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My goodbye to TF2
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I tried to kill myself on Sunday and I just couldn't do it, but I think I have the balls to do it a different way tomorrow.

I just want to say thank you to the community that brought fun and meaning to my life for so long. Special shout outs to Alterium, Phoniii, Noops, Morris, Crayonnipples, and the Portland Burnsiders. All of them made it a very special experience.

I tried to kill myself on Sunday and I just couldn't do it, but I think I have the balls to do it a different way tomorrow.

I just want to say thank you to the community that brought fun and meaning to my life for so long. Special shout outs to Alterium, Phoniii, Noops, Morris, Crayonnipples, and the Portland Burnsiders. All of them made it a very special experience.
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#2
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dumpster it is!

dumpster it is!
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#3
85 Frags +

Hey man. Hope you're trolling.

Please don't kill yourself. There's no problem that you have in your life that can't be solved, except for a successful suicide. Please pm me, I'd be happy to talk to you over text or the phone right now.

Hey man. Hope you're trolling.

Please don't kill yourself. There's no problem that you have in your life that can't be solved, except for a successful suicide. Please pm me, I'd be happy to talk to you over text or the phone right now.
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#4
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If this is bait i'm taking it but for real, this is a decision you can't take back and we're impulsive.

The only way for things to get better in life is to perdure even if everything seems lost, because there's always a way, hard as it may be. You can always try to fix things but suicide is not something you can undo.
Life has a lot of things worth staying for, and if you're now going through a bad stage in life, find support, stay strong and everything will get better with your effort and the effort from the people surrounding you.

I realize i'm probably not the best person to have a conversation about this with, but still if you need someone to talk with just hmu.

If this is bait i'm taking it but for real, this is a decision you can't take back and we're impulsive.

The only way for things to get better in life is to perdure even if everything seems lost, because there's always a way, hard as it may be. You can always try to fix things but suicide is not something you can undo.
Life has a lot of things worth staying for, and if you're now going through a bad stage in life, find support, stay strong and everything will get better with your effort and the effort from the people surrounding you.

I realize i'm probably not the best person to have a conversation about this with, but still if you need someone to talk with just hmu.
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#5
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Try to get a lot of sleep next few days. You'll think clear again man. Stay strong

Try to get a lot of sleep next few days. You'll think clear again man. Stay strong
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#6
37 Frags +

pls dont kill yourself you are still rolling out v_v

pls dont kill yourself you are still rolling out v_v
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#7
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Failwizard, you were such a chill guy at both rewinds, it was so nice to meet you and hang out. Please dont kill yourself. You're a quality dude, and I'd be really upset if you did. No matter how bad life seems right now, trust me it gets better. I've been where you are, i've nearly done it as well, it is NOT worth it. You may think you're making things better, but infact you're ensuring it never will.

DM me on twitter for my phone number if you need someone to talk to. I'm here.

Failwizard, you were such a chill guy at both rewinds, it was so nice to meet you and hang out. Please dont kill yourself. You're a quality dude, and I'd be really upset if you did. No matter how bad life seems right now, trust me it gets better. I've been where you are, i've nearly done it as well, it is NOT worth it. You may think you're making things better, but infact you're ensuring it never will.

DM me on twitter for my phone number if you need someone to talk to. I'm here.
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#8
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Well, tbh, i don't even know You, but if You didn't killed yourself, it seems you have something, witch still keeps you alive. You still have motivation to live, You just need to dig a bit inside, and find it, improve it. You had strength to live another day, and like i see, You have people around who cares about You, You meet some people at lans, why let go of meeting more people at lan? Why you should let go of good things?
Keep Your head up buddy, don't be shy or afraid to ask for help, talk with someone, You are not alone.
C@ one day at lan!

