but from one internet stranger nerd to another, you can fight this. Behavioural therapy is incredibly effective and helpful to many many people. Never be afraid to ask for help or to admit that you need help. Mental illness isn't some special class of illness that means you have to face the problems alone and without the aide of family, friends and good medical help. We don't ask it of cancer patients and we shouldn't ask it of those that suffer from illness of the mind. I'm glad you are okay. Keep fighting. <3
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#25
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Puo, glad to hear you're safe. Best wishes with your therapy in the coming month, nobody needs to deal with things alone and that's a great step. <3

Puo, glad to hear you're safe. Best wishes with your therapy in the coming month, nobody needs to deal with things alone and that's a great step. <3
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Thank God you're alive. Depression sucks ass, and so does anxiety. I'm not sure if you're medicated or not, but sometimes getting to a phsyciatrist (or however you spell that word) and getting something is really beneficial. I'm not saying medication is the go to way, or the only way out of anxiety. I'm unmedicated and I have some skills I use when I have a panic attack that most of the time work. I'm down to share those if you or anyone are interested. Medication is sometimes good considering it can literally allow you to think clearly and use those skills you might have in your mental collection. I know how hard it can be to remember them when you're having a bad anxiety attack, but that's just my input. We love you man I'm really glad to hear you're still here with us. Much love ❤

Also, grats on getting a form of therapy in January!

Thank God you're alive. Depression sucks ass, and so does anxiety. I'm not sure if you're medicated or not, but sometimes getting to a phsyciatrist (or however you spell that word) and getting something is really beneficial. I'm not saying medication is the go to way, or the only way out of anxiety. I'm unmedicated and I have some skills I use when I have a panic attack that most of the time work. I'm down to share those if you or anyone are interested. Medication is sometimes good considering it can literally allow you to think clearly and use those skills you might have in your mental collection. I know how hard it can be to remember them when you're having a bad anxiety attack, but that's just my input. We love you man I'm really glad to hear you're still here with us. Much love ❤

Also, grats on getting a form of therapy in January!
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#27
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thank goodness things are okay for now. I don't know you personally but seen your stream sometimes and you seem like a chill and genuine dude and the community loves you. If you're starting with therapy in Jan that's great, hope it is the help you need.

Either way you're overwhelmingly not alone in this - I've seen so many close friends and to some extent myself struggle with depression that I'm more and more convinced that society is at fault, we've created an environment that is not conducive to our mental health. So just don't be afraid to talk about it. But I don't think you are.

Merry christmas and best of luck dude.

thank goodness things are okay for now. I don't know you personally but seen your stream sometimes and you seem like a chill and genuine dude and the community loves you. If you're starting with therapy in Jan that's great, hope it is the help you need.

Either way you're overwhelmingly not alone in this - I've seen so many close friends and to some extent myself struggle with depression that I'm more and more convinced that society is at fault, we've created an environment that is not conducive to our mental health. So just don't be afraid to talk about it. But I don't think you are.

Merry christmas and best of luck dude.
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#28
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love you puo

love you puo
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I'm glad to hear you're safe and it's very good that you're going to see a therapist in January, I have had depression for a long time and even though medicines have never really had an effect on me, just talking to a therapist and being able to vent every this really helps a lot for. I hope you'll feel better.

I'm glad to hear you're safe and it's very good that you're going to see a therapist in January, I have had depression for a long time and even though medicines have never really had an effect on me, just talking to a therapist and being able to vent every this really helps a lot for. I hope you'll feel better.
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Edit I somehow fucked the quotes, and the other on on the other site as well

Edit I somehow fucked the quotes, and the other on on the other site as well
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