Well, tbh, i don't even know You, but if You didn't killed yourself, it seems you have something, witch still keeps you alive. You still have motivation to live, You just need to dig a bit inside, and find it, improve it. You had strength to live another day, and like i see, You have people around who cares about You, You meet some people at lans, why let go of meeting more people at lan? Why you should let go of good things?
Keep Your head up buddy, don't be shy or afraid to ask for help, talk with someone, You are not alone.
C@ one day at lan!
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#9
16 Frags +

Stay strong <3

Stay strong <3
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#10
17 Frags +

don't suicide pls

don't suicide pls
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#11
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Things always always always turn out good in the end! Hold on my friend <3

Things always always always turn out good in the end! Hold on my friend <3
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#12
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If you are trolling then do it. If not, then there are other ways to quit life than killing yourself :)

If you are trolling then do it. If not, then there are other ways to quit life than killing yourself :)
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eXtelevision
43 Frags +

We love you fa1l. You have the Burnsiders support, we are there for you to help you get through this. HMU, sent you FB and discord messages.

We love you fa1l. You have the Burnsiders support, we are there for you to help you get through this. HMU, sent you FB and discord messages.
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#14
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Suicide is not a joke, lost too many people to it. Talk to someone man i don't care what you been through talk it out with someone to every down side there is a upside. Even if you say there is no upside there has to be you gotta get through shit you got no choice that's life. Life is like a roller coaster you see bad times and you see the good times you just gotta make it through, the last thing i wanna do is read on this website is see another young kid killing himself because he got stuck.

Please don't let this be a troll it would hurt my feelings, because i know people that are suicidal in this community that i talk to and try to send positivity to as best i can. I feel like i failed a bit when Cornish killed himself because i knew he was depressed after FLAN 2016 i tried to cheer him up and give him positivity and told him to see someone in irl, but i guess it wasn't enough.

Seriously talk to someone real life family,friends,relatives,anything

Suicide is not a joke, lost too many people to it. Talk to someone man i don't care what you been through talk it out with someone to every down side there is a upside. Even if you say there is no upside there has to be you gotta get through shit you got no choice that's life. Life is like a roller coaster you see bad times and you see the good times you just gotta make it through, the last thing i wanna do is read on this website is see another young kid killing himself because he got stuck.

Please don't let this be a troll it would hurt my feelings, because i know people that are suicidal in this community that i talk to and try to send positivity to as best i can. I feel like i failed a bit when Cornish killed himself because i knew he was depressed after FLAN 2016 i tried to cheer him up and give him positivity and told him to see someone in irl, but i guess it wasn't enough.

Seriously talk to someone real life family,friends,relatives,anything
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#15
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Please do not, like frenzy said to someone talk to someone you know irl. If you die they will really miss you, as someone who also has went trough same shit as you I can absolutely tell you that there IS a way to get better. Please... do NOT kill yourself!

Please do not, like frenzy said to someone talk to someone you know irl. If you die they will really miss you, as someone who also has went trough same shit as you I can absolutely tell you that there IS a way to get better. Please... do NOT kill yourself!
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eXtelevision
47 Frags +

Called him through Facebook and he picked up. We had a a brief chat, and I offered my support. Clearly woke him up, so I let him go back to sleep. Please continue to share love and support for Eric.

Definitely depression and suicidal thoughts are a serious issue, please seek help and chat with friends,family, or crisis centers if you find yourself in that scenario. Seek help, people care about you.

Called him through Facebook and he picked up. We had a a brief chat, and I offered my support. Clearly woke him up, so I let him go back to sleep. Please continue to share love and support for Eric.

Definitely depression and suicidal thoughts are a serious issue, please seek help and chat with friends,family, or crisis centers if you find yourself in that scenario. Seek help, people care about you.
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#17
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I love everyone in this community and you're no exception eric, you say thanks for bringing fun and meaning into your life, but i think there's more still to come for you - I'd love for you to stay and enjoy it too. Special experiences will keep on coming if you let them!

I love everyone in this community and you're no exception eric, you say thanks for bringing fun and meaning into your life, but i think there's more still to come for you - I'd love for you to stay and enjoy it too. Special experiences will keep on coming if you let them!
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#18
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whys the tf2 community so riddled with depression?

whys the tf2 community so riddled with depression?
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#19
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If You die How are you Gonna read my Future fan fiction :-(:-(

If You die How are you Gonna read my Future fan fiction :-(:-(
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#20
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Jynxiiwhys the tf2 community so riddled with depression?

I think video games communities in general are plagued with it because the people spend all their time in doors playing a video game. Keep in mind this isn't to put these people down, just my hunch as someone who this arguably applies to.

[quote=Jynxii]whys the tf2 community so riddled with depression?[/quote]

I think video games communities in general are plagued with it because the people spend all their time in doors playing a video game. Keep in mind this isn't to put these people down, just my hunch as someone who this arguably applies to.
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MakJynxiiwhys the tf2 community so riddled with depression?
I think video games communities in general are plagued with it because the people spend all their time in doors playing a video game. Keep in mind this isn't to put these people down, just my hunch as someone who this arguably applies to.

videogames are not seen as a productive hobby by nearly anyone, and negative attributes such as violence, obesity, and racism in youth are blamed on videogames often. tf2 gets bullied by most other communities as well, so we're really hating it. as horrid as it is to say, it's honestly kind of surprising to me that more people in this community arent horribly depressed, since all odds are stacked against you if you start dedicating large amounts of your time to tf2... :c

[quote=Mak][quote=Jynxii]whys the tf2 community so riddled with depression?[/quote]

I think video games communities in general are plagued with it because the people spend all their time in doors playing a video game. Keep in mind this isn't to put these people down, just my hunch as someone who this arguably applies to.[/quote]
videogames are not seen as a productive hobby by nearly anyone, and negative attributes such as violence, obesity, and racism in youth are blamed on videogames often. tf2 gets bullied by most other communities as well, so we're really hating it. as horrid as it is to say, it's honestly kind of surprising to me that more people in this community arent horribly depressed, since all odds are stacked against you if you start dedicating large amounts of your time to tf2... :c
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#22
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Love ya fail.

Love ya fail.
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#23
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You cant bro, We got so many more lans to party at and beers to drink.

You cant bro, We got so many more lans to party at and beers to drink.
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#24
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Go ask for help. It is the bravest thing you can do. Fight back when the things are back, but do not fight alone. Many people are to afraid to ask for help when they need it. Be brave and admit that things are bad. Get help and accept the help you get.
Depressed is not what you are, depression is something you have. You can get rid of it. There are people who work to help people with mental problems. If you break a leg or an arm you go to the doctor to get help. You can do the same thing with mental problems. Get help. There are people who have spent years to learn how to help.
Remember that asking for help is not admitting that you are a coward. Asking for help is showing that you are willing to fight back when life brings you shit. You do not need to fight this fight alone.

About 1,5 years ago a guy at the same school i went to killed himself. The next day there were people crying in every hallway, outside every classroom and outside around the hole school. Even though you think noone cares about you there are many people that will miss you and cares about you.

- Some dude on the internet who wants to see you alive

Go ask for help. It is the bravest thing you can do. Fight back when the things are back, but do not fight alone. Many people are to afraid to ask for help when they need it. Be brave and admit that things are bad. Get help and accept the help you get.
Depressed is not what you are, depression is something you have. You can get rid of it. There are people who work to help people with mental problems. If you break a leg or an arm you go to the doctor to get help. You can do the same thing with mental problems. Get help. There are people who have spent years to learn how to help.
Remember that asking for help is not admitting that you are a coward. Asking for help is showing that you are willing to fight back when life brings you shit. You do not need to fight this fight alone.

About 1,5 years ago a guy at the same school i went to killed himself. The next day there were people crying in every hallway, outside every classroom and outside around the hole school. Even though you think noone cares about you there are many people that will miss you and cares about you.

- Some dude on the internet who wants to see you alive
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#25
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i dont know u, but dont do it D^: it will make many people sad

i dont know u, but dont do it D^: it will make many people sad
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#26
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man, it was so amazing to meet you in person at rewind this year and talking to you in general was always awesome. I wouldn't know what the reason for your feelings is but I do know that there is a reason to go on whether it be big or small. life gets better but you need to be around to see it and help it happen. its never a sign of weakness to ask for help or to talk it out. please seek help and take your time to figure things out. if you need someone to reach out to, i'm here if you need someone to listen. i want to see you at the next rewind.
love u man

man, it was so amazing to meet you in person at rewind this year and talking to you in general was always awesome. I wouldn't know what the reason for your feelings is but I do know that there is a reason to go on whether it be big or small. life gets better but you need to be around to see it and help it happen. its never a sign of weakness to ask for help or to talk it out. please seek help and take your time to figure things out. if you need someone to reach out to, i'm here if you need someone to listen. i want to see you at the next rewind.
love u man
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#27
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Jynxiiwhys the tf2 community so riddled with depression?

Because it's a hobby enjoyed by people in their teens to thirties. On top of that the competitive scene is a very niche community that people invest a lot of time and effort into, which stresses IRL commitments and relationships.

[quote=Jynxii]whys the tf2 community so riddled with depression?[/quote]

Because it's a hobby enjoyed by people in their teens to thirties. On top of that the competitive scene is a very niche community that people invest a lot of time and effort into, which stresses IRL commitments and relationships.
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#28
4 Frags +

Been there man, it's not worth it. Just talk to someone, idk you but it seems like a lot of people in this thread care about you and want to talk to you. It gets better I promise, I was depressed and suicidal for like the majority of high school and I finally hit like a rock bottom, which kind of sounds where you're at right now, and I finally realized that there are a lot of people that care about me and i'm sure the same goes for you. Stay strong man and if we don't hear from you sleep well brotha. [*]

Been there man, it's not worth it. Just talk to someone, idk you but it seems like a lot of people in this thread care about you and want to talk to you. It gets better I promise, I was depressed and suicidal for like the majority of high school and I finally hit like a rock bottom, which kind of sounds where you're at right now, and I finally realized that there are a lot of people that care about me and i'm sure the same goes for you. Stay strong man and if we don't hear from you sleep well brotha. [*]
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#29
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Tholevideogames are not seen as a productive hobby by nearly anyone, and negative attributes such as violence, obesity, and racism in youth are blamed on videogames often. tf2 gets bullied by most other communities as well, so we're really hating it. as horrid as it is to say, it's honestly kind of surprising to me that more people in this community arent horribly depressed, since all odds are stacked against you if you start dedicating large amounts of your time to tf2... :c

Tf2 not being an esport is not why ppl are depressed.

[quote=Thole]
videogames are not seen as a productive hobby by nearly anyone, and negative attributes such as violence, obesity, and racism in youth are blamed on videogames often. tf2 gets bullied by most other communities as well, so we're really hating it. as horrid as it is to say, it's honestly kind of surprising to me that more people in this community arent horribly depressed, since all odds are stacked against you if you start dedicating large amounts of your time to tf2... :c[/quote]

Tf2 not being an esport is not why ppl are depressed.
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#30
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We love you wiz. I understand that you feel really shitty and suicide seems like an easy out but believe me its not. People love you, even if you don't feel like they do. We all care about you; please take care of yourself. Make sure to get sunshine and drink water, eat 3 times a day; etc.

You were put onto this beautiful planet for a reason, you're meant to be here.

We love you.

We love you wiz. I understand that you feel really shitty and suicide seems like an easy out but believe me its not. People love you, even if you don't feel like they do. We all care about you; please take care of yourself. Make sure to get sunshine and drink water, eat 3 times a day; etc.

You were put onto this beautiful planet for a reason, you're meant to be here.

We love you.
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